Either I'll love you forever, or one day I won't
and I'm not sure which option, scares me the most.
Forever feeling, the pain of losing you,
or that one day, your Ade, might just be a ghost.

With that first chance that you gave me
I messed up and now I see
I didn't deserve you at the time
But I still got to call you mine.

I didn't deserve that second chance
Try as I might with that romance
So I'm not surprised when pressure got high
You walked and left my heart to die

It seems you've come back yet again
Though the last two times I was to blame
I didn't deserve chances one and two
What makes you think I'll ever deserve you?

But you still think I'm worth a shot
And I still tell you that I'm not
But I'm in love and you are too
and all I want is to be with you.

So thank you for, chance number three
Perfect is all I'll let it be.
Because being with you, is the best thing ever
And all I want, is to love you forever

I looked at you, and my mind went 'wow'
Because I loved you then, and I love you now.
But you don't believe me, you think I'm lying
So now I lie here, and I'm slowly dying
Because I still love you, beyond compare
But you don't believe me, 'cause life's unfair
I remember all the kisses, we shared in the past
I can't believe, we may have had our last

The sound of her voice, like a melody slow
And the sight of her beauty, with it's perfect glow
The warmth of her body, pressed against mine
That look in her eyes, and their endless shine.
The days of perfection, so good times we did spend
Alone just us two, why did they end?
Her perfectly shaped lips, delicious and soft
And kisses that sent, my heart spiraling aloft.
All that is gone now, slipping away
If only she'd give me, just one more day.

Hollowness in my chest
Devouring my soul
Threatening to
Eat me whole.

**** me now
The voice is back
A moment of pain
All fades to black

She called me Ade, just one last time,
and I was flooded with memories, of when she was mine.
Of every last moment, and each "I love you",
the dreams that we'd share, and the things that we'd do,
and though I'm in love with the girl that I see,
I'm all too aware, she doesn't love me,
but if just for a moment, I thought that she did,
I'd regret to no end, all the love I have hid.

Bloodied knuckles, bleeding fist
at least that something I haven't missed.
I don't know what I did but I sure messed it up
as out of my hand I pull shards of cup
I just shouldn't have said anything
I should've know wasn't worth the trouble it'd bring
Why are you ****** of off? What have I done wrong?
It's times like this I realize, that life is too long.
Perhaps it'd be best, if I just said goodbye
I'm no use while living, so I might as well die.

She was the ever untamed tide,
and I the beaten shore.
She was always coming in,
then fleeing out, once more.

And as the shore, awaits the sea
so to did I await her kiss.
And much like a neap-tide shore ,
she's the one thing that I miss

Over the hills, the sun starts to rise,
and in my heart, all hope surely dies,
I love you little angel, but you're gone for good,
so I'm moving on, as you said I should.
Her hair isn't perfect. Her lips aren't sweet.
She's not the most beautiful girl, I ever did meet.
But the scars on my aback, from her well maintained nails,
feel like old times, and so my heart sails.
and I wish, that you were the one,
but oh well for now, I'll just have some fun.

I looked to the heavens, for my salvation,
and they came burning down
I went to the beach, to get away from the heat,
and in the water I started to drown
I ran off to the woods, to find me some peace
but they came and hunted me down
So I set off alone, and found my own place
a king all alone, with a knife, and a crown.

I can think of one-hundred and one
Reasons I love you, and you're the one

I can't think of one reason, why you'd love me
I don't think you do, and I think you'd agree.

I'm in love, that's all you need to know,
I'm still holding on, and I'll never let go,
She's the one, and I hope she'll be mine,
Without her, how could anything be fine?

I should have told her how much I cared when she was here
Because now I can't yell "I love you" loud enough for her to hear

Here I'll leave my poetry,
for you to read when you think of me,
and I hope you know that when you do,
girl I'm not thinking of you,
I'm busy with her cute, cute face,
and her **** body all clad in lace,
and perhaps you'll wish you had replied,
before all of my feelings died,
cause now she's got me in her bed,
and you've just got my words instead.

If I only had the words,
to say the things I feel.
If I could only let you know,
and explain that this is real.
If only I could find some way,
to take another chance.
If I could only hold your hand,
even for a single dance.
Well maybe then, I just don't know,
I'd love you for forever or so.

And yeah the *** might burn on it's way down
but it burns the voice I'm trying to drown.
It's Christmas Eve, pour me another drink,
quickly before my mind starts to think.
Maybe after one more round I won't feel the same,
maybe after the third I'll forget your name.

Your eyes are all dull and your cheeks are all red,
Forever with you? Ha I'd be better off dead.
You're such an ugly, manipulative, little piece of work
the thought I once called you perfect, makes me go berserk.
How could anyone love, someone like you,
how could I be so stupid as to once want to.

Our story started once upon a time
Now I am yours and you are mine.

Ours isn't a story I'll ever forget.
Though I can't remember when we first met

Our story is on a whole other level
You are an angel in love with the devil

My heart hungers for revenge and my sword it thirsts for blood
Those who thought they'd defy me hit the ground with a satisfying 'thud'
It's not my fault, I didn't do it.
We all know I was driven to it.
The smug looks, the mocking words
now they're just fodder for the birds
Stand in my way and I'll improve my renown
Make me look back and I shall cut. You. Down

May your god take mercy on you, I have none to spare
You can't do you what you did, and expect me not to care.

In my head rings the call, of my swiftly beating heart,
and I find my thinking, way back to the start.
Had I known the future then, what would I do?
Because the pain of loss, was a lot to go through.
But I like to think, I'd have still chosen this path,
though many wish otherwise, and on their behalf,
I will say this much, and this much only,
though so much has changed, I'll still die being me.

My only good poems were to make her fall
because once she left, no one cared at all

I want to die when I find the right words
words as beautiful as the songs of birds

But I can't, the words left when she did
now I'm alone, just me and my id

The rhyme has gone, and reason has too
and so to the world, I bid you adieu

I wish I wasn't stuck over here
Powerless as you shake with fear.
I wish I could run over there with haste
and wrap my arms round your perfect waist
Protect you from, your terrible dreams
and calm you when you wake with screams.
Hear my voice, then forget your fears
I'd kiss you and I'd dry those tears
I'd help you fix your broken sleep,
embrace you when you start to weep
You shouldn't deal with this alone
I'd be there with my loving tone

A month has passed, and there are still tears
A month has passed since my worst fears...
...came true

Slowly approaching, the final minute
Life goes on, without me in it,
There's no need for another goodbye,
You won't notice, and I will die,
Time goes on as the earth spins,
and in the end, time always wins.
Life goes on, without me in it,
From your story, I will omit
Myself

I never should have let you go,
I realize that now, just so you know,
You make me smile, more than I'll admit,
I'd stop this now, but I just can't quit.

Thanks for the image, of her all in white,
it's not like I planned, on sleeping tonight,
and thanks for reminding, me that's she gone,
just when I got thinking, that I'm moving on,
and thanks for remembering, the earrings she wore,
and the infinite chances I don't have anymore,
and thanks for all of, the thoughts I don't need,
cause why write her poems, that she'll no longer read?

"Wrong number" said the familiar voice

Ever since I saw you from afar
and saw your eyes shining like a star,
each one a perfect little ellipse,
I've been dreaming of your lips.
So come on princess, come take my hand
and in this dying light we'll stand
alone together, our fingers entwined
the thought you, dancing on my mind.
My beautiful princess, with lips so sweet
because of you my heart beats fleet,
and when you leave, I will miss you
until this distance we eschew.

The angel fell and her pure white wings are turning black,
the way that things are now has got me wishing I could turn time back.
I'd unsay so many things, and I'd do so many more,
I'd live so very differently if I knew what life had in store.
But for now I'll sit alone, and dream of a purer day,
what was the point in anything, we stopped talking anyway.

It's 2:00 AM and I'm still awake
I can't stop thinking for God's sake
Of her and all her perfection
She's the object of my affection
I just took things as they were
Now I can't stop thinking of her

Isn't it funny we dealt with it the same way.
We ran to woods at the end of the day.
I was the one who talked to you the whole while
And I was the one, who helped you reclaim your smile.
Yet when I when I ran off, there was a cruel twist of fate
Because off to go find me, went the girl that you hate.

And I hate her for it.

The curtain falls, and ushers in,
a blackness, mirrored deep within,
the stands are empty, the stage is dark,
my footsteps echo, as I embark.

And so I leave the stage behind,
the glorious world, where I once shined,
sans hope, sans light, sans life, sans air
I know where I'm going, and I'm not yet there.

I stare into the mirror,
At the monster staring back,
And I polish up my horns,
And adjust my suit of black.

For such a long time I pretended,
That I was young, and wild, and free,
But I'm accepting who I am now,
There can be no you with me.

I was a poet writing poems,
For a girl I truly missed,
But now I'm just a demon,
With a purpose I can't resist.

But as I stare into the mirror,
For just a moment I can see,
The much lovelier kind of devil,
That you once saw in me.

Oh, my dear, you're in love with a poet
and don't think for a second, he doesn't know it
of your every detail, he does fantasize
and then into poems, he does romanticize

Every time he makes you blush,
a little larger, grows your crush
and with each poem that makes you smile
you think about him, for a while.

You get stomach of butterflies
each time he writes, about your eyes.
and your heart, does little flips
when he writes, about your lips

At least he really hopes it does.
He hopes he's set your heart abuzz
Because he's a poet, and you're his muse
and you are perfect in, all his views.

I knew I was never good enough for you
and know you finally, know it too
And I am crying, because you finally see
You always deserved someone better than me
I don't deserve to be happy, to laugh or smile
I haven't deserved to even live, not for a while
But throughout the pain, I force myself to
Because I still live, for the thought of you.
I know I did, a lot of bad stuff
but one day I might be good enough
Maybe for you, or maybe another
But for now I know, we've lost each other.



But I still swear to heaven above
That with you my dear, I'm still in love

The fire laps, at my willing skin,
as I wait for my ending, to begin,
the heat it sears, and skin turns black,
as I hope this time, I won't come back,
but then water runs, along my arm,
this was just another, pointless harm,
yet I am glad, for harms distract,
and I need time, to recompose my act.

I guess that am fueled by spite,
More than anything else at all,
Cause it's 1am and here I write,
But it's not meant to make you fall

Don't give up hope, the news could be good,
you've had much more bad luck, than anyone should.
You deserve so much better, and I hope that's what you get,
so on the whole world that is hope, don't let the sun set.

The gun's cold barrel against my head
If I pull the trigger then I'll be dead
I'll paint the wall with my blood so red
Free from the world, I will be dead.

Or swing my neck, from a rope
I've given up the notion of hope
And none will care, or cry or mope
They won't even notice, or so I hope

I just shouldn't have said a single thing,
then my ears would not ring,
with the sound of the pain, living will bring
and I wouldn't have to hear, the angels sing.

Oh well, too late now.

She'll love you forever,
but I think that you'll find,
Forever just means,
till she changes her mind.

So don't waste a moment,
make the most of each day,
I know love is fleeting,
but you should love anyway.

You call me Ade, my heart skips a beat
I can't help but feel my life's complete

You say goodbye, my world starts to fall
I can't help but hate how I've lost all

Please call me Ade, just one more time
So I can remember when you were mine

I wish you'd say yes, when I ask you out
Your voice isn't something I can live without

So please call me Ade, like you did before
Please call me Ade, at least once more.

I want to show you the words I write,
whisper them softly to you at night.
But you're too far away and the words aren't good enough
My reply is always 'nothing' and you don't care to call my bluff.

Far away with other people, in a place I just don't know
Far away beyond where I am, beyond the hills and snow
But I've a blade of ice and heart stone
so I can handle this being alone

Yet remember when you laid your head,
in my lap and on my bed?
Remember the smiles of our first date?
Why haven't I felt that as of late?

Time is a really killer, and yeah so is distance too
far two long are both, separating me and you
Now I know I'm not supposed to care,
but I still see your smile everywhere

In my dreams, when my eyes are closed
but I hide it and keep composed.
Far too long since I've seen your face
and even longer, since I made your heart race.

Blank grey walls and an empty heart
I am awake and waiting for the pain to start.
Blank grey sheets and an empty bed
I can't silence the voices inside my head.
Blank grey floors but I'm already gone
I feel emotionless, empty and I am withdrawn
Blank grey eyes, and a ****** knife
Is this seriously all I'm doing with my life?

Oh please don't go, I can't do this
Oh please don't let that be our last kiss
Oh please don't go, I still love you
Oh please don't be just someone I knew
Oh please, don't say goodbye
Oh please, don't leave me here to die...

Within my poetry my words are elegant
but talking to you it becomes evident
that you make my words a savage mess
I keep saying the wrong things I guess
I don't mean to hurt, to mess up, to annoy,
my once strengthening words now seem to destroy
but I swear my intentions were the best
I really do care, you're different to the rest
Around you my words seem to fail
but I still hope our friendship prevails

What's her name again?
Well it seems I just can't quite recall.
She's just a good distraction because
You just don't care at all

And to you my angel, I say goodnight
I'll forever love the beautiful sight,
Of your calm and resting face
Just as beautiful as, when I make your heart race.
This much I know, will be forever true
I will always, always love you

There is no point, all is dust,
my life will end, as all things must.
No feeling is worth the pain of life,
a pointless waste, filled with strife.
So with this blade I'll end it all
and into peace, I'll finally fall.

"Eppur si muove."
"And yet it moves."
The truth's the truth,
regardless who approves.

I miss the days, when I could say,
all the things I needed to,
When I could stutter through some poems,
And explain why I love you.

I miss the days when I could call,
At 2AM in tears,
And you would be there for me,
And brush away my fears.

I miss the days when I was there,
And you were by my side,
When you laughed your sweet sweet laughter,
And I didn't have to hide.