You must be strong, intensified, like coffee.
When you pour coffee into your mouth, you become the coffee.
When the coffee goes to your brain, you increased the energy levels.
Coffee can be dark and brown, but it sure makes you happy.
Become like coffee my friend.

My mind isn't big enough for an escape
My mind, I am trapped in a disadvantage

Usually my mind is as big as the universe
But my mind, is discourage

My mind, my mind, holding on to courage
Making my way to uncover

Another path of undiscovered

Dreams are 99% sweat
I am not ready to swim for that

Deprived of sleep
Derived from one of the black sheep
Lost in the woods
Unable to skip

We don't think about sleep.
We don't think about time.
We think about goal.

We are not machine.
We sleep with achievement.

Our body won't keep us in for long.
Our body is rejecting us, but we refuse to feel it.

Our body is telling us something, something deep within our reach.
Our body is telling us to go, go within our needs.

But we refuse to feel it.
Our body is rotting, the days the wind blows the dusts of us go.

Our body is telling us something...

Deep within the self, not one can fulfil by self.

This is a terrible romantic
and sadomasochistic narrative.

The artist's mind is clothed in fabrics.
Fashion is his vocabulary.

Grim-tales are often told with foreboding,
exacted further through sharp, perceiving lenses.

Collections of sharp silhouettes speak of
a masterful and sensitive touch.

A turbulence of emotions exploded in
delicate and mesmerising theatricals.

Taking delight in challenging popular notions,
Alexander left audience continually in a
lingering aftertaste of shock mixed with wonder.

so i came across
a brand called oriental

in a bag of green crunchy peas
one of my favorite snack

i could have a rack
align in rows of lovely packs

simple ingredients of
green peas, vegetable oil
sugar and salt

flavor enchacer
kept me to munch on it
even when i was little, as a girl

not to forget
super ring cheese snack
under the same brand
oriental

i have tried many other
green peas snacks
but no other have i taste
as flavorsome as this

so i snack and snack
and i snack on it
and i wish that
it will stay as long as i will live

oriental green peas snack

Don’t panic
Don’t turn away
Not go away

Think,
Solve

He presses my heart
I couldn't breathe
As much

Irregular heartbeat
Suppressing pain
At my chest

I wonder if I'm going to die
At this rate of my breathing condition

Taking a few deeper breath
Hoping to take in some air

My breathing is still the same
My Irregular heartbeat
Suppressing pain
At my chest

It makes me hard to be
awake neither to stay asleep

In my sleep and when I'm awake
I could count my irregular heartbeat

I wonder when am I going to die
As I struggle in heartrending
Awake and neither asleep

I kept thinking that was me
But that wasn’t me
That wasn’t me
Who was I then
If that wasn’t me

I couldn’t comprehend
I couldn’t come to terms

It felt so real, all the thoughts
All the imagination, it felt like me

But it wasn’t me

Don't want to be included nor excluded.
Just want to express without being concluded.

***, hot water, whisking,
smoothly blended, tea bowl, spring,
tea garden, thick, quiet.

I stare into non-existence

Taking breaks from existence

Restoring my resistance

So to come back substantially fit

To feed my realism

My mind is a bin
A very large bin
Filled with a huge amount of junks
And it doesn't even need to wear a trunk
It is exposed to the gobbledygook

Pancakes and Maple Syrups
Sunshine and Light Blue Sky
White Clouds and Golden Hashbrown
A Round Sausage and Chilled Milo

Red, Chilli in my saucer
Red, they are in my eyes
Red, they are burning strong
Red, is my tongue and my taste bud
Loving it

Yellow is only when "you're loving it"

When my mind is distant away from you.
It is safe and sound.
Away from a sweet dream; bitter nightmare.

I dare not speak of my undesirable heart
Pushed by a radio button
Flooded with radio waves
Electricfiying my disinterest and the sums of ambivalent

Is too early to measure my heart's desire
I shall not speak.

Frustrations and Fears

It makes me feebler

It crawls into my head
like army of ants
crawling on my veins

It makes me shiver

Frustrations and Fears

Screaming in my head
Crumpled thoughts all inside my head

Unfolding, unfolding it out again
Making it straight, straightening the thoughts

Frustrations and Fears

I'm letting it out, making it loud
Just to see if there's any illustration that could work out

Frustrations and Fears

As i see it collide
As they meet once again
Tremendous fire

Objectively you'll feel
Thru your body
Warmth up

It will burn out
Make it work out

And soon it makes me
Feel its burning passion

To the undying
Frustrations and Fears
Overflowing

*Frustrations and Fears
It breaks your bone
Tears your flesh
And makes you feel
Right where you are
Trying to gasps thin air
for feeling it deep

Don't be lost, you're a Star.
One as bright as the other countless bits.
You belong to be free– afloat.

You're a Star.
You're bright!

You are loved,
By this Universe whom created you.

Be confident especially in the darker nights,
You're fine.

Don't be lost, you're a Star,
Everywhere you could go.

Don't be afraid, you're a Star,
You'll fall but you'll float.

Take courage, you're a Star,
This Universe is with you.

I've dreamt about my dreams
Its a reality

It happens right where I am breathing
There's no where else I could be dreaming

And even if there are dreams that didn't last long
It was dreams that has been dreamed of

And it could be dreams I can be dreaming on

*It is a dream where dreams lives on

You kept me awake all by myself but you occupied my mind.

A fear,
clueless of its phobia name.

A fear,
for losing a pack of chips.

A fear,
for opening to what will end.

A fear,
of ending a pack of costly chips.

A fear,
of having no pack of chips in the cabinet.

A fear,
of missing chips without a notice.

A fear,
that disappear once you open a pack
and restore new ones back into the cabinet.

I'm thinking of making it cheery
Jovial in disguise
In one's high spirit
Like the lucky one
From her merriest heart

Too young and touching
Too old turn lusting

Too much for physical
Our brain has taught to function

Too much to see
What seems to be right it sees

But not the encourager
For too young and old
This is not the cycle

And the moon continues to rely on the sun,
and the next time round you can rely on me too.

I am not a worthless piece of art.
I am God's Masterpiece.

shouldn’t be looking at your soul
right open in the depths of my eyes
lights shone between us
creating path to meet
from where we are

we are not destined
but you open your
eyes wide
looking for connection
right where the light leads
in this path

(off this light and end this sight)

I wake up
I look up
I flip to the side
refuse to get out of my blanket

I tug it tightly and put my hands under
tilt my head and fall back asleep

another day like this could go by

I wake up
I look up
wonder what has gone by
breathing in empty air
breathing in what was left

what is life
that past gone by
we hold such a vivid memories
that gone by

I wake up
I look up
look to my left and right
room filled with non living things

what a shame
life is empty
without any heartbeats

I wake up
I look up
the white blank celling
reminded me of nothing

*The words and the breath
of life, come breathe in me again

First you introduce as pop
Then you let him know you are indie

Afterwards tell him how much you love him thru jazz and how you shiver in electro

Sometimes you can be insane you drop to hard-style bass and you scream in nu-metal
Then you turn to rock cause you're feeling better
Once you've calmed yourself chill-waves settled in your ambient

You do your last ballad dance and you end with a folk bow

*Slowly fading back into synthesia dream pop

Our minds are confused by the light we see, the artificial light we thought it was right.

we are all roadside flowers
blooming and changing in seasons

we are all together
all in these together

all growing together
all nurturing together

We are all soft touchy flowers
feeling for one another
loving and tendering

with the same thoughts
and common soil
we came from the same ground

let's be together
in the light of our sunshine

Pull it off
And stop the sound from getting into your ears

Leave the thoughts of what you see
Even when you close your eyes

Choose to lay it down
As you've already lied on your bed

Think about nothing but how tired
And you need to sleep

Don't you ever worry
Before you go to sleep

Just go to sleep
As how you would go to sleep

My night ends late
And my morning starts late

*Nocturnal late bloomer

Go pass the phase of a good taste
Go pass the haze and you'll see taste
In a while, even if it takes a while

Bridge the gap
Instead of letting the haze
Stink the taste

Keep tasting it bit by bit and
Never forget how it taste
Right in the haze
In a while, the taste will be clear

Refine and savouring

A Father you can never compromise.
A Love unexplainable.

A lack of cultivation
a spell bound by surrounded cultured

where is the hunger for values
values they follow you after death on earth
keeping our body righteous

not society talks
not how worldly cycle go round
not taking any of this gibberish

it can still be helped
a longing for Lord surpassing holiness

rest your body and keep it
within your soul
nurture it and practice wholesome

surround your mind with
what you cannot see now
in what they cannot give here

keep your eyes close
because faith can give it to you

Clear water; in the pool, deep and shallow.
Right in-between, there is you.
Feel the rapid movement of the waves surrounding you, moving you, captivating every part of you.

Every move you make, surrounded by moving waves, sway away, and let it seize you as it takes you to another open wave.

Surrounded by endless waves, forever in a clear water pool.

Oh good lots,
Finally is raining flowers and plants.
Been waiting in a self-made water bed.
Waiting for the rain to shine.
Shine more beautifully than the sun.
To be as beautiful as the moon in the dark.
Comes only in the night.
Be as bold as the sun, be yourself, lighting bolt.

Take over, take over.
And come again another night.

The entertainment is dead,
instantaneous distraction
whether you're bored or not,
living in leading to death.

Distraction, distraction...
and what more distraction,
not a bare disturbance
living in leading to death.

No life.

Our sins are chained to hell
Latter we burn in flames
Back to earth with flammable bodies
Destructive;  we all agree to live by
Hell on earth and heaven in no ones' heart
Chains are caught with fire
The earth is blazing and burning
We are living!

342am and I am hungry in the dark
I will run to the kitchen
Like It was flying jumping
And ripped of any food I can find
Like vampires in twilight
Hunting for fresh blood to drink
To satisfy our hunger in the dusk

Only a desire I have is to open my fridge
To drink a cup of fresh milk
Like my hunger thirsting for something fresh

Like the vampires sensing
There is certainly
No such fresh object in the fridge
In the despared just like them
******* any passing blood
I look for little bites
To grab

Why am I not at rest

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I've lost my friend, and I've lost what it means to be a friend
I am out of touch, to this people world and what it takes to have a friend

A friend, what does that mean?

There is nothing it could mean to me
Since the day, I've found strangers along with feelings and thoughts
Strangers they come and strangers they leave
Love and hate they bring, hate and love they leave

And what does that mean to have a friend?

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There is no friend, not in this world with people
What we take are words and words they slip
Faces we see, shallow as it can be
Forever, as it may last
The last i count, a day or two
We keep secrets and secrets are words
Tales we hear, comedy we laugh
And what is left, are words that have slip

And sleep, our attention span we forgot what have been

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Lively strangers forever we be
How happy this could be
Flaws we see like diamonds it should be
And in this people world, we all leave words in people's ears

We are only as close as we allow.
It's true we've gotten closer and it's true we will never be together.
It's true; Love is the ultimate unreasonable activity.

It's adorably cruel.

The sun and moon
are no coincidence
with such a fate

Day and night
They intertwine

In the world  
Of lost relation
It even seems

Broken is the link
For heart and mind
They intertwine

Day and night
A fate there is
The world with
No coincidence it is

I wish you see through me. Like looking beneath the water. All you see was the reflection you picked up from the surface of the water. Nothing you see is quite like me. Needlessly, nothing was done for a deeper plunge.

Repeat after me:

Every month is a new month.
Everyday is a new day.

Backpack a bed; for a full rainbow in a head, can only be seen while taking a plane.

Read me.

Read my world.
Read my language.

Read me in a second.
Read me and re-read me again.

Read me like your favourite book,
you placed in your fancy bookshelf.

Read me half way,