There's a huge disconnect when I see your face
that memories have burned themselves
far too much to resemble ashes
and as I try to rearrange the picture
it seems the person I knew
does not exist anymore.
the person I tried so hard to forget
when you were the only one
I wanted to remember
I can't rush back to the start
and not notice how much you've changed.

There's something so beautiful about being in love, not with a person, but with the life you live.

there once was an englishman
and he treated me as well as the bee treat the flowers as they land,
and the englishman told me everyday,
how much he truly loved me,
how he loved me as if I was the only girl around,
how he told me I would be the sexiest girl in any town,
and the englishman told me he loved me,
and it took me quite a while to actually believe,

but, this englishman did other things for me,
when he'd talk I feel in love with his voice,
and his smartness,
and his jokes,
and his way to always throw into the conversation,
a million compliments,
and I could barely find the words to say thank you most times,
and I was shocked to hear all the lovely things he had said about me,
rather than the usually flaw countdown party I got daily,

and I hated myself,
that I could not say I love you back,
for a while I don't know why I didn't believe,
why I felt like it was too good to be true,
and how I wanted to grow up each second I spoke to him,
so I could move away to see him,

so, I truly loved this person,
and I kept thinking and waiting,
for when,
he'd stop,
loving me too,

My path of thinking is not the same,

and you’re the only one I have to blame,

Because when I look into your eyes

I’m drowning in a sea of captivation,

Not even struggling nor fighting the temptation.

There is no resistance as I sink,

Not even a need to think,

The decision has been firmly made,

To the bottom of your sea I will gladly wade,

Even as the water fills my lungs

And the light starts to fade,

I’ll smile and be in pure ecstasy,

Because you would’ve been the last person I laid eyes on,

The last person next to me.

My mind cannot stay peaceful
When you keep pushing back our time
My heart races more
Fears continuously climb.

My stomach sits uneasy,
My heart heavy in my chest,
You know, this isn't the first time
You're proving to be just like the rest

It's the same lullaby's whispered so sweetly in my ear,
Telling me just about every word I've ever wished to hear,
But please darling, tell me
How long do you evade those you claim most dear?

In all our time together
You’ve come to mean so much to me
You are my best friend
And I'll always be glad I met you
I know I can be a pain sometimes
Just know that I mean well
I'd probably be a mess
If i hadn't met you
as much as I've helped you
You've helped me too
So I'll repay you by letting you
Know how great you are
And know that I mean every word
The world is full of many people
But there is only one of you,
One perfect amazing beautiful you

Im sorry, I'm being a ****** person.
I'm acting like someone I don't want to be.
worst I keep making you feel ****** about it all.
You are just so beautiful
So funny, so down to earth
So understanding and beautiful
I know I said beautiful twice.
I'm sorry I'm too weak to resist touching you
kissing you, wanting you for myself.
I hate that it seems like that's why I ask you to come over.
So I can try to kiss you
Its not
I meant it when I said I wouldn't try
Unfortunately I did and I'm sorry for that.

This sunlight can be like a lamp through trees
when it feels like the sun has followed me across a field
finding me with the trees and the horses and small animals
smelling the grass

And I can wear your friends coat
and it will keep me smiling through the cold
eat cereal dry from the box
sitting on a fallen tree
fill the ghastly centre of me
to find it's more like a strange warmth

These clouds can be like some distant lands
And i can be afraid of the mud and the sand and the twigs
because i love them
and i can be afraid of your hand
because it can lead me to the rest of you

I can be alone on the pavement
on the concrete road
and call it a mood and i know what that means
with the houses bending around me
corners on roads waiting

Only one place will be like this
where the moon falls into the sea
I'll feel my heart beating on the stones
see the words sitting in between us
and people who never found me

This music can be like the rain sometimes
and it can be like the shelter
And I will find us a fallen stairway
You will find us a hole in the ground
We can find a space to be in

Along a path
I can touch everything
and let it go
and i will feel how it feels
like leaves and words
I'll fall into spirals
like leaving my body
fall on the ground
in the sky
roll in the dirt
cry and cry and cry
or smile

I will climb the ladder of this silo
with the mud from your boots on my hands
and we can see the fields together
when your smell is still quite new to me
the air will smell like rivers this day
and the world will look like pale light
and you can bring me biscuits on the swing
while i wait for you to see your family
and it won't be normal

once I thought i could taste the world sometimes
it will happen again probably