Stars blink
Once
Twice
Three times
They seen to say
You'll see another day

sometime love its told like a joke with a bad punchline
but would would rather be punched to the deepest black and blue
then get a ***** in the heart but the ***** in my heart was you

The reason why I love you
Must be because I hate myself.
I know, this time and place doesnt help.
But baby this is worse
than any pain I've ever felt

You're killing me slowly  
day by day
I bleed
and my wounds remain unknit,
to spill my guts to the floor to
leave me open
stranded

He watches from aside,
As I kiss his picture
and take my own life
I wonder if he'd even cry
If he had watched me die

She feels so lost, so alone
Emptiness consumes her soul
Her world has just become unknown
Surrendered to the knife of strife
Cuts so deep, cuts that bleed
Smothered she is by the knife of life

Her heart is ripped to shreds
Her young mind is surrounded by fear
False promises ring in her head
Demons are overtaking her soul
Sacrificed she becomes to the blade
Her release from the never ending cold.

Staring off into the wide open sky
She sees all the stars that shine so bright
Hope starts to glisten back in her eyes
Escaping from all that consumed her mind
the smile once lost, is finding its way back
Slowly but surely…in time

The knife wins again, this time deep
Extreme emotion floods her body
The blood runs down to meet her feet
Her eyes drift off and start to fade
Her world has just come to close
Her soul surrendered to the blade


She screams out for help in her own little way
But no one is there…
She is left in the shadows, left behind in the darkness

Say goodbye from afar,
Watching in that long red dress
Surrounded by the men in suits at the bar,
That gaze just aching finesse

Dancers swaying in the tropical breeze,
The wind sighing through those tropical trees,
Eyes murmur a silent song,
Before the dawn breaks, I’ll be long gone

Girl, please go, I tremble in your sight,
To leave, not stay, it’s taking all my might,
Your grace is etched in my mind, all throughout the fight,
The world is out there to explore

Say goodbye from afar
Watching in that long red dress,
Surrounded by the men at the bar
That gaze just weeping finesse

The tear weeps down your cheek,
That upright pose that will not break,
Watching them, watching you watching me,
Alone at night, is looking more bleak

Girl, please go, I tremble in your sight
To leave, not stay, it’s taking all my might
Your grace is etched in my mind, all throughout the fight,
The world is out there to explore

Please write me your letters
Although in darkness, I will reply
Though in pain I’ll feel better
With them clutched to my chest like that I’ll die
Like that I’ll die

Like that I’ll die

Say goodbye from afar,
Watching in that long red dress
Surrounded by the men in suits at the bar,
That gaze just aching finesse

sitting in the bus
I hold these moments dear
maybe if im silent the time will slowly still
looking out the window it doesn't slow the pace
just tell me im not someone who will be surly be replaced
I don't know any words to ease your pain today
all I know is that soon ill be on my way

when we were little
we all had ambition
we all saw potential in us
we all knew what we wanted
what happened
what happened to
*** is gross
what happened to
drugs are bad
what happened to
believing in ourselves
what happened to
waking up with smiles
what happened to
making promises we promise not to break
"we all grew up"
they say
no
we didn't grow up
we all just became sad
and knew no other way
we all got lost at some point
we all misunderstood what it meant to grow up
what happened to
telling mommy and daddy we'll make them proud

A burden is the depression settling in around you like a rain cloud over only your head.
Walking from place to place soaking wet from the storm.
You are cold, you are sick, you are not okay.

2. A burden is the anxiety shaking your body until you feel like you might burst at the seams.
People can see that your hands won't stay still, and they stare.
You are trembling, you are scared, you are not okay.

3. A burden is the rumors your "best friend" has spread around the whole freshman class.
Secrets exposed to people you don't even know.
You are found out, you are alone, you are not okay.

4. A burden is the thought of suicide bouncing around your head.
The thought of death so good, yet so bad.
You are confused, you are conflicted, you are not okay.

5. A burden is reaching out for help and being punished.
No longer allowed to talk to those they told you would help.
You are lost, you are unprotected, you are not okay.

6. A burden is not a student who has experienced 1-5.
A  student who yearns so much to get better, and just keeps getting pushed down.
A student who is terrified, who is lonely, who is not okay

7. You called yourself a mental health professional.
But 8. would never deal with this student yourself.
and 9. called her a burden to the entire campus.

But the campus is unaffected, the campus is stable, and the campus is okay.

So did you mean the campus would be better off without me?

Or that you would?

One last winter walk—
Little clouds falling all round,
Snowfields between us.