Two broken halves split by 4 seas
Two wanting hearts in each other's relief
What am I to be without you here with me?
Only with you do I ever feel so complete.

What held us bound are just 2 screens
Relaying our hearts' wishes for each other to see
My mind ponders over the distance between we,
Hoping that in your heart, you'll think of me

Am I one of the many?
Am I the selected few?
This feeling so uncanny
What am I to do?

My mind's a mess
Standing in front of you
Would it be best?
If I kept these feelings from you

My mind is coloured blue
You kept me at my guesses
Was hoping I'd get a clue
That maybe we're going places

Have I gotten through to you?
All these feelings left unsaid
What do I have to do?
To know that you'd come my way

Her departure was my deepest sorrow
Knowing that i'll wake without her tomorrow
I gave her my heart, my soul
Looking back now, I'm left to sit here hollow
Hiddenly I watch from a distance
As you spoil her, who was once my princess
Cherish her in your arms as I would've
And give her everything that I couldn't
Be her reason to smile every single day
And remind her how beautiful she is in every single way
I'm unable to do so from where I stand
Even when I try to make amends
My mistakes were made and time has been lost
She endured the pain that i've caused
I wrote this in hopes of common peace,
As her heart is one I can no longer appease
From the words of her former to her lover
I wish you both happiness together

Clear seas behold unsettled waters,
And they say calm waters run deep,
Tread the stormy ocean I did,
Only to find myself drowning among the reef.

The weight of the water held me down,
The surface within my reach but felt so far,
Bewildered I was with thoughts that I could drown,
My hopes were slumped as I sink into the dark,

That was when I felt my lungs constricting,
Dragged down by the anchor beneath me,
The sunlight fading with each passing minutes,
My arms stretched out in hopes that someone would save me

Images of my life flashed before my eyes,
My mouth gasping with the little bits left of my life,
Only to taste the salty bitter tragedies that befell upon me,
Then it became a silent tranquil moment

My fingers loosen the grips on the strings I once held tight
As my old empty vessel drifted along with the tides
I felt calm for once in my whole entire existence
And I let my wandering soul swim towards another life

I, too can smile

I remind myself every single day
As if nothing could ever bother me
Even if the weather was grey
Or when my heart was mushed like clay

I, too can smile

Even when you held his hand
Like you did with me 4 months then
Kissing him in a 3 week span
After you left me all canned

I, too can still smile

Seeing him on your social feeds
Like you didn't with me
Coz back then it was only me
Who wanted us to be proudly seen

I, too can smile

Despite me being on my own
And you having someone to call your own
I could walk this path alone
And prove to myself that I have grown

We were taught to love others
But truly we lack love for ourselves

We learnt to love the flaw in others
But never the flaws in ourselves

They say do unto others what you expect of others
But truly have you done anything unto you?

We seek a reflection of ourselves in others
But you reflected on your own?

Contradiction's a paradox of imperfection
But can imperfection be a paradox of contradiction?

These were the feelings when our eyes met
Or was it when my eyes met you?

You have accepted the flaws in my chronicles
All that I have yet to come to terms with

I'm a walking imperfection
And you lived in contradiction

Guess you could say we are a part of a paradox
But are we yet a paradox to be?

Devilish deeds
Cloaks of a saint
Where shall he plant his seeds
Beneath of all of his taints?

Salvation he has searched
All but almost in vain
From where crows perched
He sullied in pain

Then came a bright flame
A warmth to his shame
In the form of a *****
She vanquished his demons

Her love was sincere
But her conscience still waver
In his embrace
She felt amour and grace

Their love was sacrilegious
Undignified and preposterous
Yet they found solace
In each other's darkness

Together their love grows
Hearts scripted in stone
They marched on tomorrow
With their intertwined souls

I got my heart on another heist,
I thought she was the one
Never thought that I'd be twiced,
Our hearts caught in all the wants,
Now my cigarettes are my only vice,
Light up another one,
Each puff I'm dragging thrice,
Feelings dissipate all at once,
But my emotions are on a rollercoaster ride,
My depression cocked like a loaded gun,
My finger pressing on the trigger tight
You had me on a run,
Trying to turn my wrongs right,
First mistake strike one,
Strike two then came the warning light,
Strike three, that was the last one,
Out the door you went, disappearing into the light
Since then, I've been heavy on the ***,
The bottle starting to feel a little light,
My nights spent waiting for the sun,
But the sun never seem to rise,
Here I am, back in square one.