I am no longer
afraid to be a human being
to feel the sunshine
beat down on my skin
to feel the rain
soak me

to feel the pain
of stubbing my toe
against the railings

to walk barefoot
on the cold concrete
while dressing my wounds

I am afraid of
living a life
without purpose
a life filled only
with the selfish desires
of my flesh.

I am afraid
of my soul dying
without
knowing You.

Objectivity and its complexity
Driving me to utter insanity

Oh life and its unpredictable abnormality.
A subjective thought once abstract and full of morality.

Restrained and now sedimentary.

In my mind what once lit on fire,
Turns obstructed, objective, and dire.

For I may not have all I desire,
But my mind will never migrate.

Forever within me lies
A place to dream, love, believe, and hope.

Trapped within the universe
A power defined by no such scope

I may fool myself,
But dont be fooled you dont.
I mean yourself
To think you know.

Its a deeper meaning,
A closer look,
The ones-self i mean
To define as a whole.

Its not just this term
That words cant describe.
Each letter of any language,
The meaning depends on how you write.

But who gives the meaning?
And how it came to be?
If someone continuesly trys to wonder,
The mind will set to agony.

Your only comfort is your inner peace
And you constantly looking to find.
What many have died in search for,
Its only a threat and your mind will decline.

So you can't understand yourself,
Because there is no meaning in ones-self.
Its a paradox world which you only have to accept.