Something Vimes had learned as a young guard drifted up from memory. If you have to look along the shaft of an arrow from the wrong end, if a man has you entirely at his mercy, then hope like hell that man is an evil man. Because the evil like power, power over people, and they want to see you in fear. They want you to know you're going to die. So they'll talk. They'll gloat.

They'll watch you squirm. They'll put off the moment of ****** like another man will put off a good cigar.

So hope like hell your captor is an evil man. A good man will **** you with hardly a word.

Is it love
To judge and hurt
You are almost perfect
But in my eyes you look like dirt

I come across as some that cares
But in reality, I'm embarrassed by you
People are being nice, but you don't get it
It is really that they can't say what is true

You are sweet and you are pretty
But you need to dress up more
Because personality doesn't count
If you look like, in my eyes, a *****

I see in your eyes that what I said hurts
But I don't care because it is about me
I can't be associated with the likes of you
I'm worried what others will think and see

You want to marry my son
Well, welcome to the lion's den
You better  shape up
Because you are only a 9 out of 10

We Don't talk any more
Or is it you heard the lies
But you cut me out
An a little part of me dies
But I can't show you
How it hurts me
But if this is how it is
Let it be
Part of me should hurt
But it is nothing
It will pass
Now it is just a ping
I will get over it
You will barley be a memory
The story of this friendship
It is not even a summary
It hurts at first
But it will go away
And I won't remember this moment
It will be another day
You haven't made a mark in my life
For me to remember your name
The things that do matter to me
It will remain the same

**** it
It wasn't suppose to be this bad
You are so there and I'm here
I just saw you and I'm crying, that is sad

I know
You'll be home soon
It is only a week
Though, I'm going crazy as a loon

I am
Counting the days when you will be here
Or when I am there
I'm happily in love with you my dear

Promise me
That you will stay true
You won't others get in the way
That I'm the only one for you

This life
This little world is crazy
Being apart brings tears
And making my vision hazy

We can
Make this work
I love everything about you
Even with your little quirk

I plead
That you stay true
I wait the day that I see you again
That I can say "I love you"

What is a man?
Does he make women cry?
Does he brag about it?
Does he cheat on the one that he claims that he loves?
Does he make her feel like crap?
Does he have to put down others to boost himself?

No

He only loves one woman
He owns up to his mistakes
He is humble
He has goals
He stands up for what is right
He is what other men want to be

Growth
Change
Evolve
I am anew

No secrets
No lies
No hiding
Nothing more than the truth

Moved on
Moved forward
Moved up
It is all about me

Smile
Laughter
Living
Living this life that is new

Dear Christopher,
It was 3rd grade
We talked about being boyfriend and girlfriend
Looking back now, we both had no clue
it was like that for 3 days before it came to an end
Love,
The frizzy haired 3rd grader

Dear Andrew,
It was 6th grade
I thought you were smart and I really liked you
But you were made fun of for liking me
You ignored me and said those feelings weren't true
Love,
The 6th who use to think you were amazing

Dear Daniel,
It was 8th grade
I moved to a new area and I don't know anyone
You told me you liked me, but decided to date my friend
When you guys "broke up" then you said thing that I didn't like
Things that made me uncomfortable
These are the reason I had to put it to an end
Love,
The 8th grader that was put off with your ****** comments

Dear Matthew K,
It was 9th grade
I thought you were the greatest thing since slice bread
Everyone looked up to you as a hero of the day
I found out that I didn't fit the type of girl that you like
I confessed to you and I regretted the words that I say
Love,
The 9th grader that realized that you are a ****** canoe

Dear Chris R,
It was 10th grade
Thank you for the mixed signals that you gave
One day I thought you kind of liked me and then you pretend I wasn't there
Founding out you did hard drugs and I hold onto my heart for the save
Love,
The 10th grader that was really confused to how you really felt

Dear Chris B,
It was 11th grade
You liked me and I liked you but no one would say
But you also liked another and we didn't tell each other how we feel
So for now I'm going to move on from you, but who knows where our paths will end crossing one day
Love,
The 11th grader that is still grateful for our friendship

Dear Matthew H,
It was 12th grade
I really liked you and you seem to like me too
We went on a date and that was fun, but
You were mormon and I am not, so I had to stop seeing you
Love,
The  12 grader that was grateful for the date and prom

Dear Mike G,
Fresh out of high school
I truly loved you with everything that I am
You were my first on every level but I was another notch in your belt
You broke my heart, but crying for you now isn't worth a ****
Love,
The girl that you thought was just a ****** conquest

Dear Chris B,
We have found each other again
We reconnected again but this is feeling is something new
I don't just see you as a friend but something more
9 years later we are now husband and wife, who knew
Love,
You wife that is grateful for your love

The different hats I wear:

I'm a teacher

I'm a yard supervisor

I'm a nurse

I'm a first responder

I'm a gardener

I'm a part time mommy

I'm a chef

I'm a waiter

I'm a musician

I'm a singer

I'm a actress

I'm a story teller

I'm a  repair person

I'm a counselor

I'm a couch

I'm a pillow

I'm a tissue

I'm an art easel

I am a teacher and so much more!

Can you be afraid to go home
Is it possible to feel alone
Can you be sure you know the battles you pick
Is it enough to make you sick
The ones you held dear
Can fill you with fear
Can you run away
Just hide the rest of the day

Year One:
Full of fun
First year bliss
First kiss

Year Two:
Full of blues
A girl with a beauty I cannot beat
You got drunk and almost cheat

Third Year:
Hardest to bear
Left me with heartbreak
With girls so fake

Fourth Year:
Realizing you do care
She was the one  that lie
The one you love is I

Year Five:
I feel alive
This relationship sees the light
Our future together is bright

It is easy
Just to give up
Just to stay in bed
Why bother

This can be anyone
A friend, a teacher, a bully
Someone from home
A sibling, a father, a mother

This could be you
It is easy to want to cry
Hide away
Just disappear

But you are told no
Be strong
This is your burden
It is yours to bear

Just going trough life
Going trough the motions
Wear your mask
Wear your smile

Will the feeling last
How long
Will it go away
Or is it staying awhile

Am I stuck
Trapped in this cage
Going around in a rut  
No way out

No one will hear me
No one will listen
No matter what
Even if I yell and shout

Everyone feels like this
But we only know the me
It is only how I feel
No one knows how I feel

But everyone have these feelings
Everyone thinks this way
But we built this wall
This is real

You can't come in
The wall is up
You don't know
Just to give up on everything

This is the life we are given
The life we live
This is the story that is written
The song we sing

Tears follow down my cheeks
It happens at a drop at the hat
Some days it is over time
Some days it release just like that
I try to be a good friend
I try to be a good wife
I try to be a good sister and daughter
I try to make most of this thing called life
Why don't I seek help
Find someone to listen to me
I don't know why I don't
But that couldn't be
Thank you life
To listen my cry
Maybe I'll see you another day
Good bye

It started with a kiss
And I melt
Your touch is bliss
I love this feeling  that is being felt

I want to write more
More I think of it, I cry
My feelings that I tell you is what I pour
Being away from you hurts, no lie

It is easy to know what  I have to say
When I think of you, it is clear
But with you, I feel that I have lost my way
Losing  control, I don't know what to I fear

Our past may be off and on
Thirteen years of being friends
I don't want what we have to be gone
You do everything to make things better and tying loose ends

You never give up
You fight hard
Love this great is rare like that golden cup
There is no special card

To prove our love is great
I will fight for us, fight for you
This is never too late
To prove that my feelings are true

All I want you to hug me
Please don't let go
Help me see
It can be a great high, or a sad low

But with you, I want to take that risk
Most of the time I don't know what to do
It started with a kiss
I am lost in you

I watch him beat you
Make you feel like ****
You say it is over
You had enough of it

I thought that you were strong
That you were better than this
But you decide to let him brainwash you
How can I not be ******

You are mad at me for speaking my mind
About him that I do not trust
Not anymore
But this ends up being a bust

Everything you said before
The stuff that he has done to you
Now that was all a lie
None of that was true

You are mad at me
Because of how he treated you
You said the same when my love was being a ****
But it is differnet with this case, in your mind it is true

I will be supportive of what you choose to do
Though I fear that things will come to an end
Him, myself are not speaking
If you do go back, it will be very hard to be a friend

I will not take back how I feel, what I said
Take care
I hope you see the light of the truth
Saying good bye is hard to bare

Words
They are wondering around my head
I can't speak them, so I will write instead
Trying to put down every dot, every line
The things I write, they are mine
Words

Please
My muse inspire something
Let me hear the words, lets hear them sing
Speak the words and set them free
If you could help me
Please

Inspiration
Is very hard to come by
To come up with something on the fly
My muse, hear my plead
One thing that I need
Inspiration

Now
There is not much I can do
My muse I ask of you
To help find an idea from the core
But I am done for
Now

I'm weak and sore, but I need to move on
It is hard to keep going, but I'm almost done
I breathe to fill my lungs with air
This journey is mine and mine to bear
I am sick and feeling faint
Colors start to form and I reach out as I can paint
With them, the world is my canvas and I
Keep going, and soon I will realize
That I can keep going
I must keep going

You were my only friend
I had no one during my childhood
You were always there in the end
You were there when no one would

Now I am not talking about a person
I was surrounded by loneliness
I had no one for some reason
I keep to myself, that was my businesse

Now here we are years later
I didn't think I would see you
But now you show up to cater
The poor lonely girl that is what you do

I lay asleep
at night
Can't fall asleep it's
Too bright
I need to turn off
The light
My leg hurts it must be
a bite
Something has a hold of leg, and it fills me
With fright
Kicking and screaming I try
to fight
I break free and look and see what
a sight
In the corner it is an
incredible height
I'm scared my face is
pale white
I run as fast with all
my might
Running down the hall and I
move right
Find a gun and I pull the
Trigger tight

The sounds it makes helps me through
It brings me up and gets me to the the next day
No matter what brings me down and makes me blue
Just hit play and it takes the negativity away
I cannot image my life going on without you
You keep my world going and filled with delight
No matter what others may do, you have remained true
I will never give you up, not without a fight
Music, you are one of my many loves and wonder
I can listen to you and leave me to ponder

Jealous
No Trust
Yelling, Fighting, Blaming
Heartbroken- I'm a monster
Jealous

Bitter
No Happiness
Sulk, Withdrawn, Silent,
Pessimistic about the future
Bitter

I
Did This
Blaming, Screaming, Pushing
Realizing, it was me
I

Monster
My own
Creating, Forming, Spawning
Pity for the creature
Monster

I work hard
I'm tired and I'm sore
But this isn't enough for you
You say I'm a bore

Many feelings run through my head
Not so much happy, but more mad
You see this and you regret it so
You try everything in your power to make me glad

Is it too late
Can you take them back
You try so hard and make me realize
The steam to my temper, there is a lack

Everything is back to normal
You learn something, I pray
There is power and meaning
For the words you say

The Moon-
It is dark and cold
All my dream is to shine
This thought is bold
And it might be out of line
I see something bright
I wonder who that could be
It has a wonderful light
It give life to every human, animal, & tree
Only one can make this done
It could only be the Sun

The Sun-
Who could that be over there
She looks very sad
I'll make her come over here
What can I do to make her glad
I'll cast my light
I'll do that for her
I'll make it right
A beauty so fair
She makes me crazy like a loon
I'm falling for the Moon

Sun and Moon-
I'll go over there
I will share my emotions
This is a risk that I will bare
But I will make this notion
We will have each other
We will make this done
Nothing will be a bother
It will only be the Moon and Sun
We have in each other a new friend
We will chase each other to the end

To my love,

I love you so much

I'm here for you

Give me your sadness

So I can cry with you

Give me your rage

So I can calm you

Give me your hand

So I can help you find your way

The world may be dark

It may be cruel

I will be your friend

I'll walk the road next to you

Give me your Dreams

So I can help make them come true

Give me your friendship

So you'll never be alone

Give me your heart

I promise I will never break it

I'm hear for you

I love you oh so very much

To My Lover,

I do not need you to live
As you do not need me
You are my friend
Someone that I can lean
But know that I will not give up on who I am
Please stay true to who you are
There is only one of you
I am the moon to your Earth's closet star
We push eachother to be great
But not to lose who we are
We never put each other down
We keep each other up to par
In this crazy game that we call love
You did just fine without me
And I was okay before you
But there is something about you that I seen
As you saw inside me
You are my friend
My lover
And in the end
I know I will that I will be okay witout you
But I grateful that I do have you here with me
To teach me this lesson
Setting my mind free
Because you did this for me
You did more than anyone that could do
For me
This is why I love you

You are an ***
And you got called out
You are rude and have no class
Lies is what you shout

You think you have won
You think victory is yours
You believe you have the trust of everyone
Out of your mouth the lies still pours

But now you are in a trap
You have no where to go
Soon people will know that you are full of crap
You just hit an all time low

Losing control, there is nothing left to do
You have to play nice
But mess with me, you show what is true
You are a sick pest, ******* little lice

Go and live in you in your lie
You have everyone for now
But soon the image you create will die
And you will be the one going down