The only heaven I'll be sent to
is when I'm alone with you

angelic strength you give to me
even distance still it's you I seek

open wounds I leave to bleed
that's what your absence does to me

The most painful thing about suicide is your taking your life before its time.
Everyone thinks its alright...until you actually die.
You could've lived a full life, but you couldn't handle the trials.
Now I'll be the first to admit, life can get hard. You go through some
things that will leave you scarred.
You get tough & **** it up, guess we'll call it tough love. That's me & how I handle the uncertainties..........
"will it ever get better? will I make it out this weather?"
some people just leave a letter, saying why they did it &
what they couldn't deal with.
Leaving there loved ones torn and broken......it's usually the ones
that are so outspoken.  
So talented and smart, who loves from the heart.  Those are the ones in pain in the dark.  I just want to say.......
I can understand and relate. I know life gets too heavy. But please hear me out, when your all dried out like a drought.....
say a prayer through your lips cuz its not one word that God can miss.
I promise he'll get you out of this, don't give up so quick. Every  minute of unbearable pain changes you. You mature and you learn your limits, what you can & can't do. God has a plan too. If you give up you  won't see the brighter side. Cuz light kills darkness.

Violet sunset in the sky, why must you leave us? exchange for night.
A sweet transition for darkness is soothing, it is the time that we are all
snoozing.

Dreaming of a better place where everyone is awfully safe.
praying nightmares don't occur & you know the tables always turn.
Creepers creeping in the shadows, lurking for prey there hearts so
hallow.

empty insides I can relate to that. makes you go black & you rarely turn back. Moon so shiny & unique, lighting up the navy blue clouds
for thousands of miles.

Tiny stars all over; twinkle twinkle little light .. won't you shine your light so bright? Tying lovers as one until we finally see the sun.
once again the perfect exchange.........we finally see the day
again.

Your love ascended on me fearlessly.
I had no choice but to fall in love with your voice.
And all the loudness in my thoughts
your voice was the only one I sought.

Your love descended from me after a while.
rare connections separated.
all the times I meditated, hoping you come back down
my biggest fear awaits...your nowhere to be found.

Now your love is teaching me how to heal and be free.
There's no need to fear I'm always right here.
so I went with my instinct and let you be.
Trusting with all my soul that you'd make it back home
but you got lost and I must let you go. Go back to where you
came... I learned my lesson anyways.
ALWAYS TRUST YOUR INSTINCT

chemicals releasing in the air
24 hour clock
harmful hazardous is what we call them
it's called pollution of sin.

see everybody wants to win
but nobody wants to put in work.
silly black folks, step up your bars
we've come to far.

no more excuses, no more lack.
its time to take our royalty back.
I shall hear no complaints
Kings & Queens where hear
to REIGN !!!!

The darker the berry the sweeter the seeds
plant them because you sow what you reap.
My skin is magical you see...for I am a special kind of breed.
When I'm in the sun my melanin boils, plus heat is good for my ***** coils.
A shade darker I've just became...
From honey brown to a cocoa shade.
Time to untwist my bantu knots and free my natural fro.
The curly crown of victory as my melanin glows. I strut through the grasslands in tune with my inner goddess. My legs are thick and long, so now its time to flaunt this.
shaking my hair from left to right & pump my fist in the air.
Wish I was alive in the civil rights, but then I wouldn't be hear.
People they envy my complexion, they wish they had my perfection. But honestly you can't hate on something God gave.
Melanin queen, you reign in the lands.
Zion queen, lets do a foreign dance.
Melanin runs within my veins and pores.
Melanin I love to be, I'm wading
in the shores.

My spirit is unhappy
It hates my human body
It hates all the ego's
& People who act ******
It says it's to painful  
It was easier in heaven
I forget my original form
Human body be forgetting
That my purple spirit so pure
Came from the golden door
Sent down to my mother's womb
To save all the doomed
Such a purpose placed upon me  
Such a life I have lived
Still it's things I cannot see
My spirit is what I give
But being human is too hard
In the game of solitaire
Queen of hearts, pull my card
Figured out my mission
List of prophets, new addition
Human body set me free
To The Gods that reign above me

chakra's picking up some vibrations
sensing that everything's changing
right before my purest eyes
wiping away my soulful cries
.............................................
atmosphere is shifting right
cuz you been doing it all right
listening to all the rules
knowing it was you he choose
...............................................
chosen one of all the lands
makes you want to smile a bit
all part of a master plan
kept you at his old right hand
.................................................
sit back and start to receive
everything's not what it seems
surely you will soon start to see
the universe smiles back to me

abandoned by her mother and father
to take on this cold world alone
no voice left in my throat
to sing the melodies in the song
such a strong girl, yet I break down every night
never forgive you, you let me take on this fight
by myself, without your help
salvation is what I seek
I call your phone one hundred times
leaving voicemails that pled
yet you still don't seem to care
I face my hard times desolate
deserted, this life is hurting
me, myself, and I
why can't I overcome the trials.
just want to be put to sleep
internally in peace