Where can I put blame this time?
Who rescued me from this mess?
I am not the hero of my story,
It's time that I confess.
Nobody feels like I do about you,
You came along, gave me a rush,
I try to understand what makes
My heart pound fast when lips brush.
I stand myself in front of a mirror,
Trying to envision forever,
You are always there, it must be a sign,
Our ties weren't destined to sever.
Let me know you won't give up,
That even if you are not always there,
We have irreplaceable chemistry,
Between us we share.
I know this is what I want,
But not sure if what happened was right,
Learning to question everything,
Because sometimes I can't trust my insight.
Proud of the way I've handled
My decisions and mistakes,
I have deserved my obstacles,
The bumps and drawn-out heartaches.
I need to be sure of the future,
But I only see so far,
I'm so scared of falling down,
Every time I reach a star.
What I need is guidance,
And I never have the urge to pray,
Because I'm discovering there is no one listening,
To these desperate inquisitive words I say.
Written when I first started ro lose my faith... i know its very scattered but aside from that what do you think?