I miss the way I could laugh carefree.
The way smiles used to light up my face.
But when I glance at him,
I see he struggles to do the same
and occasionally we will laugh together
and our smiles make the room seem brighter
and for a moment we're weightless.

And in those moments
my hearts swells to capacity
with love for this man
who can make me feel like I used to
by just looking into my eyes.

We see the depths of each other's souls
and find that we are equal
and always have been,
in this life and the next.

Waiting you
Waiting you is like hell
Like a monster I want to ****
Is that what is called, I fell?!
My body was acting like ill
Waiting you is like having no will
Like I need a breath under water
Like a mom misses her daughter
I don't know what was I waiting for
I know I cannot ask for more
You are not for me that is sure
Something weird to have such feeling
Does that have any meaning?
Waiting for you is like being addicted
Every second is like one tick restricted
I know you are not mine
Don't worry I will be fine
Actually I am wasting time
I should wake up and see sunshine
I hurt myself by thinking of being with you
If I told you what would you do
the first time to push my heart
you stop!!, watch what you are
The first time to feel weak
Please don't think of me as a freak
I am still knowing what is here inside
Should I tell you or I should hide
Stay here, stay near
Till I become good with no fear!!

If I tell you

"you are the one",

Would it save me?

Would it save you?

or I would be making fun

Of my fate

Of your fate

To your miseries, I'll add a ton.


It feels right

But it's not right

To escape

Leave off everything

Never to wake

From a dream

that holds two shades,

Black and white.


If I tell you

don't forget

all of this

all we missed

For I've set my heart on a thing

that's more precious than any ring

That we'll meet in another round

Of this life,

No more strife

In the end,

Will you be found?

Getting ready for bed
can be an arduous task.
There are things to turn off,
some to turn on.
flips and clicks
beep beep boop

A roommate of mine
used to say,
keep noisy things
out of the sleeping chamber:
computer,
radio, loud brain, tv

Only the necessary:
bed, clock, book, loved one

A warm morning Sun
Flickering a ray of light
Making my fogy
Bachelor's heart bright,
A curtain raiser,
Thawing the ice of solitude,
You afforded me
A turn around
That rendered my life sound.

What a surprise
You gave me children—
God's gifts in a human guise!

You're the winter, that cools my endless summer.
You're the frost that chills my burning embers.
You're my best friend
My soul's mate
My lover.

You're the stillness that calms my restless soul.
You're the anchor that stops my wandering heart.
You're my best friend,
My soul's mate,
My lover.

You're the moon that lights my starless night.  
You're the space I need to fly.
You're my best friend,
My soul's mate,
My lover.

You're the cosmic wonder for whom I fell.
You're forever, and ever as well.
You're my best friend,
My soul's mate,
My lover.

the gentle Equinox was ours
though our time together was not always so
you tasted like magic to me
and we came together with all the fiery sweetness I imagined love to be

two halves of the same coin
it was I who dried your tears
and you who held me close
and yet I am unacknowledged

you,
my mate-no-longer,
who walks the long road with another
you have already begun to forget the heart laid at your feet

yet,
when I gathered the blossoms
when I consigned my heart’s desire to the flames,
when I laid the Solstice wreath beneath my pillow

It was you I dreamt of.