They tell me i'm crazy
That i'm a danger to myself
I won't do it again I promise them
No one listens
I'm taken to the hospital
They give me medicine and tell me to stay still
I do as they ask
But I wonder what I did to deserve this
They give me new clothes, scrubs, as some would call them
They show me to my room and I meet my roommate
He gets out in a day
I won't be so lucky
Its night time
I met everyone in the facility
No one ever shows a happy face
No one ever offers me love
I'm lying in bed
I notice how safe everything is
The beds made of plastic, rounded edges
I stare at the ceiling
I eventually fall asleep
I don't know what I was thinking to do so
But I was sound asleep
I dream of the last couple of days
I'm hanging out with my friends
They were never the nicest people
They gave me death threats
Told me to **** myself
One day they got to me
I had lost all hope of a future
So I found my ADHD medicine
And took every last pill
My parents found me the next day
Lying in bed, dazed and confused
I could barely move a muscle
So they called 911
I wake up and find myself in the hospital
I'm crying uncontrollably
My roommate looks at me and walks away
Why does no one care?
I get out of bed
I brush my teeth
They take my pulse
I eat my breakfast
They have a boring activity for us to do
Coloring children's books
They even bring the stress of your homework
Up into the hospital
The only "fun" thing we do
I when they bring us to the indoor track
I walk around the track and I meet a girl younger than me
She is bisexual just like me
We get along well and I thought for once i had an actual friend
But later I come to find out
That after you get out
Your not allowed to talk to them again
So everyday that gets closer to getting out I dread
Because it just means i'm closer and closer
To never seeing her face again
And losing the only real friend I have
The day finally comes
The doctors come and talk with me
They ask if I believe i'm ready to leave
I lie
I tell them I think i'm ready
I pack my clothes up
I brush my teeth one last time
And I go to say goodbye
But right when I look in her room
I see her smiling
Shes talking to her new roommate
I want to hug her
But we aren't allowed physical contact
So I turn around
And I leave
And I never come back
Personal experiences of a hospital mental ward