She spread her arms and embraced me
that familiar scent made me smile
I noticed the wrinkles on her arms
and my heart ached

she spent half of her life
preparing what's best for me and still..
she is here
comforting me at my worst

My eyes welled up as i held back my tears
thinking of all the things i couldn't do for her
My heart pounding in a rhythm
thinking of all the best things for her

As she got up to bring me my favorite snack
tears finally escaped my eyes
wiping them away quickly
i promised to myself

I'll never leave you maa

How am i supposed to say
what i want is not attention
it's reassurance

what i want is not sympathy
it's support

how am i supposed to say
i am battling..
with myself.

At the end of endless search,
found the precious gem.
only to give it away,
as it doesn't fit my ring

I wanna watch her skate again and again
and argue with myself about what's more beautiful.

The smooth stokes she does
or the grinding sound of her blades biting the ice.

The way those white boots fit her perfectly
or the beauty who doesn't know how confident she looks.

I wanna watch her skate again and again
and argue with myself about which resembles her the most.

The mountains in the back covered with snow
just like her filled with joy.

The frozen ice glistening under the rising sun
just like her in the middle of the world.

Take 3 steps back
and make way bishes
coz she the boss of em' all
and i her bro.
Take 3 steps back
coz she's bolder than u think
and i?
oh sweetie, you don't mess with the messy ones.
Take 3 steps back
and stay in your own world
coz ours ain't pretty as we look.

One big candle,
I bought it.
Let me light one last candle,
for old times sake.
Let me watch it flicker out,
to embrace the darkness.
Let it melt away,
and my heart for you with it.
Let the candle be no more.

What if it is not what I imagined
What if the cold breeze is harsh on me
What if I couldn't find my warmth then
What if I feel lonely, even though I wish to be alone
What if that dream stays as a dream
What if I fail to love the moment
But what if,
What if all my "what-if's" are wrong

why do i feel
like i'm always searching
like i'm never complete.

what is it
that i'm missing the whole time
is it something or someone.

Beauty within the darkness
Hidden like a secret
The key not to be found
He lights the candle
She was beautiful than ever
And the darkness fell in love
with the candle


Again and again

Yes, I am messy and beautiful
I am fragile and brave
Passionate and lazy
Either you can stay and accept,
embrace the whole me.
Every bits, mistakes and elegance
Or just be gone.

I can still smile,
I can still see the shine
Though it was a mere candle
For me the light was bright as sun

I know you have a life
And i'll always respect your choices
But let me be
Let me be miserable in your absence,
Let me find happiness in your smile,
Let me drown in your thoughts,
Let me wait for the impossible.
So when the time comes to let you go,
I can say "i tried".

It started snowing.
She walked outside in awe,
Dressed in her favorite pink jacket and tights.
Trying to catch snow pellets, she giggled from the cold feeling.
First times are always special.
I still can’t say which is more beautiful,
The snow or the girl
Must be her

I promised you my heart
You took it, and you left
I promised you happiness
You took it, and you left
You promised me forever
I took it for granted, and you left

I felt abandoned and cold
I felt unloved and loathed
I felt lifeless but not dead, yet
I stood there, waiting for you to return
Days after days, weeks after weeks
You never did come, but something else did
Hate, yes hate.

I hate you because you made me smile
I hate you because you showed me heaven
I hate you because you gave me a taste of love
But mostly,
I hate you because I am still in love with you