"nows" poems
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She was an earnest devotée.
Her ideals, birthed in Chardonnay
were globally diverse (read: white).
A liberal bark preceded bite.
Her crystal clearer than her vision;
she provoked bemused derision
as she breathed intolerance
toward all who would not dance her dance.
She swooned for distant pagan tribes,
attuned to their exotic vibes –
rapt in multi-culti piety
strangely deaf to her own society,
judged by her as abomination;
unredeemed. The background station
always stuck on N.P.R.
(the soundtrack of her culture war,
Pacifica News and Democracy Nows,
and other progressive holy cows)
Her motherland a shameful mystery:
guilty first, and void of history –
its origins defiled, corrupted…
while she enjoyed uninterrupted
freedom to pursue her whims:
misguided one-world global hymns.
The sisterhood of hu(man) kind
was foremost in her earnest mind –
even should that same sisterhood
be sealed by her well-meaning blood.
Out on a date with global death
she hoped to unify the earth
in solidarity with causes
led by killers, warlord bosses,
thugs she never knew existed
who, if she’d met she’d have resisted.
Her theory landed far from her praxis
spun, by default, on an evil axis.
Hot with zeal she fumed and stormed
quite certain she was well-informed,
at benefits, non-profit functions
rallies, boycotts, left-wing luncheons;
warm with righteous spite for Israel,
aiding and abetting Ishmael
with fellow-travelers, like-minded
similarly hateful, blinded,
rattling sabers, scimitars, axes…
(lunacy never wanes, but waxes
hotter with the passing years
as activists confront their fears).
She finally shilled for the Intifada
(stopping short of reciting Shahada),
reaching out to the terrorist
with righteous raised progressive fist…
offering thus her neck to blade:
collateral to be repaid
by murderers who couldn’t care less
about her open-mindedness.
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 9:57 PM UTC
(to the tune of Do You Wanna Build a Snowman)
"Do you wanna build a snowman?
No I can't do it today.
The snows just not good enough
I can't do that
Lets try another day
Cause nows just not a good day
So lets try to build a snowman
some other day.
And on that day we'll build a snowman
Someday we'll build a snowman."
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 8:29 PM UTC
Nows merged, and, seconds,minutes and hours
Days,months and years merged,
Life has become a dream!
A solid reality.
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 7:26 PM UTC
you were the de(f)inition of
toxic.
yo(u) took control
and never let go,
with a (c)onstant
deathly grip on my soul.
could you have been
any more aggressive?
only god (k)nows.
but i know one thing.
i left (y)ou,
as soon as i c(o)uld,
and
i'm
******* glad i did.
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 6:58 PM UTC
You don't know what it's like
To be violated
To be held against your will
And felt up
And leave bruises
By someone you trusted
By someone you thought cared about you
You don't know what it's like to be used just for your body
By someone you thought cared for more than just nudes
By someone who told you were cute and pretty
You don't know what it's like to tell the person who violated you
What they did to you
And how it made you feel
You don't know what it's like to receive a fake apology
One only to get you to shut up
But as you're telling him your point of view
And as he's pretending to apologize
You could just feel all the "I don't cares" and "will you shut up nows"
You don't know what its like to attempt to leave an uncomfortable situation
Only to be pulled back by the handle on your backpack
Unaware of what is going on
You thought you were leaving
You don't know what it's like to be held up against the body
Of a strong, tall male
Unable to push him away
Unable to squirm out of the situation
You don't know what it's like to be barely able to breathe
Because your face is pressed right up against his side
But of course you knew he was strong
He played hockey and baseball
But you didn't know he was that strong
You don't know what it's like to be violated by someone you thought you could trust, or thought they could protect you.
Let's not mention how you don't know what it's like
To be sitting in class, sharing your homework with another boy
Only to feel his hand on your leg
You don't know what it's like to sit in a room full of students
And have no one notice what is happening
And you've shot a look that says don't do it
Yet he takes that as a look to continue to go up further
Because he thought it would increase tension
But really he made your self-worth decrease
You don't know what it's like to have an unwanted hand go up your skirt
And you thought it was okay to wear a skirt that day
Just like you wore one every other day
Because the Kilt was part of your school uniform
But of course that made your visible legs vulnerable
And it's a good thing that someone else call for his attention
Because you wanted anything but his
And you don't know what it's like to make a scene
Or to tell someone
Because you're not sure if you parents will be more upset
About you talking to boys or that your got yourself into those situations
You don't know what it's like to stay silent
Because you don't want to make matters worse
But it's my body, why would someone think they have access to it?
Because you don't know what it's like to be sexually assaulted
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 10:25 PM UTC
The rain falling on my hair
Breathing in the freshest of air
I guess nows the time to go inside
And to come back out when the rain has dried
But rain has such a nice sound
When it falls against the ground
No such comfort can be found
No such comfort can be found
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, sometimes what we want is not what we're granted;>
brought to you
no you came brought to me
painted with lines on the finements of my destiny
not on the deads
in the lives you float
rent free on a mind I own
called boat
a ship a rocket you name
there is no bound no limit no aim
in the terror of my cave
you bring the symphonies you carve and pave
pave the way to my hands
to board their journeys
to make their plans
feel the world upon tips
like the steps of sand
the breath of land
the sight of dear
the sense of mere
the drip of downs
the realize of nows
the dive of sea
in blues of surreal
up taken by the fingers to a deal
of a fluent flow a pleasant kneel
not to the gods but to the clear
no more on the behinds of blood and set and Neptune
to a slender of a violin a shiver soon
you know your lights and shades on my moon
not aware of my nights anytime for you
although my gates are open to infinite
no stops to the intimate
you color you steep
on the curves of my leap
------ravenfeels
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 1:23 PM UTC
let’s write poems
together
tell each other
secrets
stay up all night
it’s the only way
to keep it
let’s scrap book
forever
glue in
all the pieces
photograph
memories
rough-draft
remedies
the trials
and errors
The nows
and nevers
Let’s write poems
together
of life without
regrets
Sep 7, 2018
Sep 7, 2018 at 2:53 AM UTC
To all the mornings that go wrong
1 hope you know
I find my laughter in you
somewhere along the "why mes" and "why nows"
A beautiful summer breeze hit
And I forgot what there was to complain about
Jul 13, 2023
Jul 13, 2023 at 10:49 AM UTC
Working on a large sheep prperty once
On days not much doing way out dig cactus
One day doing just this I caught a flash
Owner on his old horse up a hill for practice
Watching me the old coot he was that day
To see if I on my own was doing my work
The sun sent me a flash from his binoculars
The old guy was an untrusting kind of ****
Just below me a soil erosion twent feet deep
That ran for about a real good mile away
I rode down and right up it for a mile
And right up behind him fifty tards I say
Tied up my horse sat under a big old tree
Rolled myself a smoke and watched him
Looking all over away down there was he
Chances finding me down there were slim
He was getting so frustrated binoculars too
Where the hell did that bloke go he said
Looking all about for me that day was he
I just smiled rolled another smoke instead
Him standing in his old half worn saddle
Where the hell did that bloke I ask go
I'll be having a real good talk to him later
Can't trust anyone I said nows a good ya know
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Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 5:55 AM UTC
Stacks of memories
In a recycle bin
Pulling 'em out
Putting 'em in
Remember whens
Where we like to go
Never forget 'ers
Imprinted on soul
Lost in piles of files in flesh
Moments we were not at our best
Dark nights come and slowly fade
Until grey matter triggers spark replay
Up front the nows
The essence of living
The thankfuls to be
The resentful misgivings
The never forgets
Forgives and regrets
All the wins, the losses
The deaths
Yet there's still plenty of room
For those good memories
We haven't made yet...
Mar 3, 2019
Mar 3, 2019 at 7:37 AM UTC
Rain comes down,
Heavy as ache, wet as blood,
Makes dirt sound
That shatters ground and mood
Drumming onto leaves.
Rain scabs earth,
Murky as love, dark as wound,
Sprinkles the cold
Forest that smokes out light,
Sun smothers into moon.
Rain races down,
No things seem to matter much,
Creatures disembodied
Come and go in lazy rushes
Even heart withholds.
Rain cleanses not
And there is no sky these days
For flights so empty,
Lost in the faraways of nows,
Sun blots away by moon.
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 1:42 AM UTC
A morning philosophical conversation
approached the hard euthanasia question..
A saddened room as several with tears
recounted their special tragedies..
their own close life endings..
Other reflections revolved around
considerations of laws and rights..
troubled preferences for dark
decisions made now...
An afternoon wildfire with exploding fury
a sudden jump of canyon walls
raged into a city surprised..
Mass evacuations.. decisions right now..
demands of how to choose life..
Still many transfixed by the terrible beauty..
orange..billowing.. burning.. chaos...
Assessments reach both forward and back..
questions of rehearsals for future nows..
inadequacies of many decisions past..
Somehow in our heat today.. a continuing
blaze not yet contained..
new awareness..an urgent plea..
to experience life's beauty and
constricting pain.. already enclosed
in an expectant now...
Jun 28, 2012
Jun 28, 2012 at 1:56 PM UTC
Thimble List
Hug a stranger, create a friend,
Hug again, friendship has no end.
The first grain of sand.
Share a crooked bench, nibble a rib,
Laugh and sing and play and live.
Another grain of sand.
Share a table, bare our toes,
Take a chance, share a barefoot dance.
More and more grains of sand.
Share a heated seat, warm my heart,
Warm my hand, share our thoughts.
Play a song, share it all
Share a kiss, bare our soul
As grains of sand build a beach
Grains of time build we and each
Fill our thimble with the sand that passes
Top to bottom in each others hourglasses.
The sand reveals our pasts, and contains all our tomorrows
Each passing grain, a reminder to be here and in our nows.
The thimble's sand is a list for me and a list for you
Each grain an instant of what we've done and have yet to do
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 5:11 PM UTC
624
Forever—it composed of Nows—
’Tis not a different time—
Except for Infiniteness—
And Latitude of Home—
From this—experienced Here—
Remove the Dates—to These—
Let Months dissolve in further Months—
And Years—exhale in Years—
Without Debate—or Pause—
Or Celebrated Days—
No different Our Years would be
From Anno Domini’s—
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I'm tired of this fake reality.
This non existent world I call home.
This fantasy where whales fly with the wind while woodpeckers swim with the waves.
A place that Impossible scenarios call home.
Exhaustion takes me there every night.
I've studied this place and I know how it works now.
It's not a home for impossible scenarios but a place for false hope.
It takes your memories and creates fantasies that'll never turn into actualities.
I've noticed this so I've stop trying to go there.
These nightmarish places disguised as fascinating fantasies are no interest to me anymore.
I'm leaving this hellish place behind but I'm not going to leave without something.
I'm not going to let my nightmares runaway with years of my dreams.
I will drag something good out of this situation because my teacher told me to write a celebration.
When in reality
For me at least
That is almost unachievable.
Key word almost
All I have ever wrote is depressing poems crafted by a beautiful mind using sinful words.
So I ask myself:
How is this possible?
How does one take a hellish situation and find hope?
How does one go outside their comfort zone?
What am I going to do?
I've tried before.
It only stuck me in second place at my freshmen year slam which ***** because I finally know I'm much more then some ******* second place at a freshmen year slam.
I just wish I knew that early.
So I wouldn't have to have these emotional scars, and physic.
They have returned, day after day, week after week, year after year.
But I am done.
I'm going to find something good in these nightmares if it kills me.
I've taken these emotional scars and taught myself to deal with them.
These scars that are unseeable can't restrain me anymore.
You see, I finally now how to give celebration to these corrupted dream catchers that live inside my head.
These Permanent EMPs that block dreams and not nightmares.
These things that have created unwanted dates with unwanted "dreams".
I've experienced anything and everything there.
So if I'm gonna pull anything from this hellish place.
It's experience.
I've played this game of life hundreds of times and I finally know the level nows.
I know where not to go.
I know what not to do.
And I know who not to talk to.
You see these things are just thoughts from my broken guardian angel trying to warn me about the bad things in life.
The things in life that broke her and made her unrepairable.
She does not want that for me.
So thank you broken guardian angel for stealing my dreams and making them nightmares.
I've only just realized that these nightmares are metaphors for hard life lessons.
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 1:33 PM UTC
hey miss miles,
way out gone I miss your smiles,
the power sun rays,
have betraded
the shower fun days back when faded,
lying out beneath the tree
frying us just fealing free,
fealin both our trips
both soft upon the lips
nows just drifting out like ships
out upon the eye on guard
to cry would just be hard,
day by day the words are lost but
memories just never tossed,...
all we shared,
the stunts we dared.
you were there for sure of course you cared.
and still will do up high up on your hill
things arnt the same but I'm still sain
about to pop this pill..
in my mind last place that You will still be found,
far out sure around but I'm just dying on this ground
I'm gone no sound......
Jun 9, 2013
Jun 9, 2013 at 11:10 PM UTC
I am going to love you…
For
Commonality
******** In its intensity
Midnight whisper songs… and
Puns and metaphors
Gently passed between fits
Of giggles and almost morning breath…
For
Private Jokes… and
Running gags
Shouting matches… and
Makeup ***
Discarded baggage… and
Tender kisses
For screen doors
Hickory floors
Fishing reels… and
Ill-timed poems
For being unafraid
To grow old… encumbered and entwined…
I am going to love you
For right now… and
For all
the right nows
to come
May 2, 2013
May 2, 2013 at 12:45 PM UTC
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Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 8:47 AM UTC
it feels odd trying to keep you alive through words pulled from my memory. but i don’t now why language always fails me when i need it most. i’m not drunk enough yet to miss you properly like i usually do.
when sea otters sleep they hold hands so they don’t float away from one another whilst dreaming, but while i sleep my phantom hand reaches for yours. on those nights i wake up in a panic because your hand is nowhere to be found. the only thing that calms me is going outside and saying ‘i love you’ as loud as i can in hopes that the heavens can hear me. when i see a star twinkling i know someone is saying it back. so suddenly, i don’t feel as alone.
during the day i am trying to learn how to be an adult who pays her own bills, drinks coffee, and doesn’t cry at words like ‘i think i just want to be friends’. i just want to believe i have the capability to make someone happy, but i know i don’t and thats kind of like religion isn’t it?
i should have been in california by now and you should have been graduating this year but you’re not and i’m not so thats why i don’t really believe the doctors when they say i’m getting better. i still read the last message you sent me on facebook before you blocked me. you said i could talk to you about anything whenever i need to. so i guess what i’m trying to say is, nows that time.
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 11:53 PM UTC
Don't ever think you're all alone
or that everythings your fault
And please don't lock your heart away
inside some kind of vault
Because everything thats happened
happened not only to you
there are others who have played their part
you think the blame might be theirs too?
Can you look into the mirror
and say you did your best
with honesty and integrity
when others did much less
If so then maybe just perhaps
you shoulder too much blame
tell me do the other parties
seem to be doing just the same?
Chances are most prob'ly not
after all they've you for that
you ever think that nows the time
you start to give some back
Don't to this yourself my love
the burden is too great
forgive yourself for what they've done
before it is too late
Aug 10, 2010
Aug 10, 2010 at 7:23 PM UTC
threads of truth combine,
i look to a brighter time,
forget thought of pain,
wipe the slate clean, start again,
dust down and walk,
forget about all the talk,
rebuild and plan,
nows the time you can,
if its broken need to re-assemble,
even if it makes you tremble,
beads of sweat appear,
can someone help can someone steer,
beached upon your shore,
i'm watered down once more,
here i sit here i wait,
the jury is out about my fate.
phil
May 25, 2012
May 25, 2012 at 4:54 PM UTC
October 12th, 1998: This is not an apology.
♐ ♐ ♐
Most days I feel like I’m underwater. It’s like a dream where I’m never dead, just not living. Because the living cannot feel this dead. I whither away into isolation singing sweet melodies of love and peace and hope and **** and loneliness. Most days I just smile.
I am a fake. I am a liar.
I am an incongruent youth; unable to be constrained by the freedom laces of society. Tie me down and watch me run, trickle, run like an avalanche down the face of conservatism. A cheap hotel ****** musk and sweat and suits and scandals. On-the-course-to AIDS infection loose ends who walks the streets in pristine filth. The incongruent youth, or what we in America call sick **** and shameful liars.
I am confused. Standing here on the edge between glamour and reality I scream into the nothingness, the watery void, a stark reality composed of my dark humor and evanescent solitaire: How can thunder roar so loud? Why am I part of this ambient isolation? How can you do this to me; to us? The beautiful few and we are beautiful, trust me, we are in the clouds searching for each other, beguiling and anonymous as we may be waltzing merrily through nighttime New York parks searching for rarities. For others. For God. And into the emptiness I whisper: Why is this park so big? And the trees so thick?
I am waiting for "someday." But this someday, this could be, this will be, would be, won't be for awhile. And this moment, this here, this now just passed. So let's look ahead and hope it gets better, because our lives are 1942 cattle cars riding away from the nows that just passed. Moments of incongruence on a grand scale. One night stands with our own hands and imaginations. Moments we thought we knew.
I am an inconvenience on the path to wholesale liberties. To children wrapped in barren barcodes that read “no real identity” when the red dash of judgement steamrolls their sides. God forbid the glamour mix with reality. Because when you are a somebody, you can never be a nobody. And nobody wants the incongruent youth to keep thinking. Because to think is to love. And nobody wants us to love.
This is an apology. I am sorry if I’m not what you meant for me to be. Terribly sorry if I love the wrong music or words or styles or *** is all I can think about. Sorry, but I can only love the beautiful few. I can only smile knowing I am a real somebody in all this hate.
Knowing I am a fake. I am a liar.
I am a human being. Hardly. I’m nothing but an incongruent youth.
Mar 4, 2012
Mar 4, 2012 at 3:11 AM UTC