It's dark in the room
With only little light coming from
The lamp at the corner of the room
Alone with my thoughts
Wishing I wasn't feeling unknown pain
Oh how I let my mind wonder
With words like...
Oh how I wish I didn't
Wear this mask as if everything is okay
When you the person I thought would never
Break my heart
I thought friendship was forever between us
But I was wrong
I was replaced
Who knew caring so much for someone was
Wrong
Who knew trying to keep the one you love safe
Could lead them to hating you
In the Night
I remember our late night calls
Of laughter on the most random things
People would admire how great friends we
Were
It's all apart of life
I grew up and found my love
But I still wanted my love and having you as my
Best friend
But things happen for the best
You found your love
And replaced me
When I tried managing you and my love
I couldn't help to not want to protect you
You were my sister
You were my shoulder to cry on
But I guess when you found someone
Our daily hang outs became none
Our daily chats about our lives became
About me trying to protect you
Or you saying things that I knew were not like you
Or arguing about our boyfriends
As I tried to defend mine
Since you didn't know much about mine
You were the keeper to my secrets
To my deepest thoughts
But turns out
You were just like everybody else
Wanting to advantage of my innocence
With my generosity
And be okay with being the "hidden plan"
When you were with somebody else
You said you understood what I was going through
When you have never experienced distance
From the one you love
I wanted to save you
Protect you
But I guess I couldn't
You broke me
I shall move on with my life
Deal with the things you spread around that are not true
Deal with the things I only shared with you
To be spread to the whole world
I hope you know
You made me stronger
You also made me trust no one
You may wish bad upon me
But I only wish good for you
This is no hate for you
But only love
I hope you have a bright future
I hope you pursue any dreams you may have
But I will no longer be here
I know you don't care
I have been replaced

You defiantly broke my heart
If I am being honest
You broke me
Yep you really did
I stayed up waiting by the phone for all your calls
You never called
Little to know you were doing things behind my back
I was so naive not to say anything
Move on go ahead
Because its so easy for you
You not being the broken one
Congratulations you made it on the list
The list of guys I thought loved me
And told me all the beautiful things
To take advantage of my kind heart
You never valued me
So have fun
Have a good life
I feel no need to text you
To express to you how badly you broke my heart
Because guess what
If you didn't care during our relationship about how I felt
You for sure wouldn't give a **** now
So thank you
For the next guy I will need to be super healed
You argued with my friend when he said you were gonna cheat and break my heart
You called it a stereotype
Well clearly it wasn't
You told me you would never break my heart
You promised but no you did
You told me to trust you
Stupid me to believe that
You told me you never talked to your exes
You told me they meant nothing
You brought them up way too much
Talked about their beauty
I guess I wasn't good enough
I will come back a better women
Stronger
So thank you
I was the best thing you ever had
Put so much effort
But no you can move on like nothing
Why?
Because I never hurt you!
Even when you broke my heart at many times
But no I have to sit here in pain
The pain you caused
I lost trust for anyone
But your trust stayed the same
You are a monster
In disguise as a prince
To lure the innocent
Only to break them

My best friend and I have stuck together through everything
Each break up
Each hard time
Each insecure moment
Each happy moment
Girls breaking his heart
Guys breaking mine
Each night when our minds are overthinking
And it becomes too much
We know we can contact each other
Each time we fall in love with someone we always ask for advice
It's always I hope they love you
We have always supported each other
The advice my best friend left me was...
You are worthy
Guys don't understand how great you are
My best friend has always reminded me of my worth
My best friend has always valued our friendship
Just when I think I am not worth it
My best friend brings me back
You have an amazing heart
That's what my best friend tells me
There is a movie my best friend had me watch
It reminded me a lot about our lives in a way
I think one of my favorite memories with my best friend was
That car ride on the way to our friend's house
And we vibed to music and made fun of street names
Get yourself a best friend like mine
That reminds you of your worth
That would do anything for you
And support you
Thank you to my best friend
For being the shoulder I can cry on all last year
For supporting the decisions I made even though they were not great
For being there to catch me even when you warned me
This one is for you

I know you are not in my life anymore
But...
Can I have one last hug
Can I have one last kiss
Can I have one last I love you
Can I hold your hand just one more time
Maybe if I have just one last hug
It won't be our last
Can we listen to our favorite song
Just one more time
Can I just run back into your arms one last time?
Can I hear you play my favorite song?
Just one last time
Can you call me yours just one last time
Can you call me
One last time
Can I see you
One last time
Maybe it won't be our last

I rather you tell me
You don't want me
Then lead me on
You end up hurting me more
If you don't just say the truth
Let my mind overthink
Let it wonder
Let me question
But please don't
Ask why I am gone
I may seem naive
But I know you don't want me
And that's okay
Please don't say you miss me
I have heard it all before
This why I don't give in too quickly
You never know about people
They lose interest
They no longer want you
Is it something you did
You will never know
All I ask is
Be honest
Even if it may hurt me
I can take it

You
With those beautiful words
That can make any girl feel special
You
Can make any girl think you are in love with her
Oh you
You tell girls everything they want to hear
Only to make them feel so little
Oh how you state you love her when you don't
Oh how you take her for granted
Her heart is fragile
But Oh how YOU
You broke her innocence
She is broken
You led her on to this beautiful forest
You led her on to believe you were a prince
When all you are is a monster
Luring a princess into a trap
Oh how you broke her
She no longer trusts anyone..
That invests interest in her
She loved you
Genuinely  loved you
But you were too blind to see it
You just wanted wrong intentions with her
She
She now is having trouble loving anyone
Because you..
You broke her

She lays in her bed
Letting thoughts roam her mind
She is thinking
What can I do to be enough
Enough for everyone
Enough to be loved so deeply and adored
What can I do to not be just the average girl
She wants to be something more
She is shy
She seeks respect and love
Her mind is determined and focused
She likes to know what makes her different
Is there a difference
Am I good enough she asks
If so how
How am I worthy
She sits and waits
As her phone lights up
She needs to be alone
Are you okay someone asked
Yeah just tired she said
Good night
She didn't go to bed
She laid there thinking
She stayed up really late
Woke up
Took a shower
Thoughts wondering
I am okay
I'm just tired

Young girl sits quietly in her room
Light coming from your vinyl records on her wall
She sits and deals with overthinking
She wishes she was good enough
Weight has always been an issue for her
People complaining about how her weight is
Her family thinks she is beautiful
She may not be the prettiest
She may not be the smartest
She loves people
She wants value
She pours her heart into people that don't deserve her
Why
Because she has a big heart
People take advantage of her in so many ways
Her mother has cried wishing people would stop hurting her
She has been heart broken so many time
And always she says
I wish that I was good enough
I wish I was shorter
She wishes she was more in shape
But shes working on that
She wishes someone would say wow thats wifey material
But actually mean it
She wishes someone would look at her and be like wow
She is gorgeous not only her appearance
But her heart
She ends her night with these words
I wish I was good enough