it takes numerous efforts
to fall in love

but it takes one dreadful lie
to mess the whole thing up

Have you ever sit and think like this whole time you’re the only one who tryna make someone happy?

And realizing that it’s time for you to stop and let the other person do that from now on?

What we had was legit,
you were not.

Now I'm not even sure if I loved a coward,
or didn't love you enough.

A morning offering,
Prayer is my best medicine,
People do throw rocks,
Thanks instead would be a shock!
I am a Christian, I say,
As here I sit and pray,
All's well that ends well, my boy,
Prayers to God are efforts of joy!

the feeling is back yet again

the feeling of slowly losing myself,
succumbing to the darkness in the depths

watching my mind darken, taking traces of the person I built up

crashing down the doors from the subconscious to conscious,
making my eyes burn, the pain slipping out

the pain i buried away last time

i'll slip again,
but this time,

no one can know

just let me slip alone

Why is my efforts so transparent to everyone?

Yes, it doesn't seem noticeable
Yes, it doesn't seem enough

But its the small thing that matters.

life is full of efforts




the effort to breathe,to walk, to think, to talk, to be.




Then you walked in.