#panic poems on Hello Poetry

jennifer Aug 2019

i have a staring contest with the chalkboard
my mind quite empty except hearing the teacher's faraway voice that fills the room
again and again and
snap
something inside me snaps
like a rope that has built up mutual unbearable tension
a candle of fuzziness is lit
yet a feeling of drowning gradually envelopes me
head to toe
the plug connecting my mind and my body
burns from the fuzziness
the feeling is an ocean
so foreign
my mind questions everything
am i alive?
is this real?
why do we all exist?
after wandering a mile a second
reaching a certain limit
the candle turns to wildfire
panic
suddenly i am burning
my knuckles white as i desperately grasp the desk
i no longer hear anything
never thinking i could miss
voices of those around me as much
and as if a bright light illuminates
my eyes tightly clench closed

i know it hardly lasted a minute but it felt like
eternity
the rest of that day and week
and month and year
dissociation
panic attacks
out-of-body experiences
greeted me often with an embrace

#anxiety #depression #panic #sad

Ruheen Aug 2019

Panic!

A heavy feeling on my chest,
Almost like the pressure of water.
The pressure of sinking.
Then I'm drowning.
In my anxiety.
I begin breathing rapidly.
Short breaths.
Uneven.
Because I can't take it in.
I can't take in the oxygen.
It feels like it just bounces,
Back up.
I feel something.
Something like fear,
But not really.
It takes a while,
But then it hits.
I'm panicking.
Panic.
That's what I feel.

And it scares the crap out of me.

Ironic. I'm scared of panicking.
I get panic attacks. They aren't so bad, don't leave too much damage, but I was also told to not ignore them.

#panic #not #at #the #disco

Hello Daisies Aug 2019

Needle and thread

***** my body
The needles thread through me
Pierce me Pierce me
I'm crying in thread
Inside I'm mostly dead

I knot inside
Shooting the needle down me
Slicing softly my skin bleeds
I'm aching on my knees

Help me help me
No one hears me
All I ever cry
Help me help me
The thread is twisting

No one's to blame
It's such a shame
After all the twisting
My thread is slowly ripping

Center in my arms
Give me more scars
Stabbing stabbing
Where's my mommy and daddy

They left me to bleed
They broke their seed
needles run inside
Laughing and breaking my sanity

I'm dying I'm dying
God help me I'm crying
The needles are physical
Not metaphorical

Bruise my skin
I let the craft win
What is it creating
I'm still awaiting

I think it's trash
My colors all clash
If you throw me away
Will it stop the gruelling pain

Please I beg
God please lay me to bed
I've had far too much thread
My blood is turning to lead

The needles crept in long ago
They put on a menacing show
I want to go home
But there's...no where to go

My needle can't be tied off
The thread only falls
Blood platters
My heart clatters
I'm left untied
God please you know how hard I've tried

Tie my thread off for good
Please, if you would
Stop the sew
End me and all that I know

I'm in a lot of pain I think it's anxiety but my God it hurts like needles in my arms and tben they feel like a heart attack

#anxiety #panic #disorder #depression #suicide #sad

Poet X Jul 2019

no place like home, right ?

They say there is
no place like home.

But I’d rather be anywhere
than my own mind.

It’s very crowded in here.

Too many faces Too many faces Too many faces

#crowds #panic #attack #anxiety #demons #mind

Sabila Siddiqui Jul 2019

Anxious

Thoughts eating away at my brain,
mouth drying away,
lips sealing my shrieking soul away,
tongue stuttering away,
heart palpating away,
lungs having no air,
muscles fidgeting away,
fear crippling my soul away,
nails chipping away,
stress rushing to my brain,
vision blurring away,
tears streaming down my face,
body trembling away
as anxious nerves take me away.

#thoughts #drying #shrieking #palpating #lungs #fidgeting #chipping #nails #anxious #panic

Sabila Siddiqui Jul 2019

Time

Time is slipping.
moments are fading,
deadlines are approaching
and emotions are changing.

Everything is
modifying,
dimming,
evolving
and reforming.

It's a tightening feeling in the chest
that catches my breath.
But then I exhale
letting it loose.

Life is moving forward,
days are coming close,
anxiety is getting worse
and I don't feel prepared.

But I have today,
I have this moment,
I can make something of this time.
Little by little,
day by day,
it will be alright.

#time #anxiety #panic #deadline #day #little #steps #forward

CautiousRain Jul 2019

Trigger

It’s a trigger, I think.

I’ve had a talk like that one
a million times
in three voices, two men, one woman,
in my many nightmares,
in my day to day living,
I’ve heard that one too many times.

A swirling tunnel,
a downcast drain, flushing
twisting impressions
of time and space, corrupted
in their voices
in my ears
and I think, surely,
that had to be a trigger.

rest in pieces my sanity

#rambles #vent #venting #triggers #anxiety #panic

imperfectstranger Jul 2019

Undeniable Ticks

It’s just a
           Tick
                   Tick
                           Tick
Wracking my brain
           Tick
                  Tick
                          Tick
Programmed to drive me crazy
           Tick
                  Tick
                          Ticking
Taking over my thoughts
           Tick
                  Tick
                         Ticks
Making it hard to sleep
           Tick
                  Tick
                         Tick
I need to escape
           Tick
                  Tick
                         Tick
My very own brain

#ticks #anxiety #panic #escape #trapped #brain #head #alone #tick #insomnia

Poet X Jul 2019

drowning in a world full of air

the people
the.. bodies
the humans..
the faces,
too many
too many faces.

I thought maybe I would be okay,
that I can do this on my own,
but my mind betrays me once again,
my lungs and heart go faster than I can carry them.

there's no way out,
I'm in too deep
yes I'm drowning

but nothing
can save me .

#panic #attack #drowning #save #crowd #spinning #deep

Tetra Hachiko Jul 2019

Not Today

You say you dont know who you are
You rearing to leave us a scar
I still dont understand the way
You sulk through life each day
Not that im one to pass
But im getting quite crass
With the way you say
Nothing is better today

#panic #nottoday #bad #conversation #outlook