Make me feel like somebody new,
Somebody that wakes up and doesn’t feel as though they convey the weight of the world
on their remarkably un-muscular shoulders.
Make me feel like somebody who does have muscular shoulders,
at least then, the daily scuffle may feel somewhat manageable.
Allow me to wake up, make up and persevere with my day.
Let me feel as though every word that emanates from my mouth
was not the wrong thing to say.
When the tone of my voice seems stupidly louder than intended,
and I push away people I’m lucky to have befriended.
I’m not always like this.

Grief hits me
like a punch to the face
I see the casket being lowered
covered in lace

My hands shake
my heart breaks
nothing is good anymore
because he's gone

There's no hope
to carry on
reminders of him
plague my mind
he will never be
left behind

Life without him
is like being blind
nobody is the same
everyone is too kind

But there's still hope that
maybe he's waiting for me
because it's not the same
without him

It will never be