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"sandpit" poems
These are the hard times, the long stretch of coal-shed days, the corrugated nights of the antinomian. I retch at the old doubts and the panoply of dustbins clattering bright, their watchers simian in the morning **** I dress as though dredging up greys, monotone deep in the GB tradition: now sandpit tea with oil stain floats silt dreads the mass of a seven year clay. Four weeks of shadows drown wind in a storm. And dreams of my cottage in days of such calm and late summer happiness as brought cut corn and strawbs and horse manure in hugs until like Zulu tribesmen the birds appeared. Hunched with expectation Spears smiling like baddies they rushed me. I woke pouring sweat like a workhorse the weakest of defences laid up my face pulling cellophane over French windows.
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Feb 6, 2012
Feb 6, 2012 at 2:07 PM UTC
February, from which there is no escape
Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst Are you gonna drop the bomb or not? Let us die young or let us live forever We don't have the power, but we never say never Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip The music's for the sad man Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? So we livin' life like a video where the sun is always out And you never get old and the champagne's always cold And the music's always good And the pretty girls just happen to stop by in the hood And they hop their pretty *** up on the hood of that pretty *** car Without a wrinkle in today 'cause there's no tomorr' Just a picture perfect day that lasts a whole lifetime And it never ends 'cause all we have to do is hit rewind So let's just stay in the moment, smoke some **** drink some wine Reminisce, talk some **** forever young is in your mind Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time So when the director yells "cut," I'll be fine, I'm forever young Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? Fear not when, fear not why, fear not much while we're alive Life is for living, not living uptight, see ya somewhere up in the sky Fear not die, I'll be alive for a million years Bye-byes are not for legends, I'm forever young, my name shall survive Through the darkest blocks, over kitchen stoves, over Pyrex pots My name shall be passed down to generations While debating up in barber shops Young Slung hung here, Shorty, the ***** from here With a little ambition, just what we can become here And as the father passed his story down to his son's ears Younger kid, younger every year, yeah So if you love me, baby, this is how you let me know Don't ever let me go, that's how you let me know, baby Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? Slamming Bentley doors, hopping out of Porsches Popping up on Forbes lists, gorgeous Hold up, ****** thought I lost it, they be talking ******** I be talking more **** they nauseous Hold up, I'll be here forever you know I'm on my fall **** And I ain't waiting for closure, I will never forfeit less than four bars Guru bring the chorus in, did you get the picture yet? I'm painting you a portrait of young Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever young?
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Jan 20, 2013
Jan 20, 2013 at 11:43 PM UTC
Young Forever
Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst Are you gonna drop the bomb or not? Let us die young or let us live forever We don't have the power, but we never say never Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip The music's for the sad man Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? So we livin' life like a video where the sun is always out And you never get old and the champagne's always cold And the music's always good And the pretty girls just happen to stop by in the hood And they hop their pretty *** up on the hood of that pretty *** car Without a wrinkle in today 'cause there's no tomorr' Just a picture perfect day that lasts a whole lifetime And it never ends 'cause all we have to do is hit rewind So let's just stay in the moment, smoke some **** drink some wine Reminisce, talk some **** forever young is in your mind Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time So when the director yells "cut," I'll be fine, I'm forever young Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? Fear not when, fear not why, fear not much while we're alive Life is for living, not living uptight, see ya somewhere up in the sky Fear not die, I'll be alive for a million years Bye-byes are not for legends, I'm forever young, my name shall survive Through the darkest blocks, over kitchen stoves, over Pyrex pots My name shall be passed down to generations While debating up in barber shops Young Slung hung here, Shorty, the ***** from here With a little ambition, just what we can become here And as the father passed his story down to his son's ears Younger kid, younger every year, yeah So if you love me, baby, this is how you let me know Don't ever let me go, that's how you let me know, baby Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever? Slamming Bentley doors, hopping out of Porsches Popping up on Forbes lists, gorgeous Hold up, ****** thought I lost it, they be talking ******** I be talking more **** they nauseous Hold up, I'll be here forever you know I'm on my fall **** And I ain't waiting for closure, I will never forfeit less than four bars Guru bring the chorus in, did you get the picture yet? I'm painting you a portrait of young Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I wanna be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever young?
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Alyra, remember that day? That day at the park? You were three, and I was eleven. We went to the park with Daddy, Mummy, Molly, Arielle, Ella, Erin, and Pete. Remember? You played on the playground with Ella and Arielle. While Erin was teaching me to play basketball. It was around August, so not too hot. After we ate lunch, the big kids played touch footy while you went to the sandpit. At the end is the day, when everyone was talking, you presented me with a big bunch of dandelions. I told you and the girls to collect some more and I'll make jewelry with them? You would take off that silly neckless for hours until it broke. Then, I plaited flowers through your hair. You looked even more beautiful then you already are. Just before sunset we danced and danced and danced. That was the day you taught me 'Doggy Doggy'. We watched the sunset - all of us. You were sitting on my lap telling me about your day at kindy the day before. Alyra, baby girl, try and remember. Because one day, you won't be a baby girl anymore. You'll just have memories. That is why I hang on to them so hard. Because I never want to forget. And I never will. Not when it comes to you.
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Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 3:48 AM UTC
Remember?
I am just a toddler in the sandpit of time I shimmer slightly in the night and sometimes sparks fly I am a mono clastic fire so hurting with desire that I will never fulfill So as the sound of drums beating begins I stand back on my feet spread my wings liken to a phoenix to do it all again Been broken but always seem to repair myself just a toddler in the sandpit of time Bu Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
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May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 8:21 AM UTC
A Toddler In The Sandpit Of Time
I cuddled upon it since birth, It was the friend that kept me Calm, Peaceful, Friend Of my sleepy times, always there, But I awoke and Blanky wasn't there "MUMMY" "DADDY" As both ran in, "What is it our little one" Tears streaming, words jumbled in emotions Mummy stroked my hair Daddy Sshhh.... Sshhh... Sshhh... Sshhh... And all was calm in the world, B, B, "Blanky" Has gone away, Mummy soft spoken voice speaks "Lets check your bed" No not there? ***** trained detective looks around"** Sniffs the air, Sorry mummy that was me, Mmm... to the playroom High,  Low Here,  there Places searched but no where found, His thoughts of blanky and sweet sleep, As he searches each room, doggy sniffs Come on Hairy, He checks his bed nothing but hair, His baby mind thinks back to the other day Blanky and me, Me and Blanky, To the garden Woof, little fingers can not reach Woofs hind legs stretch up, "Good boy Woof" As the door opens to The great outside, Near the sandpit "No" Near the grass "Neither" Then he spots it Then its seen, "Blanky I have missed you" Hanging just out of reach, "Detective work is never as easy as it seems" A baby has skills, as he takes his ***** Sticky patches take hold and on top Of a head, smelling fresh, Not that just thumb ****** sleepy smell But we can change that, Blanky wrapped around ***** dragging  behind, a  new one needed I think, "Mummy" "Daddy" "Its solved" The missing blanky case is solved It was washed, ***** it was once, But so soft and cuddly once more, It needs that just slept smell, A detective is off to get snuggles sleep Till the next case awaits, till I awaken Its sheep time for me, goodnight or day everyone sweet dreams.
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Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 2:27 PM UTC
***** Trained Detective ( The Missing Blanky)
I cuddled upon it since birth, It was the friend that kept me Calm, Peaceful, Friend Of my sleepy times, always there, But I awoke and Blanky wasn't there "MUMMY" "DADDY" As both ran in, "What is it our little one" Tears streaming, words jumbled in emotions Mummy stroked my hair Daddy Sshhh.... Sshhh... Sshhh... Sshhh... And all was calm in the world, B, B, "Blanky" Has gone away, Mummy soft spoken voice speaks "Lets check your bed" No not there? ***** trained detective looks around"** Sniffs the air, Sorry mummy that was me, Mmm... to the playroom High,  Low Here,  there Places searched but no where found, His thoughts of blanky and sweet sleep, As he searches each room, doggy sniffs Come on Hairy, He checks his bed nothing but hair, His baby mind thinks back to the other day Blanky and me, Me and Blanky, To the garden Woof, little fingers can not reach Woofs hind legs stretch up, "Good boy Woof" As the door opens to The great outside, Near the sandpit "No" Near the grass "Neither" Then he spots it Then its seen, "Blanky I have missed you" Hanging just out of reach, "Detective work is never as easy as it seems" A baby has skills, as he takes his ***** Sticky patches take hold and on top Of a head, smelling fresh, Not that just thumb ****** sleepy smell But we can change that, Blanky wrapped around ***** dragging  behind, a  new one needed I think, "Mummy" "Daddy" "Its solved" The missing blanky case is solved It was washed, ***** it was once, But so soft and cuddly once more, It needs that just slept smell, A detective is off to get snuggles sleep Till the next case awaits, till I awaken Its sheep time for me, goodnight or day everyone sweet dreams.
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ETERNITY IN A GRAIN OF SAND She takes an old broken cracked conch shell a dried up Corsican starfish sand from her backyard sandpit(slightly damp) dumps them all on her nice clean new sheets. “I’m bringing the seaside to bed! ” she announces her creation (like a little God) . Hours later I peeped in to find her asleep by her seaside Dreaming it...for real. I tuck her & her seaside up gently against the coming cold tiptoe away trying not wake either.
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Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 5:49 PM UTC
ETERNITY IN A GRAIN OF SAND
**** all the children get a chance at the sandpit... only the dog collared ones attempting wrestling matches of biceps tonguing rhetoric touring waggle get the pulpit... kinda **** if you ask me: said sir sacrifice-a-lot when sir lancelot married; but all the **** happened after the ukrainian ***** it was the russian bourgeoise one... you forget you dim-witted bolshevik... the russian one... the russian one! not the ukrainian one! ah crap... too late, the crimson lunar eclipse from edinburgh to st. petersburg gave me mythological charisma; endeavour of the readers who can’t remember my tourism earning the year 2007 as distinct: i can earn an awareness of lying about the jealousy i have for the century of being a musketeer defending louis vix; ja athos! ein athos! i’m athos.... wrinkly & masturbated ******** toss! hey ** hey ** we dig dig dig dig dig, it's what we like to do... coal mine.... coal mine... coal mine... with a millionth diamond... we dig dig dig dig dig... hej ** do lasu by sie szło... high ** high ** unto abreit macht frei we go.
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Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
Athos gada (tzn. mówi)
You said you had a bucket list I laughed and smiled I pictured an orange one at your side A yellow one for posh days. A red one today ! A Silly thought now it won't go away. I have written for years under a pen name Something just seeds me to write now and then It then kind of struck me that it's not quite as mad As when where children a bucket we had! From sandpit to garden and beach holiday It went with us always as well a ***** So send me a picture, from each of you trips With you beautiful smile and your bucket In it!
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Feb 13, 2013
Feb 13, 2013 at 5:17 AM UTC
A bucket for a Valentine
Ingrid climbed over the metal fence by Banks House and onto the grass her mother's shouting in her ears her father's hand fresh upon the flesh of her thigh stinging the early morning sun came over the flats nearby the grey clouds promising rain she climbed over another metal fence and crossed over into Jail park to ride the swings or slide or just sit by the sandpit and muse and wait Benedict would come soon or so he said the night before as he walked her to her door hearing her parents rowing the park was almost deserted a few kids in the sandpit one on the slide she sat on one of the swings and pushed off from the ground her thigh stinging as she moved away reaching for the sky her feet in the air trying to get there she leaned forward then back to get herself higher pushing herself up and up feeling the air in her face in her hair thinking of how her sister got away with things but she did not she was punished for little things while she could stay out late or come home drunk and back chat and lie but she had only to make a mistake or say a wrong word or look the wrong way and it was slap or whack as it was today her feet reached up her black battered shoes seemingly touching the sky she looked around on the ground at the trees or kids feeling free to think and breathe and be but still no Benedict in sight no sign of him since last night she missed him and needed him today someone to listen to what had happened to her today she slowed down the swing put her feet as brakes to come to a halt and sit and stare then she heard his voice Benedict had come cowboy hat and jeans and 6 shooter gun and that broad smile and he sat on a swing beside her and she told him about the morning and the slap and thump and whack he listened and saddened and took her hand and said let's go find our horses and ride to the place that cowboys go in that far away land and she nodded and said we can have a cabin with curtains and a wooden bed and table and chairs and land to have as far as the eye could see sure he said where ever we are your parents won't be.
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Oct 23, 2013
Oct 23, 2013 at 4:47 AM UTC
HER PARENTS WON'T BE.
Ingrid climbed over the metal fence by Banks House and onto the grass her mother's shouting in her ears her father's hand fresh upon the flesh of her thigh stinging the early morning sun came over the flats nearby the grey clouds promising rain she climbed over another metal fence and crossed over into Jail park to ride the swings or slide or just sit by the sandpit and muse and wait Benedict would come soon or so he said the night before as he walked her to her door hearing her parents rowing the park was almost deserted a few kids in the sandpit one on the slide she sat on one of the swings and pushed off from the ground her thigh stinging as she moved away reaching for the sky her feet in the air trying to get there she leaned forward then back to get herself higher pushing herself up and up feeling the air in her face in her hair thinking of how her sister got away with things but she did not she was punished for little things while she could stay out late or come home drunk and back chat and lie but she had only to make a mistake or say a wrong word or look the wrong way and it was slap or whack as it was today her feet reached up her black battered shoes seemingly touching the sky she looked around on the ground at the trees or kids feeling free to think and breathe and be but still no Benedict in sight no sign of him since last night she missed him and needed him today someone to listen to what had happened to her today she slowed down the swing put her feet as brakes to come to a halt and sit and stare then she heard his voice Benedict had come cowboy hat and jeans and 6 shooter gun and that broad smile and he sat on a swing beside her and she told him about the morning and the slap and thump and whack he listened and saddened and took her hand and said let's go find our horses and ride to the place that cowboys go in that far away land and she nodded and said we can have a cabin with curtains and a wooden bed and table and chairs and land to have as far as the eye could see sure he said where ever we are your parents won't be.
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Reach for the sky Ingrid said as you and she swung on the swings in Jail Park your feet pointed skyward your hands gripping the metal linked rings the wooden seat beneath you and the sky was a fine summery blue clouds were white as engine puffed smoke and you said my old man nicked money from my blue money box I never saw him I just heard him early this morning with the rattling as he used a knife to eject the coins Ingrid gaped at you as she swung beside you how much did you have in there? she asked couple of quid I expect you said now it's lighter and rattles emptier why did he do that? she asked you pushed your feet higher and bent forward on the swing's chains and up you went reaching for the sun he needed it for a packet of cigarettes I guess you said but that's thieving she said he'd say it was liberating coins for a purpose of need you smiled has a way with words if not much else you said you studied Ingrid as she swung at your side her black scuffed shoes the grey once white socks the sleeveless stained flowery dress which came to the knees her dark hair pinned back with the metal grips her thin wired spectacles with her large eyes staring at you if I'm ever given money she said for birthday or whatever my dad takes it and says I've been too bad to have it once he almost broke my fingers open to take coins I was gripping you tut-tutted and looked away as you rose higher the trees of the park and bushes seemed miles beneath you and the other kids on the see-saws and ropes and sandpit or on the tall metal slide seemed so small and you remembered the time Ingrid fell off the ropes and grazed her knees and you helped her up and helped her hobble to the first-aid room near the toilets and the stern middle aged woman in charge there helped her into the room and sat her on a chair and you stood there staring made a mess of these knees ain't you deary the woman said best get you cleaned up and she used cotton wool and some purple smelly stuff to clean away the stones and dirt and blood and as she lifted the leg she saw a blue green bruise on Ingrid's thigh you have been in the wars the woman said with a shake of her blonde haired head not wars you thought her old man's belt more like but never said and Ingrid cried still her face red the woman's plump pink fingers cleaning the knees the blood seeping through the cotton wool and you just standing there giving it your concerned and boyish stare.
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Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 2:28 AM UTC
REACH FOR THE SKY.
Reach for the sky Ingrid said as you and she swung on the swings in Jail Park your feet pointed skyward your hands gripping the metal linked rings the wooden seat beneath you and the sky was a fine summery blue clouds were white as engine puffed smoke and you said my old man nicked money from my blue money box I never saw him I just heard him early this morning with the rattling as he used a knife to eject the coins Ingrid gaped at you as she swung beside you how much did you have in there? she asked couple of quid I expect you said now it's lighter and rattles emptier why did he do that? she asked you pushed your feet higher and bent forward on the swing's chains and up you went reaching for the sun he needed it for a packet of cigarettes I guess you said but that's thieving she said he'd say it was liberating coins for a purpose of need you smiled has a way with words if not much else you said you studied Ingrid as she swung at your side her black scuffed shoes the grey once white socks the sleeveless stained flowery dress which came to the knees her dark hair pinned back with the metal grips her thin wired spectacles with her large eyes staring at you if I'm ever given money she said for birthday or whatever my dad takes it and says I've been too bad to have it once he almost broke my fingers open to take coins I was gripping you tut-tutted and looked away as you rose higher the trees of the park and bushes seemed miles beneath you and the other kids on the see-saws and ropes and sandpit or on the tall metal slide seemed so small and you remembered the time Ingrid fell off the ropes and grazed her knees and you helped her up and helped her hobble to the first-aid room near the toilets and the stern middle aged woman in charge there helped her into the room and sat her on a chair and you stood there staring made a mess of these knees ain't you deary the woman said best get you cleaned up and she used cotton wool and some purple smelly stuff to clean away the stones and dirt and blood and as she lifted the leg she saw a blue green bruise on Ingrid's thigh you have been in the wars the woman said with a shake of her blonde haired head not wars you thought her old man's belt more like but never said and Ingrid cried still her face red the woman's plump pink fingers cleaning the knees the blood seeping through the cotton wool and you just standing there giving it your concerned and boyish stare.
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I spot a Spider in the sandpit abdomen like a gooseberry      and the colour           gooseberry green tastes like regular Spider
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Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 11:53 PM UTC
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To my future lover, You know I hate this phrase, but “I told you so.” You will brush my warnings off like bread crumbs. You will forget that I explained every pothole and sinking sandpit to you. You find the hair the shower drain and remember. You see the middle-squeezed toothpaste tube and remember. You search for the television remote and remember. Remember. That I am just as wild as my hair. That I tell you that you are wrong even when you aren’t. That sometimes I have a hard time saying “Good morning.” That sometimes I have a hard time saying “I am sorry.” That sometimes I have a hard time saying “Good night.” That I have an eternally stubbed toe from tripping on my own feet, shoes, and tongue. That I play too much. That I cry too much. That I am too much and too little, but that makes me just enough. That I love you and will love you even when it gets hard. Like burnt waffles and diamonds and your will and my skull. If you misplace your memory daily, I will remind you with my whispered words in your ear, with my gentle finger tips, with my soul bare before you.
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Jul 11, 2013
Jul 11, 2013 at 10:55 PM UTC
To my Future Lover
I can see you through this heavenly body Eternal static to me is death and life to you A spec of light An ocean with depths completely untouched by human skin My heart beats with anticipation Sweat beading and tear falling Hands shaking and thoughts racing I'd tell you I'm sorry I'd tell you I didn't know my strength I'd beg for forgiveness for exploiting your weaknesses like a glass bottle broken into a children's sandpit, like a design so flawed You lived with it. I can't live with this.
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Jul 11, 2016
Jul 11, 2016 at 1:18 AM UTC
Pages of Tabs of Unpaid Respects
It was about this time last year when The flowers started poking their noses in the air Deciding whether it is safe to come back again. But then it is all down to the right temperature. The delphiniums blue as the azure spring sky With little white eyes in the centre of the flower. Nearby the bright red poppy on parade, on standby Next to the red hot poker, the tall yellow tower. The robin, the mad red pilot, and the blue *** Perch on a branch covered in blossom so pink Their beaks sandy from pecking in the sandpit And their feathers shining like the kitchen sink. I love spring, when life in the garden comes back Yellow buds appear on twigs galore The bare colours of winter gone; white and black Fresh colours of spring have returned once more
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Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 7:20 AM UTC
Fresh Colours Of Spring
*there’s a motto, treat a cat like a cat, when a cat ***** in your bed smack him over the head for him to learn and... gentlemen never drink in the morning.* the last motto can be changed to: gentlemen never drink in the morning unless they take the remnants of the whiskey with coffee... now you’re talking irish gentlemen, or perhaps northern irish, because that’s where the english ***** bank was established... that great big sandpit known as lough neagh (that's ulster... or ulcer?). blake was wrong... there are more ***** tadpoles in every *********** over the years than there are grains of sand on the seasides and stars in the universe... it would be counterproductive otherwise. i’m not going to be one of those repentant drunks who suddenly find poetry or prose lacerating myself on ‘oh poo poo poo’ memories and how one can become a respectable citizen via newspaper publishing, **** that, **** you, eminem gave me all the clues; swearing? taking oaths? it's called punctuation in połlish. come on celt... let's tango!
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Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 7:05 AM UTC
a gentleman's trick
When I was a kid I lived in a fairytale. I had my parents, the king and queen of the kingdom Who loved me unconditionally and doted on me; their baby girl I spent my days chasing butterflies and trying to grasp on to those last remains of Summer Before the Fall came And oh what a mighty Fall it was I was sixteen when my life stopped being all about fairytales and happily ever afters And became a mixture of bitter hatred for this reality and yearning to revert back to those Summer days But I can't, I can't reach those early afternoons playing in the sandpit of my childhood, Or those evenings when I would run back to a home cooked meal sitting ready for me on the dinner table. And now as I wander ever faster towards the winter of my life, all I have is the memories. They say you shouldn't hold on the past But why not, when the present is burying you right where you dug the grave which you labeled the "good old days". And the photographs on the mantelpiece come tumbling down as you begin to realize that mommy isn't perfect and daddy isn't invincible. They're human. And humans hurt, and they heal and they love, and they feel. And never will there be a day when I look back and think, "hey let the past be the past" Because now? Now I live in endless agony, crippled by my fear of growing old; getting married, paying bills, and growing my family. and facing the heartbreak that everyone has at least once in their lives. If you're lucky, it's quick like the pain of a band aid tearing off your skin. But if like me you're not, then I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain and the slow burning ache that will settle itself in your heart and never leave. Because sometimes, A person will nestle a home for themselves in your chest and they will be with you all your life. No matter what happens, even after marriage and children and all that comes with it. You will grow old and in your last moments on this earth, you will reminisce about that love you lost all those years ago. Not the one who got away- But the one who never left. To this day, I live as a memory box Constantly reminded that when you grow up, life's a ***** and then you die. But you'll always have the memories to remind you that life was not always this way. That sometimes, it can surprise you And make you laugh like you've never laughed and cry like you've never cried. You'll live like the uphills are mountains And the downhills are cliffs to drag you back down to reality. © Elle 2016
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Jun 23, 2016
Jun 23, 2016 at 7:22 PM UTC
(Not) A Fairytale Ending
When I was a kid I lived in a fairytale. I had my parents, the king and queen of the kingdom Who loved me unconditionally and doted on me; their baby girl I spent my days chasing butterflies and trying to grasp on to those last remains of Summer Before the Fall came And oh what a mighty Fall it was I was sixteen when my life stopped being all about fairytales and happily ever afters And became a mixture of bitter hatred for this reality and yearning to revert back to those Summer days But I can't, I can't reach those early afternoons playing in the sandpit of my childhood, Or those evenings when I would run back to a home cooked meal sitting ready for me on the dinner table. And now as I wander ever faster towards the winter of my life, all I have is the memories. They say you shouldn't hold on the past But why not, when the present is burying you right where you dug the grave which you labeled the "good old days". And the photographs on the mantelpiece come tumbling down as you begin to realize that mommy isn't perfect and daddy isn't invincible. They're human. And humans hurt, and they heal and they love, and they feel. And never will there be a day when I look back and think, "hey let the past be the past" Because now? Now I live in endless agony, crippled by my fear of growing old; getting married, paying bills, and growing my family. and facing the heartbreak that everyone has at least once in their lives. If you're lucky, it's quick like the pain of a band aid tearing off your skin. But if like me you're not, then I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain and the slow burning ache that will settle itself in your heart and never leave. Because sometimes, A person will nestle a home for themselves in your chest and they will be with you all your life. No matter what happens, even after marriage and children and all that comes with it. You will grow old and in your last moments on this earth, you will reminisce about that love you lost all those years ago. Not the one who got away- But the one who never left. To this day, I live as a memory box Constantly reminded that when you grow up, life's a ***** and then you die. But you'll always have the memories to remind you that life was not always this way. That sometimes, it can surprise you And make you laugh like you've never laughed and cry like you've never cried. You'll live like the uphills are mountains And the downhills are cliffs to drag you back down to reality. © Elle 2016
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why why why? Only one in what seems like a desert of none one face, one smile still only a mirage, a muse. It's been so long since my mind t’was drenched. sympathy why, so dry, am I to die? I shall ever climb myself out of this sandpit; but shall it ever escape me? The winds ride over this land turning all I see to dust anyhow. A mountain in the midst of my muse would not last. It would be swallowed up by all this water.
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Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 12:49 PM UTC
Oasis Glimpsed
Sparklers and orange bloom flowers that only shine at night and wake in the dawn with light and furious colour like the fourth of July, crackling steak on metal smoke and seeping juices, screaming meat rare, just as you like it, on this, our independence day (everybody cheer) or was it the eleventh? I forget such things now and then surely, it's the eleventh for them over there, playing in the sandpit and the eleventh hour, no less. Tell me did you see the game?
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Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 6:26 AM UTC
Communist Trapped At A Yankee Barbecue
My temple is made of words in the centre I do now stand I wave my hands in gestures and compose my dreams Their is no strain to me for it comes naturally this gift is heaven sent therefore I will sing it's praise I dreamt of a beach of sand and when I woke it was in my hand my dreams are truly vivid I hope that you understand When I dream of ancient wars I always come back with scars I stride time like a child a child in a sandpit of time By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
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Dec 7, 2013
Dec 7, 2013 at 3:04 AM UTC
Sandpit Of Time
My son absconded with Half of the sandpit In his sneakers It happened to hide Until it was safely inside And, even then, it waited To spread all over Freshly scrubbed floors (Sand is diabolical, You should know) I would happily Return the mess But at the time It seemed best To clean up Before it progressed (sand craves to spread untidiness) I can further attest That this latest theft Was unintentional And this confession Unnecessary but Sometimes it feels good To confess something Less outrageous than The darkest of truths NCL August 2019
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Aug 14, 2019
Aug 14, 2019 at 6:18 PM UTC
I must confess
one thing being concerned with ideograms like with the Chinese defences having preserved an offshoot from Egyptian depiction, but another thing to be in a sandpit playing with orthographic changes - by now you realise the Chinese encoding is too complex to change, not enough plasticine in it, nothing mandible, you need skeletons, and even though i'm not quick to boast, i think the matchsticks of the affair deserves a pat on the back - how a new aesthetic was born from simply looking at the ß - to compete with the Germans was necessary, i ensured the Polish orthographic was in need of revising, hence from sz (sh) came ß - an ultra-diacritical suggestion of uniqueness, but there had to be a twin to shorten the rz into a ż of equal aesthetic concern, hence the ʒ. in writing it's so wired, so dynamic, no number of Mona Lisas can match up to it... it's a ******* Frankenstein by the feel of it with five blind-men and an elephant... i know this will not become a standard of educating people, i know this will take some time before the revision takes assurance of survival, but i will vouch on this revision via optometry of how people read, perhaps reading more than their current diet allows.
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Aug 9, 2016
Aug 9, 2016 at 11:33 PM UTC
furthering an explanation of shortening the sz into ß, and rz into ʒ
There's a glitter in my eyes When I've caught a kind of sleep, A star who's come to earth to rise Each morning from the deep. And for a celestial second I won't groan or creak Old ship will slip through water beckoned; Bare the world a bidden streak. I can leave this sandpit If only for a day And look at all above the wit That sleep has granted on my way. I feel a better person I feel a better son For more important things may worsen Moods of those who slower run. For now I'll ring my jester bell, I'll jump and dance and cheer. I'm happy now for I do well With all the sleep that's granted, dear. And morning peach shall find me spent Exhausted by this rocket jet But I will smile for days that went And glitters I have not held yet.
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Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 6:09 AM UTC
The Star on Earth
I was in the throws of slumbers wakening my eyes yearned for that moment of total tranquillity. But pennies dropped in to my vacant pools as each Rippled on the Edges of my eyes sleep gathered on each corner and I once again blinked into endless Whirlpools of thought that asked the same question "Why can I not sleep, I played with the shadows that played like children In a sandpit but this wasn't the sandman's dust, no It was the sand that gets in every crack. Washing it Out of those place that need closing but always a grain Irritating that place that never quite closes complete. "I know I'll count sheep, "What shall I get them to jump over? "How many is too little, to much to count in sleep, "One sheep. "Two sheep, "Three sheep, Why was that one black? it looked at me with intent. It wanders around my thoughts eating on the grass Of my sleep deprived fears. "Baaahhh, "Baaahhh, "Listen to me, What the hell is going on, an imaginary sheep in   Onyx wool is talking to me? "Slumber is death and I will keep you from it, "I need this sleep to recharge batteries gone cold, I think for a moment is this sycosis of not dreaming Of eyes on full beam. Even though the bulb extinguished Three hours before but I see the light in front of me. This lamb chop of thought, this claustrophobic intent It blankets my eyes. Yet my eyes see all that flickers In nights shroud of eternal awakening. "Stop you noise, of hooves echoing in my eyes, "Why not let me rest like the dead in peace, It jumps once again faster, louder till like thunder Clapping and the light is darkness keeping me awake. I scream at nothing, at everything then I sit silent. "Hello an good morning and welcome, " Its your 7AM wake up tune of the day, I jolt backwards in confused glare, I'm a deer in Headlights of obscured thought? What the? all a dream of ill winds confusion. I gather Myself and rehearse the  night and find that this was But a nightmare gleam, I think out loudly a music Sings in a background of thought. "One sheep. "Two sheep, "Three sheep, Ill never let you in my dream, I'll count myself lucky If I  never count those counting sheep ever again in A psychedelic sleep deprived theme.
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Dec 11, 2015
Dec 11, 2015 at 3:57 PM UTC
Counting Sheep In The Dark
I was in the throws of slumbers wakening my eyes yearned for that moment of total tranquillity. But pennies dropped in to my vacant pools as each Rippled on the Edges of my eyes sleep gathered on each corner and I once again blinked into endless Whirlpools of thought that asked the same question "Why can I not sleep, I played with the shadows that played like children In a sandpit but this wasn't the sandman's dust, no It was the sand that gets in every crack. Washing it Out of those place that need closing but always a grain Irritating that place that never quite closes complete. "I know I'll count sheep, "What shall I get them to jump over? "How many is too little, to much to count in sleep, "One sheep. "Two sheep, "Three sheep, Why was that one black? it looked at me with intent. It wanders around my thoughts eating on the grass Of my sleep deprived fears. "Baaahhh, "Baaahhh, "Listen to me, What the hell is going on, an imaginary sheep in   Onyx wool is talking to me? "Slumber is death and I will keep you from it, "I need this sleep to recharge batteries gone cold, I think for a moment is this sycosis of not dreaming Of eyes on full beam. Even though the bulb extinguished Three hours before but I see the light in front of me. This lamb chop of thought, this claustrophobic intent It blankets my eyes. Yet my eyes see all that flickers In nights shroud of eternal awakening. "Stop you noise, of hooves echoing in my eyes, "Why not let me rest like the dead in peace, It jumps once again faster, louder till like thunder Clapping and the light is darkness keeping me awake. I scream at nothing, at everything then I sit silent. "Hello an good morning and welcome, " Its your 7AM wake up tune of the day, I jolt backwards in confused glare, I'm a deer in Headlights of obscured thought? What the? all a dream of ill winds confusion. I gather Myself and rehearse the  night and find that this was But a nightmare gleam, I think out loudly a music Sings in a background of thought. "One sheep. "Two sheep, "Three sheep, Ill never let you in my dream, I'll count myself lucky If I  never count those counting sheep ever again in A psychedelic sleep deprived theme.
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A balance beam the edge of the sidewalk Excavator escapades the sandpit Sundry scenes eclipsing face Mom's cooking Turn around Nothing
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Apr 11, 2023
Apr 11, 2023 at 7:40 PM UTC
remember?
If I could go back to my childhood I tell you that I definitely would Things were better in those days Simplistic in many different ways It was alright when I was a kid Not many worries nothing was hid And family life was really okay Not like things are today A few old times that I did like Family holidays, my first bike In the garden with my two sisters Ones now gone I really miss-her Happy times its not the same Childish things playing games In the sandpit our dad made Outside when we all played And our mum in her chair by the fire when she sat there All of the dogs that we had Some where timid, some where mad They made us happy, brought us joy So soft and lovely like a toy We used to love are life together But nothing ever lasts forever as time went on things then changed People altered things rearranged Some people left and moved on Things where lost forever gone Sadness and pain after a time Nothing more then a distant mime Trials and tribulations years gone by And lots of things that made us cry I liked it better when things where fine Times gone by now memories of mine Nowadays there's not much to say I don't much like things this way Okay there are a few good things But I still don't like what the future brings If only I could return, I was happier then Relive the good times, be happy again It would be lovely but so very far Back where all my memories are
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Aug 18, 2017
Aug 18, 2017 at 10:30 AM UTC
Childhood memories