You stole my notebook, but that's okay, you keep it
But there is something else I have to admit;

You've stolen my heart, and now it its yours
You stole it for good, as we were lying outdoors
You beautiful thief, you've stolen my heart
So now it's with you, when we are apart.

You stole my heart, but that's okay, you keep it
Because it's now yours forever, I have to admit.

I know you left and that was your choice
but may I just ask, do you still hear my voice?
When you read all my poems through
is it my voice reading them to you?
Are my words in your head
or to you are my words dead?

As the pale sun sets, against an amber sky,
I sit here just watching, and wondering why,
whenever I sit here, I always find,
that no matter the evening, there's one ******* my mind,
and forever echoing throughout my head,
is her ever sweet voice, and the words that she's said.
But it matters not, that much I know,
though I wish things were different, it simply ain't so.

Every villain is a hero, in their own mind.
Every monster, is just normal, to their own kind.
The monster in the dungeon, well they live there.
But when I am who I am, you all stare.
To become a villain, I just did what was best,
then let you all know that, and you did the rest/

I'm different now, this much is true
but that hasn't changed my love for you
not that it matters, for you've got him
and he filled your heart, up to the brim.

But I'm different now, I'm someone new
and new me honestly doesn't haven't a clue
about where or not he is enough for you
and about where or not you could love me too.

Well I won't say it's nothing, cause it feels like a lot,
but they're feelings for a girl, who I haven't even got,
and I hope your day's perfect, yes my dear, I do,
but nothing could be half as perfect as you.

I'm here on the sand where I once pinned you down,
but I'm here with her, and I can't help but frown.
I though it'd help, burn the memory away,
but now I just really, miss that day,
and she doesn't know, she means nothing to me,
as I lie to her, it's just love she can see.

Now and then I do remember,
way back to last December,
I held you close in the sunshine,
and kissed those lips when you were mine.
But oh so long has passed my dear,
and the future's ever drawing near,
the girl I look at and the girl I see,
isn't the one who meant so much to me.
But her words make smile, often far too much,
and I sometimes I find that I'm craving her touch.
So while yes it's true, you're different now,
I have more feelings for you than I should allow.

Your laughter was more beautiful than any song
now I've forgotten it, and everything feels wrong
I'm slowly forgetting, the taste of your lips
and the exact perfect curve, of your beautiful hips,
Now we're just memories, I messed up and lost you
I've just got the memories, I can't lose those too.

'It's the right thing to do'
doesn't make it hurt any less
I'm happy just being friends,
but it means my life's a mess.

There's still never been a love as true
As this love, I still feel for you

I still look back fondly on all the good times we had
And I'm even more sorry, for every time I've made you sad

I wish I could hear, your **** voice,
or your soft, sweet touch, that made me rejoice

It seems there has finally come a day
When from you I have to stay away

I loved you months ago, and I love you still
And even with my last breath, I always will

I miss the way you said my name
I miss loving you and you feeling the same
I miss that loving, lustful look in your eyes
I miss how around how around time always flies
I miss how every moment with you made want a million more
I miss looking at you, you're the most beautiful thing I ever saw
I miss you, because I'm still in love
and you're still an angel, belonging above

She belongs in the poetry of someone else now,
I loved her so much, and yet lost her somehow.
So perhaps this could be it, an end to my verse,
for I've no longer muse, but hey, could be worse.

I find it so funny the way you can't see
How perfect you are, so perfect to me
But I find it so sad that you don't believe
That I'll love you always, and I'll never leave
And then I remember all that I've done
Maybe that's why you don't think I'm the one
But even if I had the chance redo it all
I wouldn't change anything, no matter how small
Because as bad as it was, this way got me you
So why on earth, would I want a redo?

My hearts torn apart
and I am caving in
and all because
of your love for him

What can I do? What can I say?
You're not replying, you've gone away.
I thought that maybe, you might care,
but those feelings you mentioned, weren't even there.
I only existed, to sate your lust,
and I am reminded, that all is dust.

If you read these words and they are my last
please remember all the poems, that have come to pass
remember each smile, each tear and each word
and even remember the ones you heard
what a way to end it all
what a way for the mighty to fall.
Goodbye dear poetry, goodbye my life
and most importantly goodbye strife.

The voices echo round my head
Remind me why, I want to be dead
But they are silenced by, your beautiful voice
your sweet, kind words made me rejoice

But you aren't here now and they're louder than ever
Telling me to end this, now and forever
But as they yell and rage on inside my head
I think of you and why I don't to be dead

Because every moment with you is worth hours of pain
and if I've nothing to lose, then I've so much to gain
I don't care how much the voices are right
There's nothing I want more than one more night
...with you

I want to write the kind of poem,
that you my dear deserve,
for I've an idea within my mind,
and a purpose for it to serve.
But how can I write
of one so perfect as you?
Yet though I've scrapped a thousand poems,
I'm still trying to.

What do you want? What am I meant to say?
Nothing will ever, change this anyway.
You won't let me die, but please stop checking in,
I'll tell you what's wrong when I know where to begin.
The darkness closes on all of my life,
I've accepted that I deserve all this strife,
but she is gone, and all my friends are too,
the only person still checking, on me is you,
and one day you'll stop, and I'll be free,
and after that day, the world won't miss me

I had the words, but I forgot.
Lately that's happened a lot.
I don't see the point in writing,
You got bored, I should be done fighting.
But I'm not and I know it too,
the only one who doesn't, seems to be you.

Your eyes still know me, but do your lips?
Do you remember how it felt, to have my hand round your hips?
I know you remember who I was, but do you know how you felt?
Do you remember the way I made your heart melt?
Do your hands remember mine, like mine remember yours?
Do you remember how I laughed, when we were sitting outdoors?

I don't think you do, I think you forgot,
and for that reason alone, I envy you a lot.

What I expected, was certainly not this,
you're stirring up feelings, that I can't dismiss,
You cute, and you're funny, and a whole lot of fun,
and it made my heart flutter, when you laughed at my pun,
and I know that I shouldn't, but perhaps I've a crush,
so I'll conclude with just this, I love how you blush.

Such a long year, since I last tasted your lips,
and over your skin, traced my fingertips.
Such a long year, since that day in your room,
a day you've forgotten, or so I assume.
But a day of perfection, of laughter of smiles,
and of you and your sister, putting my hair in odd styles.
The last day where I pinned, you down on your floor,
the last day spent constantly, closing your door,
the last day I had you all to myself,
before my emotions, I was forced to shelf.
It's a day you've forgotten, just as you should,
but a day I'll remember, as I knew that I would.

I'm fine, thank you for asking
Pain's something, I'm good at masking
Except you didn't ask, 'cause you don't care
And I shouldn't be surprised, to be fair.
I messed up, and I'm worthless now
And I'm hurting more, than I should allow.
But I'm fine, thank you for inquiring
Why would I be hurt, by what's transpiring?

Despite all the times, you said 'I love you'
If you heard my name, you'd reply 'who?'
Now our love, doesn't mean a thing
You've forgotten the times, you made my heart sing
You didn't even say goodbye
Because I'm not worth, another try

Thinking back to all the times I made you blush
I can't figure out why I wasn't good enough
What is it you think, I somehow lack?
That stops you from wanting to love me back.

Nah, I'm fine, I'm really okay
For as much as you care, anyway

Hey there sweetheart, it's kinda been a while
and I was thinking that I kinda miss your smile
and how about another kiss?
as we talk about the times we miss
how about you stay another night
and I can try to make things right,
make it up to you and make your heart race
with the lies that hurt you in the first place
I could press you against the wall,
remind you of when we had it all
or we could go back to that park
steal some more kisses after dark,
or maybe I could tell the truth
that love's as real as the fountain of youth

I'm drinking amongst the veterans
of this endless hellish war
I kind of almost envy those
ending problems knee deep in gore
My problems can't be ended
with falling axes or swinging swords
Because I've been in my share of fights
and won great many awards
But all of that is worthless when
my enemy is myself
So I just bottle up emotions,
leave them sitting on the shelf.

Because there aren't any words any more, not for you and not from me
Because I don't feel a thing any more, and it's no-one's fault you see
But actually I tell a lie, because these words will never end
But what's changing now, is the person to whom I'll send,
each long winded poem and handwritten note
each perfect kiss and each misused quote.
Just a glimpse, from afar
of a perfect shinning star
and now my heart, it starts to sing
these poems in my ears they ring.
Of love, of life, of hate, of war
passion, triumph and so much more,
and to think I thought these words were gone,
thankfully I'll keep going on
till I draw my final breath
writing poems unto my death.

I was trying to compare your eyes to the beauty of an eclipse,
but somewhere along the line I was distracted by your lips .
Perfectly formed and beautifully red
The image of them bouncing round my head.
But it's not an image I want to forget
So I'll keep thinking of them for a while yet

I still dream about your laughter
Yeah I dreamt of you last night
In my dream I knew you loved me
As you stood there all in white.

I bet you think you're really funny,
when you make me sad while outside it is sunny.
I bet you love it that my pain,
goes away, when I'm in the rain.
I bet you love to laugh at the change,
just when my life starts to arrange.
I give up, and I let her go,
only then do feelings show.
Only once, I've found another,
do you point out, I don't want the other.
Cosmic Irony, oh laughing gods,
a good plot twist, what are the odds?

I am starting to think acrostic poems ****
Because what starts with Z? The actual ****.

Endless possibilities, I won't be controlled,
no such thing as fate, don't trust the lies I've been told.
Mind over matter I'll get what I want,
destroy destiny and it leave so gaunt.
I won't bow to the whim of the past,
I'll make my own future, forever to last.

I remember walking with you, a year ago, on a night much like this one
Oh we kissed and we laughed and we had so much fun.
I remember walking with you, a year ago, on a night much like this one
Little did I know that I'd one day call you the one.
I remember walking with you, a year ago, on a night much like this one
I didn't expect you to become my light, my life, my sun.
I remember walking with you, a year ago, on a night much like this one
and I miss you now, that all's said and done
Because I remember walking with you, a year ago, on a night much like this one

Starting some poems, that I then quickly scrap,
because though I feel happy, I suspect it's a trap.
So I can't write, not for any muse,
'cause I can't find the words I want to use.
Sorry for staying, and for feeling this way,
sorry for going and not talking today.
I don't understand I'm just so confused,
holding my heart, all tattered and bruised,
what is it I want? What is I need?
Just give some advice that I can heed.
Because silence is brutal, but talking makes me feel,
and I keep reopening wounds that just won't heal

Goodnight little angel, so far away,
and know in my dreams, you always stay.
Good-morning my love, I hope dreamed sweet,
my love for you burns, with an undying heat.
I'll sleep now my dear, but you're in my heart
as you have been ever since, the very very start.

I'm not gonna lie, my dear I wanted more,
but it seems forever's not what life had in store.
No it seems for us, there was so little time,
just those few perfect days on which you were mine.

Tonight she saw the marks
My wrist's burning red arcs
and when she asked why they were there
she caught my defenses, open and bare
I almost told her of the reasons why
but instead I let out a sigh
My lips grazing, her soft warm cheek
as round her waist, my arms did sneak
burying questions with one more kiss
silencing thoughts, with a moment of bliss

As I read the through words that I wrote,
I realise that most are untrue,
I realise that I was an idiot,
but dear god did I love you.

I loved you like Icarus loved his freedom,
so much that he touched the sun,
because you were all of my everything,
and I thought you were the one.

I loved you like Achilles loved Patroclus,
so much that your loss broke my soul,
and I dreamed of touch in my nightmares,
and the way that you made me feel whole.

I loved you like Dante loved Beatrice,
so much that he went through hell,
because ******* it I'd have done anything,
for you to have loved me as well.

But you're so far away,
and you love someone new,
so I have to pretend,
that I only loved you.

A special place is held within my heart,
For that which has mattered since the start.

The first a jacket, of red and black,
And memories that take me back,
To when I wore two lapels and a hood,
And the days were long, and the nights were good.

But I traded that one, for a hoodie of grey,
That I still have, even to this day.
It seemed so calm, and cool, and still,
When life was not, and I had no skill.

Till overtop I wore the black,
That I still love, when I look back,
And I was smooth, and free, and bad,
In that fake leather that I had.

But the fake is gone, and trenchcoat's in,
But I started loosing, when I meant to win.
I liked that coat, it was brown and slim,
And is a link to accepting, being feminine.

But out with the old, and in with the new,
It's black again, like the old times too.
But who wears this coat, I know it's me,
But who is this coat, going to be?

I looked at you, and my mind went 'wow'
Because I loved you then, and I love you now.
But you don't believe me, you think I'm lying
So now I lie here, and I'm slowly dying
Because I still love you, beyond compare
But you don't believe me, 'cause life's unfair
I remember all the kisses, we shared in the past
I can't believe, we may have had our last

With that first chance that you gave me
I messed up and now I see
I didn't deserve you at the time
But I still got to call you mine.

I didn't deserve that second chance
Try as I might with that romance
So I'm not surprised when pressure got high
You walked and left my heart to die

It seems you've come back yet again
Though the last two times I was to blame
I didn't deserve chances one and two
What makes you think I'll ever deserve you?

But you still think I'm worth a shot
And I still tell you that I'm not
But I'm in love and you are too
and all I want is to be with you.

So thank you for, chance number three
Perfect is all I'll let it be.
Because being with you, is the best thing ever
And all I want, is to love you forever

Bloodied knuckles, bleeding fist
at least that something I haven't missed.
I don't know what I did but I sure messed it up
as out of my hand I pull shards of cup
I just shouldn't have said anything
I should've know wasn't worth the trouble it'd bring
Why are you ****** of off? What have I done wrong?
It's times like this I realize, that life is too long.
Perhaps it'd be best, if I just said goodbye
I'm no use while living, so I might as well die.

The final piece was set into place,
And I dream no longer of that face,
The puzzle is done and I get it now,
What was done, and why, and how.

Back in the box, the puzzle goes,
And what it was, well no-one knows,
It took me years but I found the piece,
That finally let me be at peace.

My heart sunk as I read the word,
the most painful of all I've ever heard,
I know you're gone, but don't know why,
it broke my heart when you said 'bye'.

The sound of her voice, like a melody slow
And the sight of her beauty, with it's perfect glow
The warmth of her body, pressed against mine
That look in her eyes, and their endless shine.
The days of perfection, so good times we did spend
Alone just us two, why did they end?
Her perfectly shaped lips, delicious and soft
And kisses that sent, my heart spiraling aloft.
All that is gone now, slipping away
If only she'd give me, just one more day.

I can think of one-hundred and one
Reasons I love you, and you're the one

I can't think of one reason, why you'd love me
I don't think you do, and I think you'd agree.

Sorry, I stayed up too long,
and in my heart I felt a song,
about your beauty, and your grace,
they way you smile, and make my heart race.

But I'm sorry, I just stayed up too long,
even now, I know writing this is wrong.

Our story started once upon a time
Now I am yours and you are mine.

Ours isn't a story I'll ever forget.
Though I can't remember when we first met

Our story is on a whole other level
You are an angel in love with the devil

Your eyes are all dull and your cheeks are all red,
Forever with you? Ha I'd be better off dead.
You're such an ugly, manipulative, little piece of work
the thought I once called you perfect, makes me go berserk.
How could anyone love, someone like you,
how could I be so stupid as to once want to.