my existence makes sense
all I want is to exist forever
I can't help but wish to never have existed at all .
I don't want to exist today.
let me drown in the
vastness of my own consciousness .
let me sleep,
sleep once without waking up tired .
tired from the same feelings
that left me tired the night before .
a plead from an insomniac
Just put the bottle down
Before your liver turns black
Stop drowning in your sorrows.
Face them instead
Staying sober won’t **** you
It’ll do the opposite
Cause your drinking
It’s not just hurting your insides
It’s also hurting mine
if we humans were only ever meant to be beautiful
we wouldn't have been born in
the dirt .
you don't need to change .
I swear I’m not a love poet but
makes me scared of dying .
I know what it’s all about now,
I get why the sun rises
and the moon sets.
I understand why the stars shine
and the birds chirp.
I get why the heart beats
and the lungs breathe.
I get it now,
why I’m alive.
loving you is the only thing I feel good at .
i just don't think there is any metaphor,
i don't think i can censor or hide this
i don't want to die,
i just wish i never existed in the first place.
that's all .
its always been a wonder to me,
what keeps everyone waking up every morning ?
what gets you out of bed?
what can be so strong
that overcomes the want to not exist .
or is it just me ?