I'd pretended for so long,
that I'd forgotten it was real.
So when things started to go wrong,
I didn't know what to feel.
I slowly slipped away from you.
then blamed you when you left.
I lost myself in feeling blue
and forgot about your theft.
I was so sure I had forever,
that I'd forgotten about right now.
Now I know I wasn't clever,
because I let you forget how;
You were my muse,
and I loved you so.
Now I write like this as if it's news,
but I messed up long ago.
I finally understand
but took me far too long.
The time's no longer at hand,
and I was far too wrong.

If I only had the words,
to say the things I feel.
If I could only let you know,
and explain that this is real.
If only I could find some way,
to take another chance.
If I could only hold your hand,
even for a single dance.
Well maybe then, I just don't know,
I'd love you for forever or so.

I love you, I love your laughter and I love your smile
just thinking of them cheers me up for a while
Oh sure you call stupid, then hit me with your books
But that only makes you perfect, regardless how it looks.
I love the look of your hair when it catches the sun
Just another reason why you're the only one
Then there's your eyes so perfect and beaut'ful
Their intense stare and the attention that they pull
I love it how I just can't stop thinking 'bout you
I love us talking makes things seem better too
I feel so comf'table telling you things
And you are my muse and so my heart sings
Talking to you's so much better than sleeping
And as I'm sure you know without you I'd be weeping
When I hear 'perfect' you spring to my mind
'Cause you're the only girl who is and you're one of a kind
I love how you call me Ade or even say my name
Girl you know I love and I know you feel same.
My poems about you, they got a much more lighter tone.
Compared to my old ones which now seem kind of drone.
Oh and when you read them, and you say that there good
Well lets just say it make me happier than it should.
I just feel so amazing every time I make you blush
And every time you do I get bit more of a crush
And when you get butterflies fluttering round inside
or when I've cheered you up, it fills me with such pride.
I love the way you make me think, I love how your lips taste
I love it how it feels, my arms wrapped round your waist.
I just feel so amazing, whenever we are close
They say love's a drug, well I've had an overdose
It's great that I can write of you, but I like the times I can't
You're so very perfect that there's no words I can supplant
You're perfect beyond words and distracting beyond measure
But you're a great distraction and it's always such a pleasure.
and I really love those times when I'm up till way past two
doing nothing all the while, except thinking about you.
Everything about you's interesting and you could never bore me
Regardless of if I understand or if I can really see.
You're the centre of the universe, the most important thing in life
The one thing that makes it worth every bit of strife.
Whenever ever I'm around you, the voices they are gone
Their endless dark is over and now it's time for dawn
Cause you are perfect in everything you say
I love you and wouldn't want life any other way
I could never tell you just how 'mazing you make me feel
Lets just say it's the one the feeling that I think's ideal
I don't think I've told you this enough so I'll say it yet again
You're so amazingly perfect that it's driving me insane
And whilst you've got all this, there is so much that I lack.
And so I'm quite amazed that you love me back.

Here I am, king of thieves,
she's out there, queen of the seas
but there is something I'll admit,
as all lord-like here I sit,
I miss the days so full of wonder,
risking being torn asunder,
just to adventure with the girl,
who makes my happy enough to twirl.
I want to quest and to explore,
with that girl that I adore,
her hair in the sun's great light,
or stolen kisses by moonlight,
what an adventure that would be,
if it were only you and me.

A soft, sweet laugh, a moment enjoyed,
a half hidden smile, people to avoid,
a moment of tenderness, of love unchecked,
a night long gone, but it was still perfect.

I should have told her how much I cared when she was here
Because now I can't yell "I love you" loud enough for her to hear

Sometimes you know something is going to hurt, but you do it anyway. Because some things are worth being hurt for.

Here I'll leave my poetry,
for you to read when you think of me,
and I hope you know that when you do,
girl I'm not thinking of you,
I'm busy with her cute, cute face,
and her **** body all clad in lace,
and perhaps you'll wish you had replied,
before all of my feelings died,
cause now she's got me in her bed,
and you've just got my words instead.

Slowly approaching, the final minute
Life goes on, without me in it,
There's no need for another goodbye,
You won't notice, and I will die,
Time goes on as the earth spins,
and in the end, time always wins.
Life goes on, without me in it,
From your story, I will omit
Myself

In my head rings the call, of my swiftly beating heart,
and I find my thinking, way back to the start.
Had I known the future then, what would I do?
Because the pain of loss, was a lot to go through.
But I like to think, I'd have still chosen this path,
though many wish otherwise, and on their behalf,
I will say this much, and this much only,
though so much has changed, I'll still die being me.

And yeah the *** might burn on it's way down
but it burns the voice I'm trying to drown.
It's Christmas Eve, pour me another drink,
quickly before my mind starts to think.
Maybe after one more round I won't feel the same,
maybe after the third I'll forget your name.

Either I'll love you forever, or one day I won't
and I'm not sure which option, scares me the most.
Forever feeling, the pain of losing you,
or that one day, your Ade, might just be a ghost.

My only good poems were to make her fall
because once she left, no one cared at all

I want to die when I find the right words
words as beautiful as the songs of birds

But I can't, the words left when she did
now I'm alone, just me and my id

The rhyme has gone, and reason has too
and so to the world, I bid you adieu

She called me Ade, just one last time,
and I was flooded with memories, of when she was mine.
Of every last moment, and each "I love you",
the dreams that we'd share, and the things that we'd do,
and though I'm in love with the girl that I see,
I'm all too aware, she doesn't love me,
but if just for a moment, I thought that she did,
I'd regret to no end, all the love I have hid.

I bite my lip, and I try not to cry
I'll blame it on there being, something in my eye
Because I haven't seen you in the longest time
and the girl in picture's not the one who used to make me rhyme
Her eyes are too dull and her hair is too dark
she's not the same girl I kissed in that park,
She grew up, she moved on and she's happy now
and I'm here thinking and I'm wondering how.
She said she'd love me forever but it didn't work out
so why is she still the one I'm dreaming about?
I'm not meant to miss a girl who doesn't even care
but with her I could've been happy anywhere
months come and months go and I'm still all alone
still sitting here reading all her texts on my phone
how did I let this happen when the one thing I knew
was that is that I would always, always. always love you

She was the ever untamed tide,
and I the beaten shore.
She was always coming in,
then fleeing out, once more.

And as the shore, awaits the sea
so to did I await her kiss.
And much like a neap-tide shore ,
she's the one thing that I miss

I never should have let you go,
I realize that now, just so you know,
You make me smile, more than I'll admit,
I'd stop this now, but I just can't quit.

A dear sweet muse, I've found again,
in the summery sun, not the cold dark rain,
she makes me laugh, she makes me smile,
she's had me writing, for a while.

I wish I wasn't stuck over here
Powerless as you shake with fear.
I wish I could run over there with haste
and wrap my arms round your perfect waist
Protect you from, your terrible dreams
and calm you when you wake with screams.
Hear my voice, then forget your fears
I'd kiss you and I'd dry those tears
I'd help you fix your broken sleep,
embrace you when you start to weep
You shouldn't deal with this alone
I'd be there with my loving tone

It's 2:00 AM and I'm still awake
I can't stop thinking for God's sake
Of her and all her perfection
She's the object of my affection
I just took things as they were
Now I can't stop thinking of her

Hollowness in my chest
Devouring my soul
Threatening to
Eat me whole.

**** me now
The voice is back
A moment of pain
All fades to black

Ever since I saw you from afar
and saw your eyes shining like a star,
each one a perfect little ellipse,
I've been dreaming of your lips.
So come on princess, come take my hand
and in this dying light we'll stand
alone together, our fingers entwined
the thought you, dancing on my mind.
My beautiful princess, with lips so sweet
because of you my heart beats fleet,
and when you leave, I will miss you
until this distance we eschew.

Thanks for the image, of her all in white,
it's not like I planned, on sleeping tonight,
and thanks for reminding, me that's she gone,
just when I got thinking, that I'm moving on,
and thanks for remembering, the earrings she wore,
and the infinite chances I don't have anymore,
and thanks for all of, the thoughts I don't need,
cause why write her poems, that she'll no longer read?

Oh, my dear, you're in love with a poet
and don't think for a second, he doesn't know it
of your every detail, he does fantasize
and then into poems, he does romanticize

Every time he makes you blush,
a little larger, grows your crush
and with each poem that makes you smile
you think about him, for a while.

You get stomach of butterflies
each time he writes, about your eyes.
and your heart, does little flips
when he writes, about your lips

At least he really hopes it does.
He hopes he's set your heart abuzz
Because he's a poet, and you're his muse
and you are perfect in, all his views.

My heart hungers for revenge and my sword it thirsts for blood
Those who thought they'd defy me hit the ground with a satisfying 'thud'
It's not my fault, I didn't do it.
We all know I was driven to it.
The smug looks, the mocking words
now they're just fodder for the birds
Stand in my way and I'll improve my renown
Make me look back and I shall cut. You. Down

May your god take mercy on you, I have none to spare
You can't do you what you did, and expect me not to care.

Isn't it funny we dealt with it the same way.
We ran to woods at the end of the day.
I was the one who talked to you the whole while
And I was the one, who helped you reclaim your smile.
Yet when I when I ran off, there was a cruel twist of fate
Because off to go find me, went the girl that you hate.

And I hate her for it.

I'm in love, that's all you need to know,
I'm still holding on, and I'll never let go,
She's the one, and I hope she'll be mine,
Without her, how could anything be fine?

I looked to the heavens, for my salvation,
and they came burning down
I went to the beach, to get away from the heat,
and in the water I started to drown
I ran off to the woods, to find me some peace
but they came and hunted me down
So I set off alone, and found my own place
a king all alone, with a knife, and a crown.

Don't give up hope, the news could be good,
you've had much more bad luck, than anyone should.
You deserve so much better, and I hope that's what you get,
so on the whole world that is hope, don't let the sun set.

Over the hills, the sun starts to rise,
and in my heart, all hope surely dies,
I love you little angel, but you're gone for good,
so I'm moving on, as you said I should.
Her hair isn't perfect. Her lips aren't sweet.
She's not the most beautiful girl, I ever did meet.
But the scars on my aback, from her well maintained nails,
feel like old times, and so my heart sails.
and I wish, that you were the one,
but oh well for now, I'll just have some fun.

Blank grey walls and an empty heart
I am awake and waiting for the pain to start.
Blank grey sheets and an empty bed
I can't silence the voices inside my head.
Blank grey floors but I'm already gone
I feel emotionless, empty and I am withdrawn
Blank grey eyes, and a ****** knife
Is this seriously all I'm doing with my life?

I knew I was never good enough for you
and know you finally, know it too
And I am crying, because you finally see
You always deserved someone better than me
I don't deserve to be happy, to laugh or smile
I haven't deserved to even live, not for a while
But throughout the pain, I force myself to
Because I still live, for the thought of you.
I know I did, a lot of bad stuff
but one day I might be good enough
Maybe for you, or maybe another
But for now I know, we've lost each other.



But I still swear to heaven above
That with you my dear, I'm still in love

I want to show you the words I write,
whisper them softly to you at night.
But you're too far away and the words aren't good enough
My reply is always 'nothing' and you don't care to call my bluff.

Far away with other people, in a place I just don't know
Far away beyond where I am, beyond the hills and snow
But I've a blade of ice and heart stone
so I can handle this being alone

Yet remember when you laid your head,
in my lap and on my bed?
Remember the smiles of our first date?
Why haven't I felt that as of late?

Time is a really killer, and yeah so is distance too
far two long are both, separating me and you
Now I know I'm not supposed to care,
but I still see your smile everywhere

In my dreams, when my eyes are closed
but I hide it and keep composed.
Far too long since I've seen your face
and even longer, since I made your heart race.

Oh please don't go, I can't do this
Oh please don't let that be our last kiss
Oh please don't go, I still love you
Oh please don't be just someone I knew
Oh please, don't say goodbye
Oh please, don't leave me here to die...

The angel fell and her pure white wings are turning black,
the way that things are now has got me wishing I could turn time back.
I'd unsay so many things, and I'd do so many more,
I'd live so very differently if I knew what life had in store.
But for now I'll sit alone, and dream of a purer day,
what was the point in anything, we stopped talking anyway.

I love you as much as anyone could
And honestly, it makes sense that I would
Perfect beyond reason,  perfect beyond doubt
And you're certainly not something I can live without

I thought I loved you as much as I could,
But I clearly don't love you as much as I should
Because you always find ways to make me love you more
And every time you prove your angelic perfection, I sit in awe

A month has passed, and there are still tears
A month has passed since my worst fears...
...came true

What's her name again?
Well it seems I just can't quite recall.
She's just a good distraction because
You just don't care at all

The gun's cold barrel against my head
If I pull the trigger then I'll be dead
I'll paint the wall with my blood so red
Free from the world, I will be dead.

Or swing my neck, from a rope
I've given up the notion of hope
And none will care, or cry or mope
They won't even notice, or so I hope

I just shouldn't have said a single thing,
then my ears would not ring,
with the sound of the pain, living will bring
and I wouldn't have to hear, the angels sing.

Oh well, too late now.

You call me Ade, my heart skips a beat
I can't help but feel my life's complete

You say goodbye, my world starts to fall
I can't help but hate how I've lost all

Please call me Ade, just one more time
So I can remember when you were mine

I wish you'd say yes, when I ask you out
Your voice isn't something I can live without

So please call me Ade, like you did before
Please call me Ade, at least once more.

I have no choice, but to be alright.
I can't be heartbroken, I've lost the right.

"Wrong number" said the familiar voice

You're over there, and the sun's yet to rise,
but here it's day and I'm still dreaming of your eyes.
I hope you sleep, so sound and perfectly,
you'll never know how much I want you here with me.
I've loved you for such a long time now,
and I know I'll be kissing you awake some day, some how

I understand why light bends, and why the skies are blue
But I can't possibly understand what it's like to be you
I understand how photons, are both particle and wave
but I have no idea, about the way females behave
Understanding science is as easy as three point one four
but the human brain is complicated and oh so much, much more.

Yet understanding you is so much more vital
than understanding DNA's full title
I understand the physics,
behind rudimentary time travel
But I don't understand why
when your around, my words they do unravel

But I feel you understand me,
and I can't return the favour.
Yet at least I understand poetry,
it's been a real life saver.

I have come to the realization
That people have, no imaginations.

So when things were the way they were
I couldn't imagine anyone as perfect as her.
So when I say there is no one better
Maybe I'm wrong, but I just haven't met her.
I can't imagine a future, she's not in
I don't even know, how to begin
But maybe there's a girl, who will allow me to
A new muse for my poems to refer to as "you"

But I can't imagine anyone as perfect as her
And there is no one on earth who I'd prefer

I stare into the mirror,
At the monster staring back,
And I polish up my horns,
And adjust my suit of black.

For such a long time I pretended,
That I was young, and wild, and free,
But I'm accepting who I am now,
There can be no you with me.

I was a poet writing poems,
For a girl I truly missed,
But now I'm just a demon,
With a purpose I can't resist.

But as I stare into the mirror,
For just a moment I can see,
The much lovelier kind of devil,
That you once saw in me.

Another goodnight, for a sleeping you,
a great many of these poems, I've come to accrue.
But still I say, goodnight, sleep well,
and in your dreams I hope you dwell,
on the things that give you a reason to smile,
and that you get many in the next little while.
I hope you wake up, to a perfect day,
and find such beauty reflected, by those eyes of blue-grey.

The fire laps, at my willing skin,
as I wait for my ending, to begin,
the heat it sears, and skin turns black,
as I hope this time, I won't come back,
but then water runs, along my arm,
this was just another, pointless harm,
yet I am glad, for harms distract,
and I need time, to recompose my act.

Here I beg, for death's sweet release,
so I can finally be at peace,
and no one cares, and no one knows,
about unimportant feelings such as those,
of suicide, and of the end,
and a wasted life, I couldn't spend

And to you my angel, I say goodnight
I'll forever love the beautiful sight,
Of your calm and resting face
Just as beautiful as, when I make your heart race.
This much I know, will be forever true
I will always, always love you