Death
   but no release
Empty again
  in ever more ways
But it's okay
  Don't be sorry
It's here for me
And I'm not suffering
  Something is happening here
A deeper change
    It brings me into a depth
     a stillness
Can I accept it?
  Am I ready?
    I'm allowing the change.
      cling to nothing.
When I'm silent
    it speaks.
Open up
         Listen.
   It doesn't make sense
But I don't care anymore
   It's just an experience
     in the midst of realization.
I am here
  it can serve me.
It's unpleasant now
  as I breathe my way through
But I can be in grace
as I go beyond
and see another view.

Leather straps pulling
me tighter
constricting my breath.
I pull myself into
the thick gravitation
of what they think it
means to live.
Countless experiences pass
where I question
the sanity
which bestows my heart, the wisdom
of my soul.
The mind drowns out
the true inner knowing
"No more", I softly declare
in a calm soft whisper.
I cut through confusion of
the dizzying self-doubt.
Gracious servitude naturally
here, allowing myself
the space to be.

Find
good feeling
thoughts
wherever you can find them
reality be vibration imagined
sustained and realised

this be the only requirement
to creating a  satisfying reality
vibration be first
action be later
alignment be all

Let
shadows fall
where the sun wills it

be
as the changed
not as the changing

some days are really gloomy,
other days are why was i ever gloomy.

how do you find a balance,
when you don't really know,
why you feel what you feel.

happy for no reason at all,
and being sad for the same.

how do you figure yourself,
how do you not be sad,
when you don't know what made sad.

Are you bothered by "It?!"
Are you pushing it away?
When you hit rock bottom
The only way back is up.

Make friends with "It."
Move  closer to "It."
Expand your awareness around "It."
Totally embrace "It."

If you drop the story line about "It."
"It" will become a Love story.
A story about Unconditional Kindness & Love.

It's not what you trust the world to accept about you, but instead what you trust yourself to accept about the world.