Scared to be loved and to give love
Afraid of what's going to happen

Mind shattered and heart broken to pieces
Dying on the inside but too strong to show it

She doesn't want to look for love
Love always hurts

Love is painful and unkind
Torment and loss are all she knows

Always expecting what she doesn't get
She deserves so much more

Self love is gone, she is hopeless
Love will never find her again

c.m.l.

something that scares me
is that so many people feel like i do

i smiled as my final tear
stained the concrete
then i pulled the trigger
and the world went dark.

I'm standing here in the shower,
scalding hot water running down my skin.
A desperate attempt to gain back power
over the harrowing pain within.
But I feel myself fading away,
with every tear dripping off my chin.
And I am longing for the day,
when this will all just be a distant memory.

Breathing empty air just to pass time
Sometimes scribble on the wall I am stuck behind
I am ready to break through thick bricks
They are a mess of emotions mixed
Prefer to sit idly as they fall one by one
They are stacking up and there's nowhere to run
Each piece of my heart tumbles down
A multitude of building blocks scattered all around

I dream about you too much
Sometimes I loose myself in those dreams
I imagine the way you breathe
As you would lay next to me
I dream about
How your smile makes me feel
I dream about
What your voice sounds like
And how your laugh is music too my ears
I dream about
The way you think
And what your eyes see
I dream about
Tracing my fingertips
Along your freckles and marks
But I remind myself
That you wont be there when I wake up
And I guess that's why
I'm so afraid of the dark.