"I missed you"* I said
"no you didn't" you replied
"yes I did" I shot back at you
"is that why you haven't talked to me in the past 7 months?"
and then it hit me...
like a bullet to my ******* head

*a

I remember all too well
The moment that my heart first fell
The never-ending moment your lips first met mine.
The moment 'I love you' left your lips the first time.

I remember the sound of my heart first breaking.
I remember the day I threw away your name.
I remember how hard I cried.
I remember the day I died.

I remember the fights and the sadness...
How quickly my world descended into madness.
I remember you leaving me,
Or did I leave you?
You were already gone.

I remember walking away.
Knowing it was far more difficult to stay.
I remember having to remember to breathe.
The littlest things would bring me to my knees.

I remember thinking I was broken.
That your leaving had left me frozen.

Then I remember picking myself back up.
Forcing myself to go through the motions.
But feeling each day a little less hopeless.

You hadn't broken me.
I might love again possibly.
But most importantly?
I was happy again finally.

And I was happiest with me.