It still pains me to
think of the nasty memories
we cannot un-live

10:06 AM
2/8/21

Even if I don't
see you anymore, you still
come to me in dreams

3:56 PM
25/1/21

A strong name for a
majestic sort of goddess
that I had the luck of meeting.
She sang her song-
one of which
captured my heart
and one of which
we can both
rejoice.

i never meant
for you to hate me,
I wanted the opposite,
in fact.
I suppose it is better this way,
for me,
at least.

Some leave,
and when they do,
they take a piece of
your soul with them.
How many more have to leave
until I am nothing
but a shell?

I was not born a
leader nor a follower-
I was born to write

3:58 PM
3/6/22

Another year,
another chapter
in this book we call life.
Turn the page and
begin your story.

I see your smile
and I wonder if heaven
has opened for me

10:12 AM
18/3/23

My heart calls to you,
it needs you more than blood.
It longs for your smile,
for your stories and
all of your being.
You are my sun,
and from this Earth I long for you.
So hear this heart calling,
and come back into my arms.

I still dream about you
from time to time.
Sometimes I wish to not wake up,
sometimes they turn into nightmares.
Either way, I am sad when I wake up
to see that you are gone.

To dig up the past,
is to raise the dead.
Let it rest,
for you will find
nothing but rot and death.
Do not relive the horrors
of a life now deceased.

Anxiety,
it is born of the mind,
it racks my bones and
makes a home in
every fiber of
my being.

To the bride and groom;
may your love be eternal
as the moon itself.  

11:26 PM
20/11/22

Some of us
favor our solitude
over the company of others.
We seek out silence like
the moon seeks out the night
because there are days when
our stars burn out and
running from the sun is
the only way to protect
their glorious glow.

The discards of a
book wrote together but
never chose to read

4:03 PM
26/7/22

Saying 'I'm sorry'
is just another way to
announce 'I love you'

12:59 AM
16/9/22

Your love painted
a masterpiece upon
this broken canvas
of a man.

I can still feel your presence
through distance and time,
through the tears and the smiles,
and through the darkness and light.

Do you not know
that you are mine, and I am yours?
That your dreams are mine,
and that our hearts beat as one?
We may be separated but never apart
for we are one in blood, one in soul.
Everywhere you go, I go too,
We breathe the same air.

I am leaving-
not because I want to,
but because by leaving,
I will recover the piece
of me missing.

Even while you're gone,
You will remain in this heart
for you are the rhythm of its beat,
the source of its love and joy.
You are inseparable to this heart
as I am to yours
for we share the same
rhythm and blood.

Some people
plant seeds in your heart
and grow only the purest of things
while others
seek to cut them down
and salt the earth of your soul.

Regret, repent and
repeat and I will never
learn from my mistakes

11:09 PM
17/1/21

For muscles to grow,
they must bruise and tear
and it is the pain we must endure.
Surely, it must be true
of the heart?

I lost count
of how many times
you said "forever".
How many promises
of forever have I heard?
I think I have lost count.
Promises break faster than a
glass heart and I'm tired of
picking up the pieces.

Stop offering your
apologies to the knife
wedged deep in your back

10:43 AM
23/7/22

She swallowed my
heart and my soul
like a tornado
swallows all the
life it touches.

We all get a little
overwhelmed sometimes
but the memories of you and I
sustain me the most.
I submerge myself in the thought of you,
that sublime smile and
the sunflower that is your heart
and I feel better again.
Just knowing you exist,
the miracle that you are,
is more than I could ever ask for.

Dear diary;
I think I am starting
to believe in love again.
Each crush feels like the first time
and each kiss melts this heart-
the same stone heart I thought
would never crack again.
Indeed, I think I am ready
for love to destroy me
again.

There is so much joy
in the way you smile,
in those eyes and in
the way you see the world.
I could listen to you all day and
every word I will keep in my heart.
You really are a miracle
the way you bless my life with
your words, your smile
and your love.

I will always find
reasons to love you
and that will be
the death of me

Stardust flows through
your veins and every touch
creates galaxies upon my skin.

One step forward,
two steps back.
Reality is a tough place to live-
it is also a tough
place to leave.

What is sadder than
to end something that could have
given us much more?

11:31 PM
26/4/23

This is where we go
when we die: into the hearts
of those who love us

8:57 PM
27/3/20

If just one
sunflower bloomed
for every time I dreamt of you,
there wouldn't be room
for the thorns
and thistles.

I want to
drink from your
lips as if you were
an oasis in
the desert.

Tell me
the reasons why
I should stop loving you
just because you stopped
loving me.

She casts spells upon
the world and charms them into
unseeing her soul

3:50 PM
20/7/21

The world is waiting
to hear your thoughts once again.
When will you write more?

6:54 PM
9/1/21

It came like a cloud
that appeared out of nowhere,
like an unexpected storm
upon my shores without warning.
One moment there was sun,
and the next,
darkness.

I wanted to take care of you
as if you were the last sunflower on Earth
but winter ravaged this garden.
Despite my best efforts,
I watched your petals wither
before my helpless eyes.
It is true that I did not know
how to take care of you,
but I’ll be ****** if
I had not given you my all.

Just because you
have a damaged past,
does not mean you
have to have a damaged future.

There is no soul,
it is merely an illusions
we have created to
project our desires in death onto
in hopes of an afterlife.

Your love
makes me feel like I'm
falling like a petal in
your presence.
Carried by your breath,
I drift into your heart
and make my home.

Time has an ugly
way of bringing out the truth
in all of our hearts

6:31 PM
12/7/21

You are more than
you give yourself credit for
and even more in my eyes.
I hope you get all the things coming to you-
there's no one more deserving of that.

When the demons
get too loud,
all you can do is
write to them or
let them **** you.

I don't know you anymore
and that is both beautiful
and terrifying at
the same time.

Lust leaves
a bitter aftertaste-
yet the thirst for it
never wanes.