04:25 in the night nearly morning i do miss you again when the silence embraced me i just starting to miss you for 3 years that i stuck in the past i do miss you everyday my friend told me ‘you should find another inspiration’ i answer i cannot the one who replaced you And the final thought by my side this place are still you and it will be you as always my third spring is coming in 3 months my third spring without you is also coming in 3 months how can i pass the sad spring
there was one night when i got home from work. my family was getting ready to go to sleep while i was just barely taking off my shoes. i dragged my body up the stairs and into my room where i leaned against my doorway. it was thanksgiving. my older sister began telling me everything i missed and i began to relive my work day. something in my chest began to feel heavy. and once again, i needed a hug. my mouth felt zipped, i couldn't open it if i tried. i remember slowly falling to my knees. still in my work clothes, i began to cry. oh how badly i wanted to spend this holiday with my family, oh how badly i just wanted that day to be over so i could consider it the past. the present felt like a sharp pain in my chest. i closed my eyes as tears made their way down my face. in that quiet, painful moment i felt arms around me. i let myself go completely. the silent tears turned into sobs as my head dug into my older sisters shoulder. she rubbed my back and told me i did good, that she was proud of me, that i did well.
you were on the other side of the mirror, our hands followed each other. i wanted to reach in front of me for you. your eye filled with sadness and emptiness. i just wanted to hold you. slowly and slowly, you faded away. my throat closed up and the tip of my nose stung when i could no longer see you. please, for once, come back to me. hold my hand and i'll tell you you'll be okay. don't be far away. now all i can do is share the moon with you. who's holding your hand now? who's comforting you when you feel alone? please, don't leave me alone.
the constant war in my head couldn't bring you back, what could i do to bring you back? you're so far away from me yet so close. if i reached my hand out to you, would you take it? can i turn back time to when you were here with me?
flowers and bright and light and love, so much love, and the people that i would die for in less than a heartbeat. so much love and smiles. this dark room holds so much light that feels like hope when it touches my heart. and you, you are the stars and beautiful autumn days. you are loving and living inside every action i do, i do it all for you. this life doesn't seem scary right now. and this pearl aqua color that consumes the blood in my veins in the most beautiful way. i'm alive and i'm breathing and in this moment, there is no hurt. in this moment, there is no worry or fear of what's to come. my life, right here, right now, is flowers and aqua blue and love and warmth and life and love.
tick to the tock arms move in the clock sheets of month been removed from calendar
angel descends to heaven people still remembers him still sparkles in the sky beautifully as it always seem
voice that still echoes in my mind songs written still plays in my heart life that became a novel we read without doubt, he is still here
with all the unfinished page they fill it up as they think of him doubts visits from time to time but as long as they believe, they can
pitched dark roads lost motivation a light shines upon them they remember him, once again
I watched the newly released song of SHINee "Our Page" I got inspired as it was written for Jonghyun a member of them who passed away last December 2017. I read the lyrics and the mood in the mv got me inspired. I made the poem after listening for 3 times