If just one
sunflower bloomed
for every time I dreamt of you,
there wouldn't be room
for the thorns
and thistles.

These memories blanket me
like the cosmos above-
countless worlds I will
never experience.
The stars above sparkle
like the unsaid words and
our broken promises-
out of reach yet oh
so beautiful.

There is a fine line
between wanting someone back
and missing someone

3:55 PM
28/3/23

Dear Diary;
I met a girl last night
and I saw a goddess in her eyes.
Can you believe it?
I met a *******
goddess.

Memories are as
delicate as the petals
of a sunflower

11:54 PM
22/8/21

Solitude is not
about where I am, it is
about who I am

6:05 PM
21/5/23

I have now realized that
there is no place in this world
for me without you.
There is no star where you do not twinkle
nor sunflower where you do not blossom.
Indeed, I will always carry you with me
no matter where I go,
and no matter the time.

I am leaving-
not because I want to,
but because by leaving,
I will recover the piece
of me missing.

Would you have done the
same if you had known how it
was going to end?

9:06 PM
1/2/23

Sometimes I need my solitude
when the battery gets low,
when the voices are too loud
and when I feel the weight
of the world upon my shoulders.
We all have our ways of recharging
whether it be in shadows
or in light.

Sometimes I wake and
remember you like a sunflower
remembers the sun on a stormy night.
Indeed, your sunlight blessed
the garden of my soul and
left life and joy in its wake.
The warmth of your touch,
the illumination of your smile
blooms a thousand sunflowers
that make up this soul.

Though I now may be damaged,
I could never hurt anyone
the way you hurt me.

We spent four years
wounding each other?
Is that love?
Some people would call us mad,
but that's what I just call
life.

I can still feel your presence
through distance and time,
through the tears and the smiles,
and through the darkness and light.

Her flesh may be scar-less,
but don't be fooled,
her broken bones and
broken heart are
all part of the
journey.

My heart calls to you,
it needs you more than blood.
It longs for your smile,
for your stories and
all of your being.
You are my sun,
and from this Earth I long for you.
So hear this heart calling,
and come back into my arms.

what a
tragedy it is
to think of you
and not tell you
because you are
no longer
mine.

What will I do with
all that vulnerability
you have given me?

3:59 PM
9/2/23

Oh Chai,
you cleanse this soul.
Your warmth rushes through this body
on the way to this frozen heart.
So sweet you are,
I need you every night.
Oh Chai,
it's you that makes me feel alright.

Baby,
I'm a broken man.
I'm nothing but damaged goods
but I promise to give you
all of the love that I
couldn't promise
to myself.

I won't say your name-
you are not for me and I
am not for you, dear

11:49 AM
20/1/21

There is nothing wrong
with losing people.
What is wrong is
losing yourself
for other people.

Distance is the bridge
that separates our two worlds-
A bridge I must cross.

8:51 PM
26/9/24

I want someone who
knows the silence of my soul.
Yes, we will build our lives
from a sweet silence that
only we can understand.

The Earth can only
contain so much before
it bursts open from its
volcanoes and geysers,
as can a star when it
goes supernova.
What chance do you have
of holding it all in?

I wanted to take care of you
as if you were the last sunflower on Earth
but winter ravaged this garden.
Despite my best efforts,
I watched your petals wither
before my helpless eyes.
It is true that I did not know
how to take care of you,
but I’ll be ****** if
I had not given you my all.

To dig up the past,
is to raise the dead.
Let it rest,
for you will find
nothing but rot and death.
Do not relive the horrors
of a life now deceased.

It may not seem like it,
but no one,
not one person,
has their life 100% together.
Everyone has their struggles
and everyone shows it in different ways.

This is where we go
when we die: into the hearts
of those who love us

8:57 PM
27/3/20

There are still stars
in the sky where you sed to twinkle.
Sometimes I am lucky to witness
a shooting star when we talk
but that is fleeting in an
otherwise dead sky.

The last time I saw you,
it did not feel the same.
I could feel it straight away-
you had changed and
had already closed the door
to what we once were.
And alongside me,
you left your innocence
and who you used to be.

You said forever
but you did not mention just
how short it would be

1:12 AM
28/8/22

I do not wait for you,
but I am all you have and
all you will ever know.
I can distance you from people,
but I can also bring you together.
I can heal wounds and I
can open up old scars.
I am time.

Your laugh
still echoes in
my mind,
my dreams,
and that's the
saddest part of all.

Letting go of you
was the best thing I have done.
Yes, I found you out.

10:21 PM
20/8/20

Do you not know
that you are mine, and I am yours?
That your dreams are mine,
and that our hearts beat as one?
We may be separated but never apart
for we are one in blood, one in soul.
Everywhere you go, I go too,
We breathe the same air.

The mere act of thinking about you
takes me to the cosmos and beyond,
that is why I love to write you,
all of you, my inspiration and
absolute devotion.

I still believe there is a
little piece of love that flickers in
the centre of your heart-
Like an ember struggling to breathe
in the heart of a
stormy night.

It came like a cloud
that appeared out of nowhere,
like an unexpected storm
upon my shores without warning.
One moment there was sun,
and the next,
darkness.

You closed the door on
me and I closed the door on
everybody else

10:04 PM
6/4/22

I thought I
could save you
but it turns out that
I only made it
worse.

Your love
makes me feel like I'm
falling like a petal in
your presence.
Carried by your breath,
I drift into your heart
and make my home.

It is impossible to separate you
like the sun from the moon.
It still hurts to remember you,
but the memories still
brighten my days.

We have nobody to blame
for these feelings but ourselves.
How we react depends on how
we interpret the situation.
Just remember that you are
your own source of emotion-
the keys to this ride
we call life
is yours.

I seem to know how
to chase the stars-
but never how to
catch them.

What is sadder than
to end something that could have
given us much more?

11:31 PM
26/4/23

I love you every
day but today I will put
it in a haiku

7:49 PM
23/2/20

Dear Diary;
I have concluded that
there is no soul left in me-
maybe I never had one.
All I know is that there are
no dreams and no love
to be desired.

When the time is right,
we will meet again, that is
my promise to you

4:12 PM
4/1/21

She swallowed my
heart and my soul
like a tornado
swallows all the
life it touches.