Starving myself and subjecting myself to hunger as a way of punishing myself for ruining things with you
Or maybe it was just too hard to leave my bed after i'd drowned myself in tears
Finally being able to eat a full meal without gagging, an appetite built up for years
Feels good to be putting the pieces back together
I'm not whole again
I'll never be whole again
But at least i'm not shattered
Blurred like my vision
Orange as my pride
Quakes, rumbles, and whispers
All one tries to hide
The ***** deeds and ill intent
All you planned to circumvent
By a street lamp
Sleep without rest
or rest without sleep.
It feels like my soul is devouring me,
Like my thoughts are nipping at the soles of my feet,
Scrunching up my legs to pull them away
from the edge
of the bed.
Away from the monsters beneath that wish to
drag me under with them.
In eternal darkness.
Too bad they don't know.
That's where I already reside.
In every sky,
there are a plethora of clouds.
Waiting for their day to bring gloom.
In every cloud
there is a rainstorm
waiting to be released.
In every rainstorm
there are lightning and thunder
in a Convoluted confrontation.
But over our horizon,
there is a sun waiting to rise and illuminate
Red inferno as it hits my skin
Everything feels better when i'm numb
Everything feels better when I can't feel at all
The sadness in her eyes was like a blazing storm
Consuming any hope for everlasting happiness