Your hands whispered their truth as
you crossed the ocean. Lying between
those you wrote and those you did not
they remain, stagnant and curled up against my heart.

I miss you, I say, and you write
I wish you were her.

watching the trains go by
pause with a cold shallow breath
smoke another cigarette
you remember last year

****** up
bottles clanking together
plastic shiny smiles
full of ****
******* liars
fists are so heavy

tear down the curtains
punch holes in the wall
break a window and
fall on your face
sleep on the ruins
burn holes
torn out pages
black spots of your memory

better keep straight
money in the bank
hot food
new shoes
and a bed with two pillows

headstrong is a simple word. Impulsive, touchy, emotionally-driven-
you tell me to grow up and stop acting like a child and yet you decide to
perpetuate a situation that actually makes you look immature. Funny, cuz
on one hand, you didn't want to act childish but then you turn around,
carelessly spill random details in the hopes to look good. An attempt to be
ratified. You want the upper hand, but in doing that you've made your
inferiority clear as day. I would explain this to you further sweetheart but
the warning signs all say "do not dive headfirst into shallow waters."
even if you were worth the time and effort, I haven't the heart or patience.

And so I lay down,
to accept tranquility,
to welcome eternity;
But the clamour never shuts.

Thus the ones in black and yellow,
like itself, only a different form;
Forward and backward,
the never-ending process.

Its annoying buzz,
its disturbing moves;
As life itself,
to ignore and smile.

Liars are survivors,
lying is surviving;
"Why smile?",
you ask.

And I said,
"To Live".

I remember the time we met, it was my sister's birthday celebration. April 29, 2014, at 8:30PM. You said, "Hi". Never did I knew that that simple greeting would change my life. Days past, and all I did was hold my phone and talk to you. From the morning I wake up, 'till 4AM that i'm still awake. Everyday, this is our routine. I remember you, telling me a story about how your friend thinks that you're crazy about me, as he had never seen you smile like that before. I remember laughing at both of you, me asking him, "Why? You jealous?" I really do hope he was right. After for weeks and weeks that we've talked, I still haven't known a lot of you, but I feel like i've known you for so long, you feeling the same.

But did you really?

Months passed, A picture popped up on the side of my screen. I thought, "Why does he have a poser account?" The guy has the same face, a different picture and a different name. I've felt something inside of me broke. So I've searched, and searched, until I came to the conclusion, the sad truth.

I've confronted you with it, but all you told me are lies. I thought, did you really loved me? Did you really liked me at the start? Did you mean it, when you said you got your reasons for being like that?

I can't really do anything now, do I? All I can do is move on, and forget about you.

Oh, and news flash, I'm still not completely 100% over you.

LOST NO LIGHT, LIFE IN VAIN
CARRY LIARS INTO THE FLAMES
DREADED MEMORIES OF HORRIBLE PAIN
BURY MEMORIES ALL THE SAME

HOPEFUL HEARTS OPEN TO THE SUN
AS A NEW DAY DAWNS
AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE
I'M A BULLET WITH NO GUN
I'M ALIVE AGAIN
AT THE END BACK WERE WE BEGAN

WHATEVER GODS MAY BE
I'M THE MASTER I CREATE
MASTER OF MY DESTINY
THE MASTER OF MY FATE
I AM THE CAPTAIN OF THIS SOUL
YOU CAN NOT VIOLATE
YOU WONT MAKE ME COLD
I WONT FEEL YOUR HATE

wrong & right its all the same
you still have somewhere to place the blame
lost in forbidden realms of the brain
it all seems different but still the same

LOST NO LIGHT, LIFE IN VAIN
CARRY LIARS INTO THE FLAMES
DREADED MEMORIES OF HORRIBLE PAIN
BURY MEMORIES ALL THE SAME

HOPEFUL HEARTS OPEN TO THE SUN
AS A NEW DAY DAWNS
AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE
I'M A BULLET WITH NO GUN
I'M ALIVE AGAIN
AT THE END BACK WERE WE BEGAN

I stopped trusting Men,
I stopped trusting Women too,
They are all LIARS.