BOY #1
his eyes were as blue
as the deepest sea
his touch
exciting
his voice
as beautiful as Beethoven's symphony 5
the things he said could make any girl
believe that he loved them
only thing is
he didn't give a ******* ****
about me

BOY #2
his hair was as puffy and soft
as a baby bunny's fur
his words touched me in ways
only hands should be able to
his lips fixed wounds I thought
only doctors can fix
a moment with him was never dull
the stories he told me made
me want him more
"i had to jump the wooden gate
the cops were after me"
I couldn't help but smile
I gave you me
and you gave me you
but did you give yourself
to me like how I gave myself
to you

BOY #3
the height of Mt Rushmore
the style of Skateboarder's new model
your jokes were funny
but the way you treated me
after you got what you wanted wasn't
we laid in your bed and you held my hand
I rested my head on your shoulders
I trusted you
but I wasn't anything important to you

BOY #4
skin
dark as night
innocence
like a child
you were different
I wasn't attracted to you
but you liked me
so I let you give yourself to me
and before I knew it
you told your mama I was "a mistake"
we were the talk of the school

BOY #5
his hair was as puffy and soft
as a baby bunny's fur
his words touched me in ways
only hands should be able to
his lips fixed wounds
I thought only doctors can fix
and by now you would assume I
would've learned already
but this boy like no other
this boy excites me
I cant help but want his attention
****** allure maybe
whatever it is
I need him

(not done)

Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
While my heart continued breaking
Day by day I was drowning in my tears
Crying myself to sleep every night
Wondering why he left me to dry
With an overwhelming desire for one more last love bite,
For you to give us one more try

But now I feel dead inside
Without you here holding my hand
I would run back for you but
I have too much pride
Everything's gone, you, me, our names in the sand

Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
Though my heart continues breaking
I still love you after all the tears

Cold steel slides across my skin.  
In so much pain. I let you in.
Now I bleed red.
I'm better off dead.

My life is cheap
30 pills and the bottle only puts me to sleep
A rope from a deck
didn't stretch out my neck
A gallon of gas
But my life didn't pass
And a blade, at least one for each finger
And yet my life seems to linger

I'm come to the conclusion
that happiness is an illusion.
And the only one who can take my life

Is the girl I gave a knife.
The girl I owe my life
The girl who causes my strife.
The girl who I love.

My name is wrath
I'm full of hate
full of anger
And I can not wait

I'll make you trip
I'll make you fall
I'll steal your world
Then burn it all

There is no mother
From which I spawn
There is no father
To do me wrong

Satan's the boss
He is my lord
My every action is his word

My name is wrath
So write it down
Because I'll carve a path
then make you down

There is no pity
There is only fear
There is no God while I am here

I don't feel free
I don't feel like me
How could it be

I want to die
I want to fly
I'm that guy

A funeral of no tears
Not even from my peers
Just snide remarks and leers

There were too few
To fill one pew
And I didn't see you

I'm not worth it
Just someone upon you spit
It feels like my hearts been bit

So whether heaven or hell
I'll wish you well
Afterall, my death was under your spell

It's late At night
I don't feel alright
It's like he is here beside me
I don't know how that could be

I thought I had so long
I guess I was really wrong
With his skeleton hands
His Flaming head band

Hello death my old friend
You said you'd greet me at the end
Why so soon?
Was I such a goon?

I finally see your soulless eyes
You look at me with despise
I see how you eternally cry
When each soul must say good bye

Life was overrated
But death is poorly stated
I don't see a heaven
I don't see a hell
Might want to wish me well.

I see those who passed
Those who didn't last
Those for who I cared
Those who feelings i had shared

the last of the living
The last of the thinking
The last of the being

Because that's what we are
we are the last

I count the hours,
I count the days.
Since you left me.
How much I miss you,
I count the ways.

I miss your voice,
I miss your touch.
And I miss the face,
That I love so much.

You used to call me baby
Shortie, my world, my love
You used to tickle me and tease me
And say you loved me to the moon
And back.
Darling boy,
You were so in love!

So why cant you just love me again?
Oh my darling boy
I’ve tried in vain
To forget your golden eyes
And smiling face
But that is impossible.
But you seemed to have
Forgotten me.

I so badly wish you loved me.
Once again.
I long to feel
Your warm embrace.
And to see a smile,
Upon your face.
Just one more time.

How to describe it,
There is no way.
The feeling
that is driven deep in my heart
I walk around,
In a permanent daze.

You were pure and sweet
Dangerous and troubled
All at the same beautiful time
You are truly perfect my darling boy.

I miss you so much my darling boy,
To the moon and back again.
And this feeling will go on,
Forever and ever, my darling boy.