or was i
that
stupid

sweetheart
we could never
feel stupid
around
you

call
me
lover

we don't have your number

no
call me
lover
she
was so smart
?












...
..
.

No one could understand My inner Torment.
.
It's Softly.. Slowly Destroying me from my Core ...Restraining me
from doing things according to my will and wishes
.
The memory of the past was too Painful and full of Melancholy that I wanted Obliterate it Entirely from my Faultless Mind...
.
.
I want to emancipate my mind from these stupid feelings that just comes so suddenly almost every-time.
.
"if only i could rewrite all the things that happened in my life and place everything in place, so that i wouldn't feel so very sad at all
whenever i reminisce those things that happened in my elapsed time."
.
"I will savor those precious moments that had happened in the past and the things that are still about happen, so that in time i won't have to regret things anymore."

You are too old with not enough experience

I am a drunk.
Like the angry town fool
Stumbling through the darkened streets.

I am like a blind bird
Flying through a sea of skyscrapers.
Just waiting for the moment I crash.

I am sad.
Like the sea on a rainy day
For no one wants to drop by to say hello.

I am lost.
Like a child at the store
Wandering as my fear happily chokes me

I am hopeful.
Like an addict gambling
All my life saving on a “sure win”.

I am unsure.
Like a doctor staring at a dying child
As I’m holding a “might work” treatment.

I just want to be ok.

-ARI