Juice freshly squeezed
From poisoned apples I sip
Happiness as I knew it
Has seized to exist
Without you I can't sleep
I've tried and tried
But all night
Your smile keeps me counting sheep
Days pass but it only gets tougher
To live is to suffer
To love is suicide
Inside my mind memories I hide
I reminisce your presence
My now's no longer a present
My face craves your touch
Since you
That good
It's never felt as such
My cheeks miss your lips
Withdrawn from your magic
My mind flips
A love story gone tragic
Before it even started
My heart ripped
Into pieces
When we parted
Away those pieces are sweeped
In the trash they are heaped
Jesus!
These thoughts make me weep
On a ***** so steep
I'm hanging off the tip
Trying to get a grip
Acquainted with grief
Searching for peace
Watching water drip
Off the surface of a leaf
Observing people breathe
And trees swayed by the breeze
Playing the same old songs on repeat
I'm looking for some kind of relief
Apart from diving in for a swim
In a pool of liquor that's cheap
Aware you hear me not when I speak
And this poem you might never read
But know I know no bliss
Though I see the lamp in the tunnel lit
The one placed at the end of it
My dear, you are greatly missed
From within my soul deep

No matter how hard I try
or how much you show
it's undeniable truth
that in the end
we're just parallels
who happened to be rather close.
(it's not nice hearing almost
when someone else got their
forever with you)

Great Teacher

Forgiven when seen
Seen through to you
For the while
I’ve seen myself

To find yourself
Tis I you seek
All the while
Amidst you free

Love thy self
Know truest love
No truer being
In forever’s touch

Alas we come
Away we go
From wince we came
In heavens name

Kingdom's Heaven

My how happy we are
when we haven't a thought to bar

The thinker then is not thee
For "I" think, "I" thought, "I" mustn't see

You will find what you seek
Be it wrong or right is self-deceit

Our purpose then is to play
A thinker's game, the thinker's way

Hitherto, we have been blind
Unawareness less we find

"It" was always with you
Though, "It" was never given

The answer is amidst you
In Kingdom's Heaven

The Secret

You probably know that currently you’re wasting your life
Dwindling down to nothing into the point you’ve already known

That with no further adieu you must begin what it is that you must do
Until the faithful day you realize you’ve wasted much of your time
You will still do nothing

Weather it be the age 21 or of 89 makes no difference when you start
It is just wonderful watching yourself along the way to the one moment
When you finally see for yourself what it means to be alive
That is the moment when you will say to yourself

“I will be ****** if I only knew then what I know now.”