Dad, I am going to try and write this
It may be a poem
It may not
But from my heart
I miss you
I remember the last time I kissed you
Your eyes were closed
They opened wide
As I kissed your forehead
In that terrible place
So white and clean
Where people die
But you will never die
Dad
I love you so much
And you will always live on
In my heart
Forever
God, I miss you so much
It's so hard to write through the tears

Hey you, yes you! , 
Look into my eyes, 
You are my prey,
And I'm your death, hi.
Not so soon, death,
Please let my soul reside, 
I won't waste time, 
I'll love you till I die.
You had your chance man, 
We have to go, tonight, 
Your time is lost,
Your life is now mine. 


What would you do if you were to die tonight? , 
When death would kiss your lips, 
and **** your soul and fly.
Don't say you'd browse more IG or watch TV, smile, 
That is not you speaking, that is your laziness, *sigh.

i held you for a night
and now things are different

what changed?

i dread the day you learn
for the first time that
you can't just love all
the darkness in me away

and no matter how much
you care i will still toss
and turn at night and scars
might still appear on my skin

i dread the day you realize
that you can't cure me
and sometimes all you can do
is stand next to me and
hold my hand through fog
pouring out of my ears so black
and thick we can't even see
each other's faces

i dread the days i can't
get out of bed
the days you want to
take me out and all
i can manage is a prettified
shell of myself

i dread the day you learn
that sometimes no matter
how hard i try i still can't
pull myself together

the day you learn that
there isn't an answer
you can give that will
save me from my fears

you aren't the first person
who has tried to love the
darkness inside away
my family and friends
have given it their all
but someday you too will learn
that if love could
cure mental illness
the world would be
a much better place