I don't let people touch me.
It's been so long I almost forgot.
Your fingers down my back,
My eyes roll into thought.
Pouting like a child
I can't have that all the time
Wish I could show you
how you stimulate my mind.
To be absent from the world,
Two bodies tangled,
I don't want it to ever end.

Trapped inside a human body,
A rose with extra thorns,
A victim of a world that didn't care that she was born.

Rebirth served her well,
Now her spirit is not as torn.
Strength grew like weeds under the armor she'd worn.

This is a matter of internal affairs.
The people need a leader but the leader isn't there,
So they don't know what to do
Because mom and pop only taught them how to follow.

The problem isn't them, the problem is you
Blaming everybody else for the **** you didn't do.
Your parents didn't tell you that the world wouldn't wait.
They forgot to tell you that power is influence.

And you let yourself get influenced.
The affair is internal because all you got is you.
When there isn't anything left,
What the **** will you do?

Fervent on this night.
I texted too much.
I should've stopped.
I can't sleep.
But I can't let you think you won.

Circular thinking.
I'm the solution.
But you overlook
For what?

Because their legs open easier?
They don't expose your soul.

I think you want to swing
Each girl like pendulums
Back and forth. Easy as pie.
Because they think they need you.
Scared they can't do better.

I know I can do better.
I just wanted you.
Like, really wanted you.
I tried to dig the real you up
From the six feet of dirt
That you buried him in.

Typical to say I wish you loved me
Like a needle.
Like your favorite.

But you step on me
Like an unwelcome insect.
Blunt and brutal.
Short and sweet.
Like the kisses I wish you'd give me.

I'm just being a little girl.
I crush easily
As both attacker and victim.
I am as ruthless as you.
So no, this sensation isn't new.

Tiny viper in your bed sheets.
Waiting to pierce a vein
And drink every drop

Until your body is dry.
Safely removing you
From the back of my eyelids.
You don't even allow me to escape you there.

The one who complicates.
The one who hangs you out to dry.
Guard yourself.
Look away.
Abuse something or someone.

Seizures from normalcy,
Nervous skin picking,
Makes one wonder
if you'd stay for anybody.

Makes one wonder if you too drown,
Or wake up late night,
Cold from sweat,
Hot from the soul,
Hoping to be found.
Victims only think of themselves.

White light in a dark tunnel
He looks away
Under the guise
that its someone else's fault
that he can't see it.

He didn't learn anything
So Ive let him go.
Remove what ails you,
No need to be unclean.
You are worth everything.

I almost forgot your  face.
I thought I was you.
My reflection as motherly.
Spitting image they called me.

I walk with ten holes in my body,
My limbs held together by your wisdom
My mind held together by your heart.

Stretched out hands
But still ever so far apart.

Above everything,
I seek love.
What is the point of life without it?

Insomnia is making my brain independent from my wants.
I want to meet my pillow
But my thoughts still haunt.

Can you say you still love her
if you left her behind?
Are you allowed to ache over life
When you never gave a **** about mine?

Can you call yourself a father
If you never respond?

I can see it now.
You living in the delusion
That youre a good man,
And that God loves you back.

Or that God will save you in general.
Or that someone like you
would even deserve it.

I don't need religion to tell me,
Your God also knows you're a liar.
THAT, you cannot hide from "him".

I amuse myself.
I caught feelings for the store brand.
Not the one for me
But instead a knock off copy.

Everything close
But nowhere near as magnetic
As the one that's meant to have me.

I stare at myself in awe.
What a creation.
Behold.
She lives.

A body like the media promotes.
Smooth skin of a dark tone.
She fights with both hands
Fists clenched with intensity
To keep the insecurities at bay.

Though they climb through her brain
Chemically reducing her
To nothing but a stereotype.

Feeling like a child
Jumping in puddles
With boots made of optimism.

I still slip them on easily.

I just want to be one with the earth,
I  ache for home in this concrete.
Weeds are faith
In a black and white world.

I guess I'll be running on less sleep today.
Hold my head up firmly
As predictability passes
Over and over again
Until I am old.

I'm exactly what you asked for
Unless you were pretending.
Blind boy. Blind world. Blind me.
My hips stir conversation on soft lips,
Skin on skin fantasies, intrusive.

Slow motion steps backward,
Vile past,
Ever changing lovers on his shaft.
Deep breaths, they take us,
For so long you faked it.

Looks can deceive,
You will never break me.
Assumptions of my tolerance
Heart beats and how they skip

I would keep your heart safe
Psychedelic sober lady
Patiently piecing together your atoms
While you make me wait my turn.

Energy leaking from my pores,
Kicking and screaming.
My body is a prison sometimes.
Clothing is entrapment.

Enough passion to paint a town,
Starving for a rush,
Clinging onto every crush

Sensual skin.
I live again.
Not blemish free, but beautiful.

Organism smoking ***.
Female of the night.
Sister of the friend.
Mother of the movement.
Nothing actually matters.
We're all going to die.
Beauty is pain.
Pleasure is smitten.
Floating in a river of last year's decisions.
Let that **** go.
Real love is free.

secure little flower.
Tucked away safely.
Hold me tightly with both hands.
Not just one.

Arms stretched out,
Looking for a chance to grow
Prophetic emotions runs wild in this.
Asphyxiated by the touch of a hand

Aroused by a murderous affection
Heavy breathing as the heat climbs.

Too ****** for your own good
Life slips away from us all

Slithering through your mind,
Back to back dreams
Eyes fluttering from visions
Of worlds between souls

Disappointed that this is it.