Every night I look up to the sky
wondering if you see me
I talk with my face to space
wondering if you hear me

Every night I look at the stars
looking for the brightest one
because I know that that's you
you will always shine the brightest

Every night I ask you if you're alright
you deserve to be
because you did well
and you work hard
you deserve to know that

Every night I tell you that you're worth it
that you fought so well
and that I will never leave your side
because you're not alone

Every night I ask myself
why it still hurts so much
this aching pain inside my heart
no matter what I do
it isn't fading

Every night the tears stream down my face
while listening to your beautiful songs
Breath, Lonely, End of a Day
they all say how you really felt

Every night I feel sorry
that I couldn't erase your pain
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you
even when you screamed for help in your songs
we still didn't hear it

Every night I realise
you made me happy
you made we laugh
even though you were in pain
you still made me smile

Every night I wonder
if you're finally at peace now
no more tears, no more pain
just happiness and love

Every night I thank you
for the beautiful memories
and for the meaningful songs you left behind
I will treasure it forever

Every night I hope that you're looking down
watching over us
looking back at the beautiful memories you made here
with your members, family, friends and fans

And every night I tell you that I love you
I love you Jonghyun-ah

I died on a Sunday.
My body numb from her words
Punctured in my heart .
Breathless. I could not inhale the change . I buried the pain and turned the page .
My life was traded with the unknown.
I mourned the loss of the future and not the past. Everything I had hoped for was ripped from my grasp .
That was the end of me .

Nobody told me about this side of life
The dark and eerie
The secrets of sinners
Lost and mislead
Sad and lonely
Broke and hungry
The side of life I put myself in

Been little Debbie broke
That's two honey buns shared
Over three square meals
Slept with the tv on
Sound of static drown out the noise of hunger
Had my priorities more ****** up
Then Eric Wright had priority

Seen my brother forced to the streets
Falsely accused
And called upon way to soon
Six years after my mother suffered
Two rounds of chemo couldn't stop it
Doctors that waited to long
She fought to hold on
But eventually even the strongest is called on
Two great souls the lord stole

Perfect maybe
Definitly greedy
Cause I sit here having flashbacks of a few months ago
Watching my pops bedridden
On more morphine then the whole line at the methadone clinic
Sixty years drug free then the Lord felt the need
Made a grown man see his self as a pill ****** right before calling his name


John Wayne
The last real man left
Ten after five he took that final  breathe
Five ten a.m. the last real man left
Fifty minutes before six God decided to take one more

Slipped back to my old ways
Like 2001on replay
On that coke again
Chopping lines for days
Pretending
Lying
Yeah I'm ok
While having suicidal thoughts
Hiding to cry while staring in the mirror
Thinking grow the **** up
You to **** old
Get that straw from your nose
For once I listened
Did as I was told
Removed it to use to load a bowl

From Lady White to Miss Tina
Love with the first hit
She's a bad *****
A street *****
With a powerful grip
A demanding *****
Whatever you have she takes
With no remorse
Doing whatever to keep her from running away
Lock yourself in to keep family and friends locked out
Lie and steal to keep her here
Knowing its only her that keeps you well

No second guessing who's in control now
How quick things have changed now
Lost my income
Dodging the landlord
Rent a center beating on the door
Owe the dealer for two teens
Laying naked on floor
As blood flows
From a hole that caused my brains to fall out
Another man who couldn't take it
One who wasn't waiting for another to decide his faith
One who finally got his way

To who it may concern
Sorry you had to find me
It's ok to turn around never speaking of what you seen
Theirs nobody to inform
My family already left
I wasn't a bad guy
Just a lost man who lost it all
Who ended up selling my soul
Cause I refused to listen
Kept chasing that feeling
My existence was never needed
Save yourself the trouble like the rest did
Just keep walking by
Act like nothing happen
Save your heroics for somebody worth a ****

I walk along the beach
The whispering winds whip the sand into a thousand little pin ****** that gently sting my calves
I look out over the lustful ocean body

Sun reaches out,
it’s rays grab Earth in longing
But she knows they cannot be,
too far are they
Millions of miles apart

But still he tries,
For his love for her is boundless
She turns her back on him
She knows it’s for the best
He doesn’t let go until he disappears over her horizon

Her blue green eyes cloud over
She mourns a lover who isn’t dead
She sheds a tear for him,
her timeless, Golden Lover
It lands on my shoulder

****, it’s getting late

My eyes feel the unfortunate kiss of the sunlight

Man, it burns so fricking much when I try to grip onto woke

I anxiously glance at the time even when I have no plans or promises

I wonder what day it must be

Climbing out of bed without a routine can be bittersweet

It's as grand as going to work every day other than payday

But what's the most unfortunate thing about the morning light

It's the fact that yesterday happened

You can't wake up and see that everything was just a dream

Funny, I could've sworn this already happened before...

It's like the world is trying to tell you something

Hey bub, did you know that hell is just tiny build ups of agony and then never remembering those agonies happened. Over and over again, you're living in it.

Who would have thought I'd be mourning in the morning...

I'm too tired for this

I should probably go back to sleep...

Maybe when I'm gripping woke again...

Maybe it'll be the evening.