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Caminas adentro de ti mismo y el tenue reflejo serpeante que te conduce
    no es la última mirada de tus ojos al cerrarse ni es el sol tímido golpeando tus párpados:
    es un arroyo secreto, no de agua sino de latidos: llamadas, respuestas, llamadas,
    hilo de claridades entre las altas yerbas y las bestias agazapadas de la conciencia a obscuras.
    Sigues el rumor de tu sangre por el país desconocido que inventan tus ojos
    y subes por una escalera de vidrio y agua hasta una terraza.
    Hecha de la misma materia impalpable de los ecos y los tintineos,
    la terraza, suspendida en el aire, es un cuadrilátero de luz, un ring magnético
    que se enrolla en sí mismo, se levanta, anda y se planta en el circo del ojo,
    géiser lunar, tallo de vapor, follaje de chispas, gran árbol que se enciende y apaga y enciende:
    estás en el interior de los reflejos, estás en la casa de la mirada,
    has cerrado los ojos y entras y sales de ti mismo a ti mismo por un puente de latidos:
                                  EL CORAZÓN ES UN OJO.

    Estás en la casa de la mirada, los espejos han escondido todos sus espectros,
    no hay nadie ni hay nada que ver, las cosas han abandonado sus cuerpos,
    no son cosas, no son ideas: son disparos verdes, rojos, amarillos, azules,
    enjambres que giran y giran, espirales de legiones desencarnadas,
    torbellino de las formas que todavía no alcanzan su forma,
    tu mirada es la hélice que impulsa y revuelve las muchedumbres incorpóreas,
    tu mirada es la idea fija que taladra el tiempo, la estatua inmóvil en la plaza del insomnio,
    tu mirada teje y desteje los hilos de la trama del espacio,
    tu mirada frota una idea contra otra y enciende una lámpara en la iglesia de tu cráneo,
    pasaje de la enunciación a la anunciación, de la concepción a la asunción,
    el ojo es una mano, la mano tiene cinco ojos, la mirada tiene dos manos,
    estamos en la casa de la mirada y no hay nada que ver, hay que poblar otra vez la casa del ojo,
    hay que poblar el mundo con ojos, hay que ser fieles a la vista, hay que
                  CREAR PARA VER.

    La idea fija taladra cada minuto, el pensamiento teje y desteje la trama,
    vas y vienes entre el infinito de afuera y tu propio infinito,
    eres un hilo de la trama y un latido del minuto, el ojo que taladra y el ojo tejedor,
    al entrar en ti mismo no sales del mundo, hay
ríos y volcanes en tu cuerpo, planetas y hormigas,
    en tu sangre navegan imperios, turbinas, bibliotecas, jardines,
    también hay animales, plantas, seres de otros mundos, las galaxias circulan en tus neuronas,
    al entrar en ti mismo entras en este mundo y en los otros mundos,
    entras en lo que vio el astrónomo en su telescopio, el matemático en sus ecuaciones:
    el desorden y la simetría, el accidente y las rimas, las duplicaciones y las mutaciones,
    el mal de San Vito del átomo y sus partículas, las células reincidentes, las inscripciones estelares.

    Afuera es adentro, caminamos por donde nunca hemos estado,
    el lugar del encuentro entre esto y aquello está aquí mismo y ahora,
    somos la intersección, la X, el aspa maravillosa que nos multiplica y nos interroga,
    el aspa que al girar dibuja el cero, ideograma del mundo y de cada uno de nosotros.
    Como el cuerpo astral de Bruno y Cornelio Agripa, como las granes transparentes de André Breton,
    vehículos de materia sutil, cables entre éste y aquel lado,
    los hombres somos la bisagra entre el aquí el allá, el signo doble y uno, V y ^ ,
    pirámides superpuestas unidas en un ángulo para formar la X de la Cruz,
    cielo y tierra, aire y agua, llanura y monte, lago y volcán, hombre y mujer,
    el mapa del cielo se refleja en el espejo de la música,
    donde el ojo se anula nacen mundos:

    LA PINTURA TIENE UN PIE EN LA ARQUITECTURA Y OTRO EN EL SUEÑO.


    La tierra es un hombre, dijiste, pero el hombre no es la tierra,
    el hombre no es este mundo ni los otros mundos que hay en este mundo y en los otros,
    el hombre es la boca que empaña el espejo de las semejanzas y dice sí,
    el equilibrista vendado que baila sobre la cuerda floja de una sonrisa,
    el espejo universal que refleja otro mundo al repetir a éste, el que transfigura lo que copia,
    el hombre no es el que es, célula o dios, sino el que está sienpre más allá.
    Nuestras pasiones no son los ayuntamientos de las substancias ciegas pero los combate y los abrazos de los elementos riman con nuestros deseos y apetitos,
    pintar es buscar la rima secreta, dibujar al eco, pintar el eslabón:
    El Vértigo de Eros es el vahído de la rosa al mecerse sobre el osario,
    la aparición de la aleta del pez al caer la noche en el mar es el centelleo de la idea,
    tú has pintado al amor tras una cortina de agua llameante

    PARA CUBRIR LA TIERRA CON UN NUEVO ROCÍO.


    En el espejo de la música las constelaciones se miran antes de disiparse,
    el espejo se abisma en sí mismo anegado de claridad hasta anularse en un reflejo,
    los espacios fluyen y se despeñan bajo la mirada del tiempo petrificado,
    las presencias son llamas, las llamas son tigres, los tigres se han vuelto olas,
    cascada de transfiguraciones, cascada de repeticiones, trampas del tiempo:
    hay que darle su ración de lumbre a la naturaleza hambrienta,
    hay que agitar la sonaja de las rimas para engañar al tiempo y despertar al alma,
    hay que plantar ojos en la plaza, hay que regar los parques con risa solar y lunar,
    hay que aprender la tonada de Adán, el solo de la flauta del fémur,
    hay que construir sobre este espacio inestable la casa de la mirada,
    la casa de aire y de agua donde la música duerme, el fuego vela y pinta el poeta.
segi504 Jun 2014
I see you vividly in the rails of trauma
Call it drama
Possibly trailing from my mama
A grand pa she had
Michael T Chase Feb 2021
What is it that I'm "in my head"?
The shape of my brain and skull act as a maze through which frequencies are played by the thought constructs which I employ.
It is like every attribute has a string or key which can be played, and every time it is played, it conjures all the processes which that key has encountered before.
Eyes half closed places me in my head, and body sometimes too.
Looking up is paying homage to the sky.
The ability to walk on two legs places humans between earth and heaven, two limbs can reach up, and two limbs touch bottom.
I have no visible tail, only a remnant of one, which makes my movement dependent on just these four limbs.
The head and spine being shared by all vertebrates, means that its sign is more diverse in nature.
Humans have the largest brains compared to the rest of the body.
However, an extra-terrestrial skeleton proved to have a brain/skull even larger than humans.

Consciousness is held much like using all the controls while driving a car: the eyes adjust, pressure in the skull and body is adjusted with muscles, the position of the body, neck, and head is adjusted.
Sounds are drown out or given attention.
The body can be divorced from emotion, virtue, and the universe.
The Self can be divorced from virtue, organization, emotion, and the universe.
Everything in such a state is local.
When things are local, I can only observe the scattering amplitudes.
If the scattering is very low, then the gross or macro-level world is all I see.
But what is different from a chair or sofa and a star or moon?
Both are made from the same universe.
The difference is that one was formed by humans, the other a part of nature.
What makes nature a better object of focus than man-made objects?
The man-made object tends to already have a use while the natural are base elements.
They signify the lowest grade of complexity.
Thus, my body is the lowest grade, the simplest, structure in the local home.
Being simple, it is like a canvas that can be painted, or a quarry from which a rock can be sculpted.

Now I switch to morning mode, which is about waking up and making progress.
But meditation is just as hard waking up as it is staying up sometimes.
I must once again ask the same questions in a new day.
What is consciousness?
Can it really be defined as a particular mechanism?
Wouldn't DNA be the best candidate, and it is made of compounds, which are found with the elements.
Yes, it seems science must switch from a "finding a particle" mode to a global life-form mode.
One which knows that life is a web of different things without any one of which the whole planet would fail.
"Finding a particle" mode has proven to be at the end of its run for finding them, as to find a graviton would prove impossible due to the amount of energy needed that would then create a minature black hole.
It seems like I'm a couch scientist, or a science critic not contributing to the picture.
The "finding a particle" mode is so hard to give up because it has been a part of science for over 100 years, which has shaped what a scientist does, how one thinks too.
However, the "web of life" mode gives a harder picture to deal with: one of thinking about social relationships between and within species and kingdoms.
It means that insight will no longer come from a "gold rush" type mentality of a find, but rather insight gleaned from a cooperative consultative stream of thought.
It takes the center away from the individual and places it on the community and the biosphere.
The biosphere or world civilization perspective takes away a lot of physics needed and instead offers a simpler picture, far simpler.
Now, I ask: how can social groups become more enlightened?
How will personal growth, science, the humanities, and social justice play a role?
How will spirituality, which so often is "other worldly" actually weaken this social structure if it is not focused on the simple practical matters in the "web of life" outlook?
I now see that asking "what is consciousness?", if asked too much, will prove to individualize and hamper people's worldview by placing its concern on minutia.
This "find a particle" view could even be seen as an illness which keeps people from having a more social outlook.
It means giving up the personal glory of the scientist, for the practical glory of the community, of the whole.
Instead, what will cause love to grow and hatred to end?
What will make conversations and interactions become more mature?

Now I turn to the element of virtues, which can be divorced from the human body if its goals are not aligned with them.
Addressing trama and how to cope, or simply depression and anxiety too.
The goal of course being a utopia where all can flourish physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.
We must come to some shared understanding of how society best operates, or else we will keep contending with each other for a millennia.
I feel these shifts occur form injustice and the rally for justice in its wake.
It really comes down to the people in power making decisions today.
To how we treat those who share different beliefs, and how we distinguish from mere differences of opinion from a difference between knowledge and ignorance.
I can see both sides of abortion having good points.
I can see good all the way from a flat tax (like religion) to very high taxes on the wealthy.
I can see the difference from helping poeple survive to helping them thrive and knowing the good sides of both issues.
Moreover, I can see why too much nationalism and too much globalism could both be unjust due to the particular opinions of a mother nation, and the need for global unity.
I can see why adherence to one religion will only work if it is based on love and freedom, for love without freedom is not unconditional.
Meanwhile freedom without love leads to destruction.
However, erasing safety and protection from love and freedom would also lead to disaster.

Where is the balance?
That is what the "web of life" mode needs to deliberate.
This is a slow process.
The willingness of one can only affect others through wisdom not fanaticism in any degree.
What is consciousness?
The highest consciousness is deciding public affairs and interacting with others about public affairs.
Therefore, read, write, interact, and work.
Then reflect again and see how far we have come.
4 hours of journaling
ClawedBeauty101 Sep 2018
Let's all be honest... for once... let us all admit this statement...
Each of us has impaled a dozy pill of mistakes... inhaled regrets fragrant

A prescription of the many countless regrets... failures... and stupid moments
They come back like a drug side effect, attacking you as their opponent

Losing your sense of reality as you drunkenly laugh at the blessings
Numb to kindnesses touch as you roll off the couch of security... nervously sweating

Openly abusing the precious, pure body of wisdom... deaf to her rejecting scream...
She stood by your side... Telling you not to take another drink... not to get lost in marijuana's dream...

A foolish smirk sneaks on your face, your mind clouded by the vape and tobacco, blocking your judgment
Carelessly touching in all the wrong places... pleasurable? Your conscious shows no lament

Your lips are a bite... Your touch is a knife... your words are a poison... to not only wisdom... for it will backfire
You are finally evicted from Illusions hallucinations... you fell for such a devilish liar.

Your brain has rung the alarm to your entire body... memories of unwise choices bring head trama
A heavy alcoholic breath escapes your mouth of regretted words... full of gossips drama

You wobble on unstable feet.. and do not achieve your desired balance...
Falling to your knees... you see the blood... the tears... and the saliva of someone who is guilty... no use in using words of parlance

No lies can hide the guilt that clokes your face...
All evidence leads you down to your fate...

"Drugged and Drunk of Regrets" was the charge placed against you... then you were sent away
But be careful... Memories, thoughts, and feelings can lead your mind astray.

"Set them free... You have been given mercy..."
The Judge granted, without one drop of regret and worry

...Mercy... You have been given mercy for your crime...
So why continue to drug your self on regrets? It's not worth a dime!!

DON'T GET DRUNK ON THE PAST!!!!
THE OLD IS GONE!!! THE PAST WON'T LAST!!!

DON'T CONTINUE TO ****** YOUR THOUGHTS OF A HOPEFULLY FUTURE!!
I HAVE DONE THAT!!! DON'T BE HAPPINESSES CONSUMER!!

We all have been Drugged and Drunk of Regrets...
but the best thing to do... it to apologize... and forget...
Apologize... and Forget...
Liz Jul 2018
Afraid of what I think is there
Feeling suffocated by air
Acting out when things don't feel right
This is my fight or flight
Losing control
Grasping whatever I can
I hate this was caused
Just by one man
Unexpected reactions
Full circle disfunction
Stop the cycle please
PTSD
Becka Vees Jun 2012
Bare in mind every hair-splitting detail:
Giving up was growing up.
Retail prices of bail bonds, re-told crises turned stories
Have gotten old so we painted the white roses red
Instead of trite and true head-loss.
Blah Blah brain trama drama, tears for dear old mama
Mean-time spent
While we've met cross-breeds with clarinet reeds
Never shoved down tiny child throats.
Too fat to fly.
Too fat to ****.
Hook -- one for the money.
Line -- two for the show.
Sinker -- three to turn back and tinker with hands as toys.
Cut out and crafty make-shift girls with faulty gills
Flop and flail on glue-covered decks next to
Peeled and punched newspaper clipped boys.
Giving up was growing up.
Moving on, and I'm still growing up.

(Written 3/12)
Levanten sus copas
que hoy la suerte
se cierne a la botella

Dionisio pagó con sangre
el trago amargo de la pérdida.
Laureada la seda que envuelve
el óbito de tu destino,

sobre el tinto que ateza de luto tu pecho
atribulan sus enemigos
en la cómplice oscuridad de un bar olvidado
que arrulla en secreto la muerte bajo un mar de Ginebra

Que aguarda entre mentiras al
íntimo ritual que sienta el pulso
y añeja el vértigo de tus palabras

Petaca en mano que enciende tu aliento
desgaja tus venas de oporto y ron
y pinta de sanguinos matices
la náusea ...

que apacigua el lamento
de tu Ménade solitaria
que entre espectros alcoholizados
maldice el acre juicio del azar

Danza macabra que
funde sus lenguas profanas,
en la misma apática letanía

Maldita esa noche de julio
parda como el veneno que rezuman tus vísceras
parda como la trama endeble
que corrompe tu hígado enfermo

Maldita la sed en tus ojos vidriosos
negros como el nectar que escancian la Nísiades
en la viña de tu cárdena mortaja.

Maldito el recuerdo
que aún te ve

Sentado con beoda inocencia
donde van a morir las ratas
y un perro viejo sella
con vos su pródigo pacto secuaz

Que entre pitada y pitada
escapan a vos en susurros los versos del turco Jayyam
batiendo suspiros al aire
flotando en castillos de alquitrán

Que pensando en la muerte
borracho y con voz cansada
solías preguntar

¿Habrá allí una pizca de lima que bese
el salitre de sus dedos renegridos?
PEARL SMOKE Mar 2015
iHave Your Mind
In Circles.
Stressed And Worried over me.
All Because of my disease
Yes I know its so unfair
That You Have to go through this
Through My Comedown And Rages iThrow All
Because of tweak.
Your Minds In Trama
Because Of what you know about my past
Feeling Tortured
Once i Spoke About the lies ive told you.
This Problem i Have Affected Us Too.
Its daily Thoughts & Doubts
Wether im really where i Say Im At
If il Pick Up Or if i used.
Instead Of Missing me And waiting till You See me
Having Thoughts Of Always Wanting to be with me
You Have the complete Opposite
Cause you dont know If you should believe me
My boyfriend was there By my side the 3rd time i Was sent to residential
he was there supporting me and helping me.
he seemed to develope feelings for me through the phone calls we would give eachother
when i had gotten out of rehab he suprised me with baloons and gifts.
so happy i made it.
2 weeks later i relapsed and he was devastated
felt all his help and time was all worth less
time passed bye
arguments after fights
we later go together
made a deal
i give up drugs for his love
i lied and still went on using
later on i confessed about so much
since then hes been doubtful on my every move
Voy a contarte en secreto
quién soy yo,
así, en voz alta,
me dirás quién eres,
quiero saber quién eres,
cuánto ganas,
en qué taller trabajas,
en qué mina,
en qué farmacia,
tengo una obligación terrible
y es saberlo,
saberlo todo,
día y noche saber
cómo te llamas,
ése es mi oficio,
conocer una vida
no es bastante
ni conocer todas las vidas
es necesario,
verás,
hay que desentrañar,
rascar a fondo
y como en una tela
las líneas ocultaron,
con el color, la trama
del tejido,
yo borro los colores
y busco hasta encontrar
el tejido profundo,
así también encuentro
la unidad de los hombres,
y en el pan
busco
más allá de la forma:
me gusta el pan, lo muerdo,
y entonces
veo el trigo,
los trigales tempranos,
la verde forma de la primavera
las raíces, el agua,
por eso
más allá del pan,
veo la tierra,
la unidad de la tierra,
el agua,
el hombre,
y así todo lo pruebo
buscándote
en todo,
ando, nado, navego
hasta encontrarte,
y entonces te pregunto
cómo te llamas,
calle y número,
para que tú recibas
mis cartas,
para que yo te diga
quién soy y cuánto gano,
dónde vivo,
y cómo era mi padre.
Ves tú qué simple soy,
qué simple eres,
no se trata
de nada complicado,
yo trabajo contigo,
tú vives, vas y vienes
de un lado a otro,
es muy sencillo:
eres la vida,
eres tan transparente
como el agua,
y así soy yo,
mi obligación es ésa:
ser transparente,
cada día
me educo,
cada día me peino
pensando como piensas,
y ando
como tú andas,
como, como tú comes,
tengo en mis brazos a mi amor
como a tu novia tú,
y entonces
cuando esto está probado,
cuando somos iguales
escribo,
escribo con tu vida y con la mía,
con tu amor y los míos,
con todos tus dolores
y entonces
ya somos diferentes
porque, mi mano en tu hombro,
como viejos amigos
te digo en las orejas;
no sufras,
ya llega el día,
ven,
ven conmigo,
ven
con todos
los que a ti se parecen,
los más sencillos,
ven,
no sufras,
ven conmigo,
porque aunque no lo sepas,
eso yo sí lo sé:
yo sé hacia dónde vamos,
y es ésta la palabra:
no sufras
porque ganaremos,
ganaremos nosotros,
los más sencillos,
ganaremos,
aunque tú no lo creas,
ganaremos.
dennis drain Aug 2018
Take my winnings and leave me with my mistakes...
Brighter days be gone from memory.
I've seen the sudden loss of life that only comes with ******....
memories of happier days are clouded in my head,
I try and find a simple thought, to over think and push away the images that that staind my brain and hid so much of myself away....
See I try and be a good guy,
Most child killers do!
Most of us, not all of us but certainly some, myself  included.
Take what they see and then forget it all.
It's easier to sit in the moment, relive the trama, and resee the colors and hear the screams because after that life was gone so we're our dreams....
We keep so much away from others,at 12yo I saw a homie blow a pleading man's head off.
I don't wanna think more about the good times...... Take my happy days back.....
At 13yo i watched bodies drop after I took the shot I was told to take.
How can I see there fate so suddenly come to an end, and smile at the birth of my son....
There souls set heavy on my shoulders, I say nothing of there demis. Who am I to speak apon another man's life that my hand has taken?
I'm sorry, that I at the time I was a stone and showed no hesitation, taking away the one person that could have saved us....
No I cry in my sleep... when they come back in my thoughts and create nightmares as vengens....
Others see me  distant and angry but
I just lose myself in practicing apologies.....
So when you holla and I ignore ya, or turn around and unload on ya. It's cuz I'll never find the words that'll make my theft of life ok......

Send my happiness to the souls
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
I explode on paper,
words stolen from tongues jaded,
Walkin through the bones of satan on roads paved in gold on bloodstained stones,
Quoting ravens,

Unchained vocals spoken through molten statements,
Cant contain the shine they hold on glowin pages,

My flow is hatred,
Found my place unknown with souls forsaken,
Amongst the ancients and shadowy faces,
Scorched and tainted,
Sent from the lowest places to translate the words from a foreign language,

Holdin the flame within,

became one With the mass of woes and anguish Transformed to greatness,

Decayed corrosion controlled and vanquished,
MY UNHOLY CREATED-



HED TRAMA™
Found my place in the shadows of this world
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
Lost in love,
A call from above,

Lost in translation,
A fascination,

Lost in the real,
Trying to feel,

Lost in my heart,
For we've grown apart,

Lost in my thoughts,
But never forgot,

Lost in the past,
With memories trapped,

Lost in her voice,
My walls destroyed,

Lost in my tears,
Just trying to hear,

Lost in my want,
My need to touch,

Lost in my dread,
Calling for death,

Lost in my void,
Without a point,

Lost in her dream,
Too high to reach-



HED TRAMA™
Oh, un terribile timore;
La lietezza esplode
Contro quei vetri al buio
Ma tale lietezza, che ti fa cantare in voce
È un ritorno dalla morte: e chi può mai ridere -
Dietro, sotto il riquadro del cielo annerito
Riapparizione ctonia!
Non scherzo: ché tu hai esperienza
Di un luogo che non ** mai esplorato,
UN VUOTO NEL COSMO
È vero che la mia terra è piccola
Ma ** sempre affabulato sui luoghi inesplorati
Con una certa lietezza, quasicché non fosse vero
Ma tu ci sei, qui, in voce
La luna è risorta;
le acque scorrono;
il mondo non sa di essere nuovo e la sua nuova giornata
finisce contro gli alti cornicioni e il nero del cielo
Chi c'è, in quel VUOTO DEL COSMO,
che tu porti nei tuoi desideri e conosci?
C'è il padre, sì, lui!
Tu credi che io lo conosca? Oh, come ti sbagli;
come ingenuamente dai per certo ciò che non lo è affatto;
fondi tutto il discorso, ripreso qui, cantando,
su questa presunzione che per te è umile
e non sai invece quanto sia superba
essa porta in sé i segni della volontà mortale della maggioranza -
L'occhio ilare di me mai disceso agli Inferi,
ombra infernale vagolante
nasconde
E tu ci caschi
Tu conosci di ciò che è realtà solo quell'Uomo Adulto
Ossia ciò che si deve conoscere;
lei, la Donna Adulta, stia all'Inferno
o nell'Ombra che precede la vita
e di là operi pure i suoi malefizi, i suoi incantesimi;
odiala, odiala, odiala;
e se tu canti e nessuno ti sente, sorridi
semplicemente perché, per ora, intanto, sei vittoriosa -
in voce come una giovane figlia avida
che però ha sperimentato dolcezza;
Parigi calca dietro alle tue spalle un cielo basso
Con la trama dei rami neri; ormai classici;
questa è la storia -
Tu sorridi al Padre -
Quella persona di cui non ** alcuna informazione,
che ** frequentato in un sogno che evidentemente non ricordo -
strano, è da quel mostro di autorità
che proviene anche la dolcezza
se non altro come rassegnazione e breve vittoria;
accidenti, come l'** ignorato; così ignorato da non saperne niente -
cosa fare?

Tu doni, spargi doni, hai bisogno di donare,
ma il tuo dono te l'ha dato Lui, come tutto;
ed è Nulla il dono di Nessuno;
io fingo di ricevere;
ti ringrazio, sinceramente grato;
Ma il debole sorriso sfuggente
non è di timidezza
è lo sgomento, più terribile, ben più terribile
di avere un corpo separato, nei regni dell'essere - se è una colpa
se non è che un incidente:
ma al posto dell'Altro
per me c'è un vuoto nel cosmo
un vuoto nel cosmo
e da là tu canti.
HED TRAMA Oct 2016
GOD BLESS AMERICA,
GOD BLESS THE NON EXISTENT CAUSE TO KEEP THE FREEDOM,
GOD BLESS THE WARS AND WHOEVER'S DECLARIN EM,
THE LIES AND THE ONES WHO BELIEVE EM,
GOD BLESS ****** AND ALL OF HIS REPLICAS,
THE POISON IN THE AIR AND THE ONES STILL BREATHIN,
GOD BLESS OUR LEADERS DISGUISED AS ANGELS,
AND GOD BLESS BLESS DEMONS,

GOD BLESS THE COLD AND THE HUNGRY,
THE ******* ASKIN FOR FORGIVNESS AND HIS PASTOR TOO,
GOD BLESS THE 10 WITH AN ABUNDANCE  OF MONEY,
THE POOR AND THE VENGEFUL,
CUZ WE'RE COMIN AFTER YOU!-

SO ******* TO THE GAME,
AND **** THE PRIZE,
WE CAN'T BE TAMED,
WE CAN'T BE CHAINED,
**** YOUR LIES!

******* TO THE THRONE,
AND **** THE SHEEP,
WE WON'T DO WHAT WE'RE TOLD,
THIS **** IS OLD,
WE'LL MAKE YOU BLEED!

******* TO THE *******,
AND **** WHO LISTENS,
Y'ALL CAN SHOVE IT,
BITE THE BULLET,
DESTROYIN THE SYSTEM!

******* TO THE PROUD,
AND **** THE LIARS,
WHO TOOK YOUR CROWN?
WHO BURNED YOU DOWN?
WE ARE THE FIRE!



HED TRAMA™
I turbini sollevano la polvere
sui tetti, a mulinelli, e sugli spiazzi
deserti, ove i cavalli incappucciati
annusano la terra, fermi innanzi
ai vetri luccicanti degli alberghi.
Sul corso, in faccia al mare, tu discendi
in questo giorno
or piovorno ora acceso, in cui par scatti
a sconvolgerne l'ore
uguali, strette in trama, un ritornello
di castagnette.
È il segno d'un'altra orbita: tu seguilo.
Discendi all'orizzonte che sovrasta
una tromba di piombo, alta sui gorghi,
più d'essi vagabonda: salso nembo
vorticante, soffiato dal ribelle
elemento alle nubi; fa che il passo
su la ghiaia ti scricchioli e t'inciampi
il viluppo dell'alghe: quell'istante
è forse, molto atteso, che ti scampi
dal finire il tuo viaggio, anello d'una
catena, immoto andare, oh troppo noto
delirio, Arsenio, d'immobilità...
Ascolta tra i palmizi il getto tremulo
dei violini, spento quando rotola
il tuono con un fremer di lamiera
percossa; la tempesta è dolce quando
sgorga bianca la stella di Canicola
nel cielo azzurro e lunge par la sera
ch'è prossima: se il fulmine la incide
dirama come un albero prezioso
entro la luce che s'arrosa: e il timpano
degli tzigani è il rombo silenzioso
Discendi in mezzo al buio che precipita
e muta il mezzogiorno in una notte
di globi accesi, dondolanti a riva, -
e fuori, dove un'ombra sola tiene
mare e cielo, dai gozzi sparsi palpita
l'acetilene -
finché goccia trepido
il cielo, fuma il suolo che t'abbevera,
tutto d'accanto ti sciaborda, sbattono
le tende molli, un fruscio immenso rade
la terra, giù s'afflosciano stridendo
le lanterne di carta sulle strade.
Così sperso tra i vimini e le stuoie
grondanti, giunco tu che le radici
con sé trascina, viscide, non mai
svelte, tremi di vita e ti protendi
a un vuoto risonante di lamenti
soffocati, la tesa ti ringhiotte
dell'onda antica che ti volge; e ancora
tutto che ti riprende, strada portico
mura specchi ti figge in una sola
ghiacciata moltitudine di morti,
e se un gesto ti sfiora, una parola
ti cade accanto, quello è forse, Arsenio,
nell'ora che si scioglie, il cenno d'una
vita strozzata per te sorta, e il vento
la porta con la cenere degli astri.
emily Oct 2022
I took my first breath
The moment my emotions bled into words.
All the trama I kept bottled up
Slowly became smaller than they once were.
Slowly healing from all the damage that I had breathed in
Every letter is a stitch that is sewing me up
but the scars still remain
Mente de caballos de carnaval, mente inparable siempre soñando de deseos inalcansables. Mundo de fantasia, mundo perfecto lo que siempre yo he pensado que es correcto. No hay preocupasiones porque no hay tiempo para ellas es una accion sin existencia. Para mi esto es mi ser muy despejado de la realidad pero vivo de el, reacciono differente tal vez muy creativo es complicado vivir en dos mundos y que uno sea elusivo. No prefiero el ireal aunque nadie me crea, siempre estoy en el espacio sin nave y sin esfuerzo. Pero esta mente no es un juego es dificil vivir en dos mundos cuando solo uno de ellos es importante. Pero en este carnaval no hay tal cosa como el descanso. Intento lo mejor pero mi mente me llama me atrae de diferentes maneras con las cosas que trama. Soluciones para problemas de una manera poca visible, y possibilidades de gran interes en mi vida constante. Yo lo decidi ase mucho en sacar tiempo para los dos sin el mundo elusivo no existiria "yo".
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
HATED BY MANY,
LOVED BY NONE,
THE VOICE OF A GOD,
I'M ONE WITH THE SUN,

TORCHIN THE LAND,
PYROCLASTIC ERUPTIONS,
LET THE EARTH BURN,
IN MY PATH OF DESTRUCTION,

NOTHIN BUT YOUR ASHES,
LEFT IN MY WAKE,
THIS FEELING, VOLCANIC,
I DANCE IN THE FLAMES,

WALKIN WITH PHANTOMS,
DESTROYIN YOUR GRACE,
THE BLOOD OF THE RANSOM,
WAS SPILLED IN MY NAME,

SOUL BLACKENED,
FROM THE SKY I WAS HURLED,
DOWN TO MY HELL,
THIS INFERNO, MY WORLD-





HED TRAMA™
I apologize
Baby I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Baby I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Holding on to your pain forever
I'm just holding on, holding on to your pain

I been holding on to this pain for such a long time, trying to outfight my demons put it to rest, had to get it off my chest ease this dreaded stress, first let me start off by stating I take full responsibility this is an apology, I know sorry can't fix everything but maybe it'll soothe your pain

Sitting here sniffing the pleasant stench of your favorite sweater, reminding me it makes no sense of how I treated you, your love was innocent so raw it's pure, I made you ashamed you got taken for granted caused you so much pain a strain on your heart, it's all my fault failed my part couldn't protect your heart it turned dark, decayed your love it's nonexistent for a new lover you spite men you hate me, sinister you plot vengeance a demon I created leaving you frustrated caused you to miscarriage you want me castrated cause of dying breed, you forgot how to love tormenting your heart to cover up the pain a demon I created attempted sucide your soul can't take it, Seems you survived respawned just to destroy to me trama that I created

I apologize for your pain these words are not confessed in vain, repeated karma my father did the same thing to mama warfare of generational curse trying to break the shackles can't drag this heavy chain no more my strength deteriorating,  emotional abuse I cause in the past is my irresonspility of love I rebuke it painful mistakes I made I apologize I am ashamed in due time I hope this poem ease your pain love is a learned lesson but still can't fix pain

I want you to forgive me for yourself
not for me, can't keep holding on
I want you to love again no suffering

I apologize
Baby I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Baby I’ve been trying, nothing seems to cover up the pain
I’ve been trying, holding on, holding on
Holding on to your pain forever
I'm just holding on, holding on to your pain
This poem is inspired by Phora "Holding On" and is dedicated to anyone who you may know who faced domestic violence as a victim, or is guilty as an abuser of such a crime. How do you apologize when the pain won't stop from the wrongs committed?
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
Come little tike,
I'll make you a man,
You're heart burns bright,
In this world so black,
The moon is full tonight,
Wearing its mask,
I'll show you its dark side,
Grab my hand,

There are things in this place,
You wouldn't believe,
Unkown to your race,
Secrets we keep,
We must make haste,
No time for sleep,
Walk in my grace,
I'll make you see,

You will know,
Your true reflection,
you will know,
how hot hell is,
The inferno,
The grand deception,
Black crows,
The angelic,

Come with me,
And keep real close,
I'll set you free,
I'll help you know,
It's truth you seek,
It's what you'll hold,
It's what you'll speak,
And you're who it chose-



HED TRAMA™
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
Dark skies black out the spectrum,
Infinite and broad in all directions,
My aura glows in its reflection,
Under the light of the moon,

My soul fleshless,
Free from the skin that clenched it,
Illuminated projection,
Amongst the brightness, died and consumed,

Burning vibrant like a fire for two,
My presence,
Rattles my soul's opposition,
Birthing death inside of the womb-



HED TRAMA™
Ricordi quand'eri saggina,
coi penduli grani che il vento
scoteva, come una manina
di ***** il sonaglio d'argento?
Cadeva la brina; la pioggia
cadeva: passavano uccelli
gemendo: tu gracile e roggia
tinnivi coi cento ramelli.
Ed oggi non più come ieri
tu senti la pioggia e la brina,
ma sgrigioli come quand'eri
saggina.
Restavi negletta nei solchi
quand'ogni pannocchia fu colta:
te, colsero, quando i bifolchi
v'ararono ancora una volta.
Un vecchio ti prese, recise,
legò; ti privò della bella
semenza tua rossa; e ti mise
nell'angolo, ad essere ancella.
E in casa tu resti, in un canto,
negletta qui come laggiù;
ma niuno è di casa pur quanto
sei tu.
Se t'odia colui che la trama
distende negli alti solai,
l'arguta gallina pur t'ama,
cui porti la preda che fai.
E t'ama anche senza, ché ai costi
ti sbalza, ed i grani t'invola,
residui del tempo che fosti
saggina, nei campi già sola.
Ma più, gracilando t'aspetta
con ciò che in tua vasta rapina
le strascichi dalla già netta
cucina.
Tu lasci che t'odiino, lasci
che t'amino: muta, il tuo giorno,
nell'angolo, resti, coi fasci
di stecchi che attendono il forno.
Nell'angolo il giorno tu resti,
pensosa del canto del gallo;
se al ***** tu già non ti presti,
che viene, e ti vuole cavallo.
Riporti, con lui che ti frena,
le paglie ch'hai tolte, e ben più;
e gioia or n'ha esso; ma pena
poi tu.
Sei l'umile ancella; ma reggi
la casa: tu sgridi a buon'ora,
mentre impaziente passeggi,
gl'ignavi che dormono ancora.
E quanto tu muovi dal canto,
la rondine è ancora nel nido;
e quando comincia il suo canto,
già ode per casa il tuo strido.
E l'alba il suo cielo rischiara,
ma prima lo spruzza e imperlina,
così come tu la tua cara
casina.
Sei l'umile ancella, ma regni
su l'umile casa pulita.
Minacci, rimproveri; insegni
ch'è bella, se pura, la vita.
Insegni, con l'acre tua cura
rodendo la pietra e la creta,
che sempre, per essere pura,
si logora l'anima lieta.
Insegni, tu sacra ad un rogo
non tardo, non bello, che più
di ciò che tu mondi, ti logori
tu!
No acaba aquí la historia.
Esto es sólo
una pequeña pausa para que descansemos.
La tensión es tan grande,
la emoción que desprende la trama es tan
intensa,
que todos,
bailarines y actores, acróbatas
y distinguido público,
agradecemos
la convencional tregua del entreacto,
y comprobamos
alegremente que todo era mentira,
mientras los músicos afinan sus violines.
Hasta ahora hemos visto
varias escenas rápidas que preludiaban muerte.
conocemos el rostro de ciertos personajes
y sabemos
algo que incluso muchos de ellos ignoran:
el móvil
de la traición y el nombre
de quien la hizo.
Nada definitivo ocurrió todavía,
pero
la desesperación está nítidamente
dibujada, y los intérpretes
intentan evitar el rigor del destino
poniendo
demasiado calor en sus exuberantes
ademanes, demasiado carmín en sus sonrisas
falsas,
con lo que -es evidente- disimulan
su cobardía, el terror
que dirige
sus movimientos en el escenario.
Aquellos
ineficaces y tortuosos diálogos
refiriéndose a ayer, a un tiempo
ido,
completan, sin embargo,
el panorama roto que tenemos
ante nosotros, y acaso
expliquen luego muchas cosas, sean
la clave que al final lo justifique
todo.
No olvidemos tampoco
las palabras de amor junto al estanque,
el gesto demudado, la violencia
con que alguien dijo:
                                  «no»,
                                            mirando al cielo,
y la sorpresa que produce
el torvo jardinero cuando anuncia:
«Llueve, señores,
llueve
todavía».
Pero tal vez sea pronto para hacer conjeturas:
dejemos
que la tramoya se prepare,
que los que han de morir recuperen su aliento,
y pensemos,
cuando el drama prosiga y el dolor
fingido
se vuelva verdadero en nuestros corazones,
que nada puede hacerse, que está próximo
el final que tememos de antemano,
que la aventura acabará, sin duda,
como debe acabar, como está escrito,
como es inevitable que suceda.
HED TRAMA Oct 2016
I'm the wind you feel on your skin,
The burn your feelin within,

The hate engulfing your heart,
The pain making its mark,

Sparkin a flame in your brain,
As you sit in the dark,

Makin its way to you,
CHANGE,
Or I'll rip you apart,

Tame it,
Quit complainin,
I'm stayin,

I'm the idea behind everything that you're sayin,

You think that you're free,
But you're mine,

I'm the evil inside deceiving your mind,

You keep thinking you're believing a lie,
But in time,
You'll see that I'll lead you to life,

Without me you'd be incomplete,
Face it,
It's meant to be,

Just take it,
And depend on me,

Everything you thought you knew,
Erase it,
And leave the rest to me,

Open the door to your mind and let me in,
You've been chosen to endure a new life you'll never comprehend,

So here we are,

I'm in your head,
And I'll be there until the end,

To whisper in your ear,
Grippin you with fear,
The shift in every gear,
The pain in every tear,

Your influence in movement,
Uninvited improvement,
To undermine you, intrudin',
To run inside you, confusin'

TO BE YOUR ****** EVERYTHING-

-

I'm stuck in a mental loop,
Drink blood from the devil's spoon,
Breathe but need drugs to help it soothe,
Feel the need to speak up,
But dont know who to tell it to,

Listenin to whispers while it slithers in your thoughts,
See me pourin rivers cuz he hits you when he talks,

So here we are,
You're in my thoughts,
On and on it goes and never stops,

Blossomed like a rose,
And birthed from death,
Crawled on burning coals,
It hurts to sweat,

I'm caught in an endless fight,
Take my life in the breathless night,
Maybe I should repent this time,
Before I go completely blind,

Is it life or is it death?
Is there light in eternal rest?
All these questions feed my head,
Will I ever sleep again?

Why the **** do I need a test?
Life's just better when we pretend,
Cuz when it's not what it is,
Maybe I can deal with this ****** ****,

It hurts to think,
These are more than just words to me,
Maybe we can learn through dreams,
And define the true feeling of what burning means,

You make death so appealing,
But then again it depends on the feeling,

Make me believe that this place is worth it,
So that I can fulfill my painful purpose,

YOU CAN NEVER KNOW TO MUCH-

So whats it gonna be?
COME WITH ME,
I'll make you what you want to be,
But nothins free,
You'll have to pay,
Lets make a trade,
I'll make it all
Go away-**



HED TRAMA™
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
Lonely nights,
Cold moon's light,
No sunshine,
No woman of mine,

No neck to bite,
No breast to grip,
No flesh tonight,
No leg to lick,

I long for the scent of honey,
Wet, warm on my face,
Lingering kisses on your tummy,
Prickled skin where I've traced,

A room full of soft moans,
Whimpers of need,
My slave shackled in lust's hold,
Your nectar I drink,

Cradling a limp body,
As we become one,
Squeezing me softly,
As you ***,

Filling my senses,
That liquid aroma,
Leaving you breathless,
As I go slower,

But again it was cut short,
Just a flash in my mind,
The image adored,
But still,

No woman of mine-



Nothing but an empty void,
In this life forsaken,
Everything touched was destroyed,
Another soul taken,

Liquor fueled hate,
That nothing will numb,
I would **** to change,
What the **** I've become,

Somethin to fill the space,
In this nightmare I live in,
All the blood spilled on this page,
Couldn't tame the ****** I live with,

Just me and my brain,
Going through familiar motions,
It's turned me insane,
Getting harder to focus,

Til the image has faded,
Once again back on earth,
I guess it aint hate, just,
Painful hurt-




HED TRAMA™
Resuena en tus palabras
un difuso clamor de verdades oscuras,
cuando me las encuentro.
                                                              Rompen
en mi memoria, siempre
sonoras, firmes, claras,
como las olas de un mar poderoso
que sumerge y levanta,
sin devolver ni arrebatar nunca del todo,
una realidad turbia y mutilada:
el tiempo, el tiempo ido.
                                                                A su conjuro,
entre gotas de sal y luz de agua,
con el tiempo
yo mismo,
restos recuperados de mí mismo
vuelven y configuran un fantasma
que dibuja en el aire el viejo gesto
-casi olvidado ya- de la esperanza.

No todo se ha perdido;
                                                        vienen
a mi memoria siempre tus palabras
-claras, firmes, sonoras-
trayéndola, llevándola.Una voz era paz, o luz, o acaso
era fuego esa voz; todavía llama.
O era viento tal vez: ved la alta rama
del olmo aún temblorosa tras su paso.

Era roja esa voz en el ocaso;
cuando la noche sus horrores trama,
vuelve su resplandor: sangre que clama
al cielo ese de los hombres, raso.

Impaciente de paz, y luminosa,
ardiente, airada, entera y verdadera,
era dura esa voz: todavía dura

airosa y alta, como si tal cosa
-alzarse en estos tiempos- nada fuera.
Admirad, ya hecha estatua, su estatura.
Al golpe de la ola contra la piedra indócil
la claridad estalla y establece su rosa
y el círculo del mar se reduce a un racimo,
a una sola gota de sal azul que cae.

Oh radiante magnolia desatada en la espuma,
magnética viajera cuya muerte florece
y eternamente vuelve a ser y a no ser nada:
sal rota, deslumbrante movimiento marino.

Juntos tú y yo, amor mío, sellamos el silencio,
mientras destruye el mar sus constantes estatuas
y derrumba sus torres de arrebato y blancura,

porque en la trama de estos tejidos invisibles
del agua desbocada, de la incesante arena,
sostenemos la única y acosada ternura.
Todo el mundo era pobre en aquel tiempo,
todos entretejían
sin saberlo
-a veces sonreían-
los hilos de tristeza
que formaba la trama de la vida
(inconsistente tela, pero
qué estambre terco, la esperanza).
Unas hebras
de amor doraban
un extremo de aquel tapiz sombrío
en el que yo era un niño que corría
no sé de qué o hacia dónde,
tal vez hacia el espacio luminoso
que urdían incansables
las obstinadas manos amorosas.

Nunca llegué a esa luz.
Cuando iba a alcanzarla,
el tiempo, más veloz,
ya la había apagado con su pátina.
Spt Jun 2014
Ignoring you is almost impossible
Like looking in your eyes
Every time troops of hazel walk by
As if your world has me under attack
Possible, but I lack the idea
As you surly have
Marching cross more lines than I
On your way up
You'll be crossing more than that
Would you prefer the white flag
I'd surrender under your comfort
When taking my heart in thought
As you are to me
Dear
More than you know
Thundering the ground
One step at a time
All for ours, yours and mine
With you're very own soul
Don't let go
As in unison
Sleeve by sleeve
young ones, by one by one
By one
All marching on
Where respect is due
One hundred million men
Joined in arms with sisters stand
Behind the men who have been
A wrinkle in time, marching on
Shown it's years of trama
In lines through those
As through the years of training
sharing what he knows
In hopes
His children come home
Feeling the fear as they walk on
Knowing the times to come
When they too
may soon stand alone
And deeper those thoughts
Of our children coming home
As the weight of our nations fear
Rest like bars of iron and hope
On the wings of broken angels
Knowing yet what they do not know
As shown his face of stone
In the heart of flesh
As a father to those
Known soon the days will come
A departure
The Great Unknown
In silent tears he whispers
"Carry on"
In his years of sending
Yet receiving those coming home
Whole, lost, and draped in stars
Where the others will bough
To stand tall and salute under god
With hands joined
Over their hearts
For those going home
to the sound
All too well known
One trumpet play lone
Taps
Lay behind a face of stone
A sergeant all to well know
Beating a heart within his flesh
The angel in broken wings stand
In silence
As tears under his breath whisper
"Carry on" my child "carry on"
I'm the name of freedom
"Carry on"
Ran into some troops at Micky D's
Thought about this as they were so young there arm said Conroe
Your being used by subliminal clues
The media leaves you
Lost and confused bemused
By topics using our labor for profits
Government been aware
Straight truths no dare as i stare
Down into the valley of darkness
Killed off the old me but theres no carcass mark this
The day and age turned the spiritual page
What i saw my soul got enraged and engaged
Into a mental state of mind
That the average couldn't understand
If i told them mines
Dreams im speaking on
Everybody around me a mime
Silenced brains make for an easy drain
Got pharmaceutical drugs
Pushing legal *******
To the grain
But dont want ya smoking marijuana
But if i smoke marijuana
Then im a gonna
Loading penitentiaries to profit fat greedy wealthy
Elitist im sick of this
World we living since the first planted sin
In the garden Of Eden
Who do you believe in?
Is it Christ Horus Allah or Buddhas teaching
While they got books placed
For you read in if you in
To the problems that arise
Youll see the got us hypnotize
By the idiot box droppin' everyday
Delays say we on our way
Up but its going reverse
**** the curse the struggles getting worse
Sooon jobs well be in a hearse
And replace by robots
Industrialism was really meant to be a prison sharpen your visions
Maybe you can see the decisions
Made by the whitehouse
Pushing us closer to rfids if you don't believe me?
Check all over ya cars is chipped
Debit to credit cards chipped
Animals chipped electronic devices chipped
Now they trying to get us chipped
Fools tryna play God end up on the side against all Odds
Play the game carefully yea
Its like moves of chess or monopoly
Taking all properties
How is there is price on earth
When everything in the open is free
But then came along man
Yeah i mean demi god fallen angles
Giving mankind jingles and dangle
With unknown spirit cuz they fear it
Ignorin' instincts causin' trama to grow
But rather follow cash rolls
Only to take bad toll
Down the valley of deathrows
Add the bottom of the abyss
It aint no shadows just demons that flow
And go in and out ya temple
Mankind soo simple
Thinking they better then universe
But nature always wins just check rhe curse
God showing creations like roses sprouting up out of cracked concretes
Lets me know humans already in defeat
And build over just fr it to happen again
We waged with sin soon to end
Cant wait til the world crumbles
Watching how many spirits tumble
And become humble
Beg for redemption
But God will reject your soul aint no exemptions
Whooaaa
You ever feel like the world is crashing upon you
I surely do. It seems like I can't do anything right,
Say the right words to make things okay.
It seems like everywhere I go people aren't kind
They have their own agendas and they want to
**** any happiness I have and make me feel
Miserable likes they do. Well, **** that! They
All can eat **** and die! They ain't taking away
What I have worked o for seven months being
Clean and sober, not an ounce of alcohol or any
Drug. I'm taking classes to learn about myself
And the way I tick, most my problems come from
Past trama. So much anger built up inside of
Me from being molested when I was eight. It only
Happened once, a lot of people have deals with it
For years but it still happened nevertheless and
Really ****** with my head. The person who did
It was a family member and he is now a minister
Go ******* figure. Now that diffently ***** with
My head when it comes to religion and someone
Talking about God. But where I'm at right at the
Present time is a place I was pushed to. My
Girlfriend wouldn't give up her mom and move
Her to some place where she could get the help
Needed. She chose her over me, for two months
I kept telling her that if she doesn't choose I was
Going to move out. Well, needless to say she didn't
Quite choose anything but even not choosing is a
Decision. So I moved out and she can have her mom
The bad part about it is me and my girlfriend have
A daughter together. I tried every means to fix what
Was broken but my girlfriend just thought everything
Was fine. So I made the choice to move to clear my
Head. Though I miss my daughter tremendously.
I wish life was simple and everything could go my
Way but that ain't life and I'm not God. Now since
Moving here I have neighbors upstairs who are so
Loud it's affecting my serenity. Now I have to move
Out and find a better place where this **** doesn't
Happen. So here I am life, take me as I am cause
Apparently you want to **** with me.
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
What a twist of fate,
Hindered, insane,
A look through my eyes would make you cringe from the pain,

I'm destined to hate,
Blistered, ablaze,
Feel so sick I'd rip the skin off my face,

More pressure to take,
Pleasure in pain,
Carrying more weight to the entrance of the heavenly gate,

My progression is strained,
Confessions, I've prayed,
Jehovah himself couldn't get rid of the rain,

Forever I'm blamed,
Distant, and chained,
Faith tested on another neglected saint,

My reflection, I've changed,
The Devil's my name,
I knew when I heard her voice I'd be never the same-


HED TRAMA™
HED TRAMA Jan 2017
This love got my gut clenched,
But I couldnt want nothin less,



**** feels so good like ecstasy in the soul,
Constantly burnin like Destiny in the coals,
You're love melts the ice in the mold,
And Severed what froze,
Every time I look in your eyes I feel that **** grow,
Taking me further down this new road,
Every step through the stones I feel the warmth,
The Permanent glow,
Cradling my flesh Till it hurts but I know,
That everything less is just burnt to the bone,
You're my everything,
im just lettin you know,
You must be heaven sent,
Cuz There's no Words to express what Im unable to show,

How can I prove my worth to such beauty unknown to this earth?
Why can't I just lose myself in your purity and fall below the mud and the dirt?

This is beyond rhyme and just word,
I fell in love blind,
Lost my mind,
Now I won't stop until im laid in a hearse,
Until you know that My soul
Was made for yours,

I love you till death and beyond its embrace,
Until our flesh is old and Im dead,
Decayed next to your grave,

I want it etched in the headstone,
Carved in the rock so everyone knows,
That our soul's bond lives beyond the death throws,
Into the next home-*


HED TRAMA
Tiara I S Jun 2019
Black ink seaps from my pores- oily and tainted of hatred
My body has no place for anger or hatred or jealousy
So out it spews- from my skin- my lips- spit drenched lips
Spitting up feverish complaints of disgust
Yet they say your poisons are your own to consume
To take- to swallow- to abuse yourself with
Trama ringing as tinnitus in the stillest nights
Dripping from my skin oil pools as I wade through pain
Forcing it all out and drowning in it all the same
Darkness floods my brain- sludge swarming
Black pouring from white out- all sclera eyes rolled back
Begging to wield this pain against another- any monster
No human to be harmed by the inky tendrils that encapsulate me
Sensitivity thinning the toxins out- they pour from my pores
Fingers leaving trails along walls as I sit in a shower to leak out
Ring out to dry- only to refill with more doses of abuse the next day
...still off my antidepressants and back to being wayyyy too ******* sensitive, anxious, and mostly depressedddd. Its absolutely fantastic.
HED TRAMA Sep 2016
Between dark and light I stand,
Hand in hand with the walking dead,
Hanging on by threads I call my will,
Time stands still in nowhere,
The air is motionless in this empty place,
Shackled by the chains of doubt and negativity,
Pain is the remedy, defining the positive,
The bomb, it ticks at the starting line,
The right time to find a new beginning,
Witnessing, two worlds come together,
The old is severed, the new controlled,
One mind, two souls, walking the planet,
Amongst the rats and the parasites,
I climb to new heights of understanding,
Fathoming, new levels of power and strength,
The definition is made, although I am as one,
With the stars and the sun, the planet and moon,
But still I pursue, my thirst never quenched,
To heighten my sense, and sharpen my tongue,
Live by the gun, exposing what's kept,
Resurrect, the hope that died in millions-



HED TRAMA™
Comment and let me know what you think...I'm looking for loyal friends that I can connect with...I'll return the favor
Symbolic Beauty Mar 2018
When does it stop...
When does it get easier...
The constant cycle of doing the same thing over and over again but in different ways... only to be fooled by results that aren't so different...

Maybe you are loosing all sense of time...

The constant battle of believing what your heart tells you is right or what your head tells you is wrong...

So much confusion...

When does the hurting stop...
When will you be kinder to yourself

You cut away at each part of your being hoping to replace what's left with someone different... someone new... something new...

It's almost like your life is a movie on fast forward and you are standing still
Walking in slow motion watching with this emptiness deep in the pit of your soul...
You yell and scream but no one hears...

You fight the noise inside your head to try and get one moment of clarity... One moment of peace but you are drowning in a sea of trama, lies, and deceit

You can't even trust yourself with your thoughts
What have you been telling... whispering so many fairytales to yourself
Which ones do you believe...

Numbness is all you feel while you stand still because feeling would mean more pain... more hurt...

So as you chip away at the shell of a person you use to be remember that all you really have left is yourself and the fear of just being...

Me, Myself, and I
My mind is a scary place... one should not be left alone with my thoughts...
HappyHappyHappy Mar 2017
My fingers type the same topic over and over.

Because it hurts.

It hurts that I can't tell.
It hurts that I am weak and foolish.
It hurts that no one cares.

It hurts that I know it's wrong.
It hurts that I think it will go away
It hurts that what I'm doing I'm wrong.

But I keep on doing it.

I know that the more I love the more pain I will gain.
At the end, it will be me with sorrow.

I'm scared that she won't miss me.
I'm scared that she dislikes me.
I am foolish.

I am weak.

I am tired.

Of this.

Repeating the same trama.

Over and over.

I want to end this.

I an too tired.
I'm tired.
Del follaje erizado
caíste
completa,
de madera pulida,
de lúcida caoba,
lista
como un violín que acaba
de nacer en la altura,
y cae
ofreciendo sus dones encerrados,
su escondida dulzura,
terminada en secreto
entre pájaros y hojas,
escuela de la forma,
linaje de la leña y de la harina,
instrumento ovalado
que guarda en su estructura
delicia intacta y rosa comestible.
En lo alto abandonaste
el erizado erizo
que entreabrió sus espinas
en la luz del castaño,
por esa partidura
viste el mundo,
pájaros
llenos de sílabas,
rocío
con estrellas,
y abajo
cabezas de muchachos
y muchachas,
hierbas que tiemblan sin reposo,
humo que sube y sube.
Te decidiste,
castaña,
y saltaste a la tierra,
bruñida y preparada,
endurecida y suave
como un pequeño seno
de las islas de América.
Caíste
golpeando
el suelo
pero
nada pasó,
la hierba
siguió temblando, el viejo
castaño susurró como las bocas
de toda una arboleda,
cayó una hoja del otoño rojo,
firme siguieron trabajando
las horas en la tierra.
Porque eres
sólo
una semilla,
castaño, otoño, tierra,
agua, altura, silencio
prepararon el germen,
la harinosa espesura,
los párpados maternos
que abrirán, enterrados,
de nuevo hacia la altura
la magnitud sencilla
de un follaje,
la oscura trama húmeda
de unas nuevas raíces,
las antiguas y nuevas dimensiones
de otro castaño en la tierra.
Vladimir s Krebs Jul 2017
I lay in the most of my thoughts with the feeling of regret for my past forced into a young teen straight into a soldier with anger spilling out . The most of this is the flashback to the trama that broken me leeaven my body broken wounded.


I have nothing left to lose when the evil side comes out .


Seeing death watching as the world turn I to a ****** mess .

I have been broke. And tricked into fighting the broken and the last fear.

Nothingscares me anymore there's nothing left in my path fromthedistruction left by the demons them selves
Lost can't think writers block
Delyla Nunez Feb 2021
I will never understand how you can break someone who loved you.
Just loved you when nobody else believed in you.
Changed myself for you, lost my morals for you.
Stopped caring about me and my trama to hold onto yours for you.

I wonder what you truly think about at night.
Do you wonder how much it cost you?
Was I ever really worth it?
Do you understand how much I’m hurting?

You shattered what was left of me.
Anything I had left to offer was taken almost three years ago and you broke what was left.
Someone you said you loved, and you showed angst towards me.

My heart yearns for you still.
Your scent is trapped in memory.
I wouldn’t come back, I couldn’t.
You broke me and took everything with you.
I haven’t cried this much since he passed. You couldn’t understand how much this hurts.
I thought I could handle it
He didn't touch me that much
It was just one touch
And nothing more

But I didn't relize the anxiety I would have driving back
I didn't know the pain I would have
Standing in the same spot where it happened
I didn't think I was so good
At pretendeding I was ok

Until I started to break
The tears falling down my face
My legs shaking uncomfortably
My chest tightening

I struggled to breath
To remain calm
When I lost control of my body
And all thought was of the past

The past as a child
When it first happened
The past of a teenager
When it happened again, but worse
The past of a adult
Who just wanted to feel loved

I thought I was doing good
But maybe I lied to myself
And just got good
At bottling it up inside

— The End —