So cold,
Ash and dust,
Love overcome by lust.
Lost love,
Born of jealousy,
The inability to let go.
Born of darkest parts of the mind that are shown.

You said that it never happened
And the way it made me feel was a lie
You said I was fake
That I didn’t deserve to smile
And honestly I believed you
I truely did
But everything you said
You were the opposite
You told me you were kind
And that your love never wavered
Did you keep that in mind
When you signed the papers
I thought that I was problem
For so many years
I thought I’d done wrong
By letting them hear
The past can’t keep a hold anymore
But you still can
The things that were done still haunt me
But I guess, like you said
it never happened
The way I feel is a lie
I am fake
Now I guess I’ll never smile

I am an excellent liar
It’s one of the few talents
I possess,
And I likely should not
Be proud of it,
As it is a cause for concern
In many people

Do I speak sincerely,
They wonder
Am I who I claim
To be
Are my pretty words hollow

It is hard to trust someone
Who lies and lies
Just
For funsies

I almost forgot, that you were a child.
With your youthful, mature face
And your sweet, sweet words
The determined glimmer in your eye.
I almost forgot, that you were but a child.

Yet as I look back, upon
The words, your words, which,
As children's do, sting, and hurt,
And pierce, through my fragile heart
Made fragile, by your love,
I realise. That you were a child also
And such actions, cruel as they are
Were but actions, of a child.

I almost forgot, that you were a child.
As I stare with wonder, upon
Your fiery hot passion, for that you loved
Your endless ambition, for a promising future.
I almost forgot, that you were but a child.

Yet as I recall, back
The way you played with me, the way
A child would have done so
With a loved puppet or toy,
I realise. That you were a child also
And such playfulness, unforgiving as it is,
Was but feelings, of a child.

I almost forgot that you were a child, and alas!
That was my fatal, most tragic mistake.
I took you as a grown-up, one who should've known better
It was my wrong; I should have been mindful.

And yet. Was it not your childish negligence,
Your childish ignorance, and your childish anger,
That brought ruin to this pitiful pair? Oh -
Do forgive my mindlessness, for I am also
But a child myself.