As you and I melt away I can’t let go Of everything that I cannot control. Who am I to be? Who am I supposed to be now? When we collide, is it true? We’re stuck in time Of everything that I cannot control. Who am I to you? Who am I to you now?
You tell me Fairy tales. All of this means nothing When you and I melt away. I’m holding tight To everything that I’m afraid to know. It’s part of me. It’s part of you now. The years that passed never settled in. You kiss my lips And I don’t understand your affection Of who I am, Of who I am now.
I stay grounded When you look to the sky. You wanna fly, you wanna fly. I guess that I Will watch you fly away in your new light. Leave me behind under the weight of time. And you sing of dreams, and fairy tales. I don’t fit in those details. You wanna know who’s the boy underneath? Well so do I. So do I.
The first time it happened, I locked myself in the bathroom for an hour. I cried, desperately washing away at the blood that was streaming from In between my legs. I cried, desperately trying to put myself back together With concealer for the bruises And pantyliners for the blood.
The second time it happened, I picked roses from the garden And cried at the altar of Christ. It was at this time that I knew there must be no god, As no deity that claims everlasting love Would allow for the heartache You put me through.
I didn’t understand what had happened to me. I didn’t know what my body was responding to. I couldn't apprehend why I was leaving scars on my skin And changing every aspect of my appearance to Make my body my own. I didn’t understand how you could do this to me, To someone who did everything to protect you.