Sometimes, I think I really loved you
but fell out of love.

Sometimes, I think I never loved you,
just felt like I should.

Sometimes, I think I loved you all along
but knew it was best to let go.

She sits quietly in her room
With her music super loud
Lost in her thoughts
She's gonna be okay
It's hard when the person that mentally destroyed you
Tries to reappear like nothing
She walked away
Because you couldn't handle a woman like her
Stop trying
She is happy now
The more you attempt to reappear
The tears come rolling down
Not because she misses you
But because she wants you to go away
She gave you everything back
Yet you keep trying to have some sort of ties with her
You hurt her
As happily in love, she may be in
She is still healing
That's your fault
You could've broken her heart in a nice way
You could've called things off
Instead, you chose to be toxic
You think she would never find out
You thought she was always gonna stay
Because you figured she could never find someone as
"Great" as you
You weren't great
You thought you had her wrapped around your finger
Guess what
You didn't
Stop trying to act like you care now
That she is in love
You want to apologize too late for that
Respect her and Respect
She wants you out of her life
You made her afraid
You made her insecure
She sees he won't cut all ties with her
Let me go you have done enough
It's time for someone else to love me now
As he has to break all the walls you created for her
Please do her a favor
Go away
Stop trying to contact her
You are only breaking her more
She doesn't miss you
She doesn't miss your toxicity
Go away

Missed calls at 1 am
I wonder where you are.
Even then, especially now
you always were too far.

I'm done with broken promises,
I'm over empty feelings.

What happened?
Tell me, please.
My head's spinning in circles
and I'm down here on my knees.

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I'm writing this a year and a half later
to let you know I'm still here.
But as for you, well I'm quite sure
you've up and disappeared.

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It's been two years since I started
this ******-up love letter
in your absence.
I wish I could say I still miss you,
that I'm still driven crazy by so much madness;
but I realized I'd been holding on
to the ghosts of
your words
your touch
and
You.

You were like
the ever-changing seasons,
and I soon realized:
You are no longer
the person
I once knew.

3 | 31 Poems for August

I received a notification that you posted a picture an hour ago.
How you manage to look that happy is something that I’ll never know.
I’ll never know if I’ll ever be able to let you go.
Watching TV, while Passenger’s “Let Her Go” is on repeat.
I’m listening, but sporadically missing the lyrics and the beat.
It hurts to write but it hurts even more walking around with an untold story.
So I write to write, I write to save myself.
I write to save the little bit of love that I have left.
The song keeps playing, “Only know you love her when you let her go.”
Let her go, but I need to let her know that my love will continue to grow.
My love for her is something that I’ll always proudly show.
They say home is a beating heart and sweaty palms.
Home is where the heart is and that’s what hurts the hardest.
Help me stop the hurting, help me become a better person.
Too many times I try to hide all that I’m feeling inside.
The pit of my stomach is full of dead butterflies.

I received a notification that you posted a picture an hour ago.
How you manage to look that beautiful is something that I’ll never know.
I’ll never know if I’ll be able to ever let you go.
But just know, my reflection of love is eternal even if the mirror begins to crack.
Even though you have left, I’ll always try to get you back.
Too many times I try to hide all that I’m feeling inside.
The pit of my stomach is full of dead butterflies.

Your words are crystal clear
But my loving dear,
This love we share, I seem to fear.

Your words sound so sweet
But the truth is my love,
You were never truly mine.

Our love is like a trapped bird
Dying in its cage.
Longing for that one last taste of freedom.

And now,
Just like every other love story
I must let you go.
Because when we love something too much,
We must set it free.

I wished, I tried, I cried,
But lied,
That's the reason why I virtually died,
She left me cold, when I needed her the most,
But to let her go was the only decision I could undergo.

She respected, she understood, she misunderstood, she laughed,
Leaving me behind all the friend roles,
I loved, I love, and will love her to the core,
But to let her go was the only decision I could undergo.