i'm deathly afraid
of falling, gravity embracing me,
and continuously feeling adrenaline
coursing through my veins.
i'm deathly afraid
of falling, crashing hard,
my feelings all placed in one bet,
risking it all as i keep falling.
i'm deathly afraid
of heights, the wind blowing,
my legs shaking, my body unsteady,
the ground seemingly a thousand miles below.
but what if
i jump off
to, as they say,
'conquer my fears'?
i'm falling, crashing, and i'm not quite sure where i'm landing.
my poems have lost the feeling i once used to pour out.
now all i have is my self, and it's getting too hard.