you are a nightmare come to life;
you are a wish unfulfilled.  
you are the multitude of daydreams
running
through my mind
scenarios that will never happen,
scenarios that will only ever exist
in my imagination.

do you feel the same way i do?
it is a question
that taunts me every night.
as i lay my head to sleep,
i can't help but think of
your 'i love you's and 'i miss you's and
my mind plays the melody that is your voice
on repeat as my eyes close and i start to drift
into nothingness.

you never fail to sweep me off my feet.
you never fail to make my head spin.
you never fail to make my heart skip a beat.
you never fail to make me cry into my pillow every night,
thinking about how there will
never
be an "us".

do you feel the same way i do?
do you get the same feeling i do?
when your hear your heart pounding in your ears,
like an incessant little drummer boy?
when your hands shake and you feel your
entire being vibrate;
do you get this horrible feeling too?

Each turn I make
burns into a regret I hate.
but if each step I take,
shows a different face I create,
maybe this path
wont hesitate
to shake the pace
of my fate.

-Sarah Schieman

There is an ecosystem of conflict thriving in my brain.
A world with questions for residents and doubts for landscapes.
I’m not sure if I’m actually reaching for answers right now,
although something in my soul aches.
Those landscapes are parched
and turning to deserts under the sun the residents have named:
Uncertainty.

my blood ran cold
i cannot be so bold
i don’t know what to do.
i turned red with envy
and green with greed.
why can’t you just read my mind?

the world doesn’t spin that way
my mind doesn’t twist that way
maybe only in the wanderland

our fingers won’t tangle that way
my body won’t work that way
maybe only in the wanderland

i don’t know the sea
i don’t know how to be free
i don’t know how to find my voice.
my heart turned blue
my fingertips are violet and violent,
why won’t you notice.

i want to feel that way
you can’t shield me that way
maybe only in the wanderland

hell froze over
i cannot find cover
i don’t know where to go.
my life turned grey
the sun turned black
why can no one else see?

A wild flower grew from nowhere
and so her feelings for you
As dark as night without the moon
that's how you see her desire for you
Even if she walks ten thousand steps
she will never reach you
A grain of sand—  that's all her chance

But would you believe she still prays and hoping?

She's make-believing

*-Steph Dionisio, October 02, 2015

I can't spell love to you.
Cause you don't feel the same.
My mind is crazy,
We can't even meet halfway.

The trees dance,
Every time the clouds cry.
And I'd rather hurt my self with truth,
Than to say I will try.

There's a waterfall,
Hiding in my heart,
Like a meteor,
It falls unstopable.

I can't sleep,
Without thinking of your pretty face.
And always pray  please be in my dreams,
Just you and me in a tryst.

I'm still here,
Waiting there.
Hoping,
For a you and me ending.

I know some words are overated.
Some say I'm out of my head.
But no one would sit beside my bed.
No one.

If I could, I would hug you everyday
If I could I would drown into your eyes
If I could, I'd escape just to see you
If I could,
If I could say how much I love you
Face to face, I'd be so happy
I want you, I want your arms wrapped around me
Only the opportunity of looking right into your eyes
Would make me happy
But I can't, you're a thousand miles away