This world
is under no obligation
to be less weird
than fiction.

I see your smile
and I wonder if heaven
has opened for me

10:12 AM
18/3/23

Anxiety,
it is born of the mind,
it racks my bones and
makes a home in
every fiber of
my being.

I want to
drink from your
lips as if you were
an oasis in
the desert.

She swallowed my
heart and my soul
like a tornado
swallows all the
life it touches.

I have lost so much
and one more thing won't make a
difference - I'm at peace

4:12 PM
29/6/23

When the time is right,
we will meet again, that is
my promise to you

4:12 PM
4/1/21

Why do I still
feel you in my bones?
Memories still fill my chest,
leaving butterflies in their wake
just as you once did.

How fragile must
we be to have our pride hang
on another's words

8:14 PM
25/3/22

A strong name for a
majestic sort of goddess
that I had the luck of meeting.
She sang her song-
one of which
captured my heart
and one of which
we can both
rejoice.

I miss you
like a dolphin
misses that breath
of fresh air to sustain itself
in the unforgiving depths
of the ocean,
and tonight,
my bed lies at the
bottom of the ocean.

Were we tearing each
other apart for a love
not worth falling for?

3:43 PM
25/2/21

Tell me
the reasons why
I should stop loving you
just because you stopped
loving me.

Sometimes the only
logical thing to do is
forget and move on

4:06 PM
4/12/23

Somehow, I always
seem to leave with a bit less
than I had before

12:13 AM
9/8/21

Even while you're gone,
You will remain in this heart
for you are the rhythm of its beat,
the source of its love and joy.
You are inseparable to this heart
as I am to yours
for we share the same
rhythm and blood.

You are a miracle!
Do you know how wonderful you are?
I celebrate it every day.
So always be yourself-
the miracle that you are.
Bless every second,
every heart, every day
with the miracle
that is you!

Time has an ugly
way of bringing out the truth
in all of our hearts

6:31 PM
12/7/21

"We are here for you, always."
"You can tell us anything, always."
"We are so glad you are in our lives."
"We love you, we care for you."
"We will never leave you."
"We are your friends, always."
Liars.

What is so sad
about nostalgia is
how it leaves one frozen
in time.

It's the solitary nights
I cherish the most.
The silence and shadows,
the thoughts and theories-
these are the things that
keep this heart beating-
this is what it's all about.

To the bride and groom;
may your love be eternal
as the moon itself.  

11:26 PM
20/11/22

This heart
beats in silence
but then I met you
and now it can't
stop singing.

Dear diary;
I think I am starting
to believe in love again.
Each crush feels like the first time
and each kiss melts this heart-
the same stone heart I thought
would never crack again.
Indeed, I think I am ready
for love to destroy me
again.

People can get quite
defensive when they don't know
what they claim to know

4:01 PM
31/10/22

My dreams were clearer
without the taint of your name,
your face, memories...

4:54 PM
12/6/22

No matter how many  
obstacles life throws at me,
I will always love you,
and will fight such obstacles
to hold on to and cherish
the miracle that is you.

Humanity hurt each other-
they would hurt me.
Despite my cynicism,
I adored them,
I helped them.
But the hurt continued...
I don’t do that anymore.

I do not need death
to enter heaven,
to be by your side is
enough to make me feel
like I'm with an angel.

Saying 'I'm sorry'
is just another way to
announce 'I love you'

12:59 AM
16/9/22

The sun goes down
and I take comfort in the night.
I wait for the moon to return,
and with him, the shadows,
silence and solitude.
It is at night where
I can forget about reality and
the bustle of everyday life.
It is at night where I can breathe,
to take inspiration from the darkness
and let the mind run free.

Our worlds
have split in two
and you’ve gone too far
to come back.
We both can’t go back
to that world
We can’t ever call it
home again.

There are a lot of
ways to stop the pain but the
scars always remain

1:47 PM
3/8/21

I will bloom from the
implosion of you and I-
from ashes, I grow

11:08 PM
26/1/21

Your birth is a
love letter to my soul.
Whether you are near or far,
your existence will forever
adorn this heart.

I don't want to
be your next station,
I want to be your
destination.

I am not okay
but I am better than who
I used to be then

11:36 PM
22/2/22

Oh, how big you have grown,
how smart you are getting and
how creative you have become!
I could not be more proud and
these are just few of the reasons
I miss you more
with each passing day!

Dear diary;
I do not feel-
no, I do not feel anymore.
Sometimes I can feel my heartbeat,
or a lonely butterfly in this stomach
but that pales in comparison to
when I used to feel alive,
to feel any hope at all.

There is nothing
to fear from silence.
Silence can be a
beautiful thing so learn
to embrace it.

Dear diary;
Today was
a good day to die.
But worry not,
ready or not,
I'm going to
live young
and die fast.

My heart is so full of you.
Your love brightens it,
turning this heart into a garden
of endless beauty.
One smile from you is enough
to bloom a thousand sunflowers.

We fall
for the ones
who ignore us and
we ignore
the ones
who fall for us.
Such is the irony of life.

Some people
plant seeds in your heart
and grow only the purest of things
while others
seek to cut them down
and salt the earth of your soul.

If I loved it was you,
If I dreamed it was of you,
If I felt it was for you.

I wish people were
more like shooting stars
that would disappear in
a flash of an eye,
leaving no trace but
the memories of something
that was once beautiful
rather than the sun-
an unforgiving and inescapable
giant that leave us burnt
and burdened.

i never meant
for you to hate me,
I wanted the opposite,
in fact.
I suppose it is better this way,
for me,
at least.

How does it feel to
know that you're the only one
standing in your way?

3:04 PM
7/4/21

Why is it so hard
to let go of those who
hurt us the most?
Is it because they were once
the source of happiness
and everything nice?
Are we still clinging onto the hopes
that it will go back to
the way it was?

So many places to travel,
wisdom to obtain, music to hear
books to read, poems to write,
people to meet, food to eat,
all in this one life to live.
One life is not enough.