"twords" poems
I don't know how I can write all this
Know all this
With a pinpoint, laser focus
Tuned so far into,
Most every issue,
I come out the other side of existence
To get a look at if from every angle,
This ain't checkers, this is chess
From biggest
To littlest
Catalyst,
To coroner visits
Call every witness
There's an obvious will,
To one day still,
Find a bottom to this
Accountability,
Twords the top of the list
While I skirt a bit of responsibility,
Let's be honest
But can't fold any of it into my healing process
So after all this,
And after being told it would absolutely aid in the progress,
I'm still a mess
Can't make it make sense
©2024
Apr 15, 2024
Apr 15, 2024 at 3:57 PM UTC
No one understands me
Just get to tell me what I feel
Tell me they're here to help
I'm like a cup of tea
Every bump in the road more Tea escapes
Living on a tilted slope
Running from the water rushing twords me
Falling down the rabbit hole of thoughs
Mad as a hatter is me
Carzy as the chesier cat
Calm as the rabbit
Insane as the red queen
Blood falling from my smiling mouth
Think im crazy
Staying stuck in the moment
Spilling tea on me
Teacup spilling my my brains like boiling liquid
Boiling my skin
Cant let in the light
Blacked out
Never getting out
Teacup spilling
Feb 1, 2022
Feb 1, 2022 at 2:04 PM UTC
You make me laugh,
With all these little moves,
Twords everyone you call "friend",
This only further proves,
Proves your incompetent,
Incapable of life,
You mess with the wrong people,
You deserve that knife,
Remember what you've done,
How you make yourself like this,
Your to ******* selfish,
Taking everyone's anger to your bliss,
You so kindly need to leave,
Turn around and theres the door,
For everyone knows,
Your being a selfish little *****
Dec 7, 2010
Dec 7, 2010 at 5:27 PM UTC
Gazing into his deep brown eyes
She moves her lips twords his
Kissing them gently, then progressively more passionatly.
Her lips loom over his cheek
She feels his stuble scratch her tender kisses
Pink creatures that can whisper thousands of words trail ever so softly to his ear where they whispered,
"I will never love you"
Oct 20, 2013
Oct 20, 2013 at 11:34 AM UTC
Never heard
Always misunderstood
Alone
Misguided
Dont wake me up
Why would anyone
Care
Cold inside and out
Shadows of former self
Dance upon the wall.
People tear at the shell
Trying to find a way
Inside
To plant their
Unholy seed
Erasing meaningful memories
Dont wake me up
The frail shell
Is on its last leg
As she crumbles
To the ground
They stare at it
Lifeless
Dont wake me up
They walk past her
In a single file
Some crying
Others cursing
Never listened to the victim
Even twords the end
A voice carried on the wind
Accompanied by a cold
Fragile laugh
"Just remember what I said
Dont wake me up when I am dead."
Aug 9, 2012
Aug 9, 2012 at 1:48 AM UTC
Red crimson flows
Through my veins
Soft like your fingers
As they glide over my skin
Molding me against you
Taking full control
As you become more
Urgent
I look into your eyes
Is that lust I see there?
As you continue
Your nails drive deep into my skin
As you bite down into my neck.
I feel the blood rush forward
As you hold me close
Both bodies shuddering
As I go almost lifeless
You give me your blood to save me
Why?
Is it lust you feel twords me
As I change I become angry
All I wanted was blood
Mainly yours
You grab me as I scream
At you
"Why did you turn me...
Was it my blood you wanted...
My body... Was it lust..."
He held me close
Whispered in my ear
"No my dear it isnt lust at all...
It is out of love that I turned you..
I laid claim to your heart, body, and soul...
You are my lifemate
For eternity..."
Aug 9, 2012
Aug 9, 2012 at 11:16 PM UTC
The shock of the unexpected can be
debilitating
sometimes it feels like we are just
strapped in for the ride
Its hard to accept the facts of life
At times we just arent ready to
catch that curve ball
but it barrels twords us none the less
you either play the game or die in the process
That shock places you beside yourself
forcing you to examine from a higher plane
how do you deal with the hands of cold fate?
feeling like your mind is at stake
The only solution at the end of the day
is to rise above the change
much easier said then done
especially when your coming apart
You can only hold onto your heart
Oct 18, 2012
Oct 18, 2012 at 2:08 PM UTC
Two Heart breakers, standing in a room
One that you didn't suspect,
she's just starting to bloom.
And the other is what you expected,
making every heart go boom.
One never gave others a choice.
She hides information behind a knowing smirk
Her smile can turn any heart twords her.
Little did they know that a siren's song can lurk
In the sweetest of voices.
The other caused explosions
and it was only after the boom did they realize
that the aftermath was not worth the thrill of the fall.
They look around say with cries,
"I was never really chosen!"
Those two Heart breakers start to grow close,
giving the other what they require the most
of what they had to offer
Neither one seems to know
that they hold the others love.
The one who causes explosions of lust
is the first to fall
she got attached to quickly
the other wasn't ready.
So, she decided waiting wasn't for her
and moved off from the cliff's edge
to find another.
The one going into bloom
fell too late.
She missed the deadline and was so close.
But, the other had already moved on.
So, she moves on but left apart of her behind.
Because you never know when she might return.
The bloomer is now a flower.
The explosions have become dust.
They both have continued on but
keep going in circles around that edge.
Will they fall down together?
Or will they go their separate ways again?
One is too unpredictable and wild.
The other is too prepared and tame.
Maybe they will meet at this cliff's edge again.
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 7:44 PM UTC
Tiny vessels oozed into the pores of your neck, formed the bruises that you dreaded from fading. You chased me away with loud sounds and violent ways when all the time through you were quiet and peaceful inside. I didn't hide from you. You hid from me though. Now is the moment I live in where I look into her eyes and think "she's beautiful but she doesn't mean a thing to me."
While I caress her healthy skin he's bruising your dying skin. I wanted to engulf you into a mass of love and affection but you can't teach an old dog new tricks. I reached out with a strong arm to touch your soul but you took the dagger from him and sawed my arm through the bone. I wake up late some nights, the nights I actually sleep, and softly touch the scar you left me with. I miss it. I'm a hollowed, rotten, empty soul. You made me me feel full, healthy, and whole. You looked at me, then you looked at the tiny vessels implanted and ran twords him. I'll pray every night to a god I don't exactly believe in that you'll come back to me someday.
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 8:47 PM UTC
You want to fight?
Alright
Let me get your gloves
And tie my hands behind my back
Because there's no point in a counter attack
You don't care
That's fact
Every word i say to you is just thin air
Arguing that all your low blows are fair
And your violence twords me?
It's all acceptable crazy
And my "FUUCK YOU!" retort is blasphemy
i have to accept your every issue
Acknowledge what you have and are currently going through
And for the most part i do
But when it comes to anything to do with me
All of a sudden you can't see
What happened to "we"?
Conveniently disappearing quickly
Replaced with a lowly "me"
This isn't a reality that i want to live anymore
So this time when i paddle out i'll sink the ore
There'll be no more attempts to return to shore
©2024
Sep 29, 2024
Sep 29, 2024 at 2:51 AM UTC
She used to be enveloped
By a sea of affection
Each and every day
In the form of odes
And " I love yous "
Now
Since ebbed away
Only to see the
Stones
That are the foundation
To her very being
Her heart
As it seemed twords him
Hard and cold
Revealed
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 12:48 PM UTC
When im stood beside you, I know you're really there
Because i see your face lit in the darkest place and then i think of you...
Think of you when i am sad
Think of all the times we spent together
I thught you were my friend
But then you lost me
Or i lost you
You were there for me
I was there for you
We was always there
When we needed it most
But then that day came
And your eyes as red as blood
Came twords me
I was scared
I was terrified
I thught to myself "What?"
Then you stopped and stared
I didn't speak
Because i was afraid
What had i done
What was you going to do
I stood
And sung
And reminded you that you were safe
And you
You told me that you didn't care
You didn't want to talk
You didnt want to be there for me anymore
But alongside all that
I stayed loyal to you
Kind to you
A friend to you
Hoping that someday, you would come back
I guess i wasnt thinking
Because never did you ever come back to me
You just left and watched me walk
And suffer the pain you had caused me
You laughed at me
And took my life from me
Because i was scard
For life
And you did nothin to save me
You hated me
I hated you
You found me
And asked
Why was i sad
I said, because of you
You shut me out
Wouldnt let me in
Locked me out and threw away the key
You didnt relise what you had done to me
But it hurt, a lot
And yet, i always stayed a friend to you
And i always will.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 4:07 PM UTC
Shadows from a dark room with no windows or light will whisper to me and call for me
I can't help but to be drawn into a state of numbness and weakness as they chant and almost screaming my name
I want to resist and pull away yet I'll still make my steps twords the room as I'm drawn by envy
I know when if I make a few more steps the people behind will say I've brought shame
But as the darkness consumes me and my voice gets quite the shadows will always chant my name.
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 9:24 PM UTC
Not for you and not for anybody
I write for myself
when i found myself
lost in the fetters of the world
these words came to my rescue
Those words could talk to me
They said,"You are not alone"
Those words healed my wounds
and everything was just perfect
but when you laughed on those words
when you thought how stupid i was
it felt as if those words were not there anymore
those words seemed to fade away
Those words started to disappear
And i was alone all over again
I thought now you would never laugh on me again
but i realised i was just a plaything for you
you were fake
but those words were real
they were always with me
And when i took the pen again
those words came back to me
i realised you laughed cause
twords didn't match up to my words
your words couldn't heal wounds they way they heal mine
and after all this i surely know
that now your words couldn't stop mine anymore
Sep 23, 2017
Sep 23, 2017 at 4:00 AM UTC
Sitting in this class I feel as though I am wasting away with my thoughts costantly banging inside my head wanting to be free
I am drwonging in my own mind with these thoughts like an angry god stirring the ocean of my happines and peace
The god is drowning me and I am reaching twords the surface gasping for air but the techer drones on while I sit there seamingly bord
Inside my own head is a battle raging my fear a lonly worrior fighting for a place in my mind my anxity is an army of hate
My deppression is the godess of death with her staring eyes and mind breaking words
The techer continues to with the lesson, the lesson that in my mind is the thing fuling the flames of my anger and pain
The kids laugh while I walk by, I am invisible to everyone unless they want to bully me
The kids are the mosters and I am the monster hunter who lost their wepon and is fighting a onesided battle
My words are the double edged sword that while slicing down my enemys are cutting words in to my own skin
The teachers are the evil overlords I must defeat but this not a real fight this is just a normal day
That bag I wear on my back, no not the backpack, the depression and my thoughts make it impossible to run after my target
It is heavy and the sword I cary so bravly is dulling with every slice it takes of my enmeys and myself
I am waering the aroumr that protects my mind from the stress that is school that is the kids that is my deppression and my parents and my thoughts
I am carring a sword that is dull but looks sharp so no one thinks to ask if it is sharp enough or offer to help when they see me loosing my battles
I am have been shot down and stood back up when no one thought I would The teachers they act as though they care
The teachers are the traitors that are pretending to be on your side when in reality they are serving the my angry god just to tick off another curriculum box
That is my battle not one of bloodshed though it is and not one of physical but mental
I see my life as a novle that I am wirting but I am the villian and hero and lost soul, I am everything and nothing
If I see my life as a battle it is easier to face than if I see it as reality, in my mind I have superpowers and I am the greatest sword master though a clumsy one I will admit
We all mess up but if I mess up thats just one more thing my angry god can use against me
I am loosing to my angry god
;
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 11:45 AM UTC
I am disgusted.
The anger twords myself.
I can not think of anything more than you.
My wish is to endlessly touch you.
Pleasing at first,
grabbing me off the shelf.
Fingertips across what was busted.
We both trusted.
Our hearts would always be their self.
I am wanting you.
I have you.
Dealing with world itself.
So I keep the ideas untested.
We have not rested.
Keep the demons to themselves!
Willing to **** them all with you.
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 3:27 PM UTC
A dim light
Faded in the background
So far away
It's beautiful
Giving of a
Lumenesent glow
I run twords it
Stretching out my hands
But I never get there
It's like chasing after the sun
The darkness clouds around me
And the monsters
Are pulling at my back
Dragging me father away
Am i dead
If I am
I regret
Ever wishing to be
I want to wake
From this horrid dream
Let me be free of the dark
It's been so long
I need to be free
I want to feel the light
Bounce off my skin
I want to smile
But being stuck here
I don't remember how to
I can barely remember
What happiness is
All i see is pain
An suffering
And in these dark corners
Of my mind
And evil presence
Is starting to grow
I'm adapting to it
I don't want to
But in this dark
They call my name
Wanting me to become
A monster
One of the dreadful tortured souls
That haunt me,
I can feel myself
Falling into the same path
Is this hell,
Shouldn't they're be fire
I'm freezing
But my blood boils
I can't fight it
I feel vulnerable
To this nightmare
Called life
May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 10:01 AM UTC
To run to freedom like a desperate slave
To run like a gazelle on the African planes
To run like an engine with no stop
To run faster and faster like chasing the clock
To run like a sprinter twords his goal
To run like the devil after a soul
To sit like a man who's dreams are dead
To sit in wonder of how we are led
To sit all alone in a world so cruel
To sit on a throne as a king or a fool
To sit in peace meek or mild
To sit with your mother father or child
To think of how we are so blessed
To think of love and how its best
To think of you
To think of me
Run Sit Think
and soon
you will
see
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 2:31 AM UTC