what if I disappeared
would you wonder?
would you text me, and ask where I went?
would you call me, if I didn't answer?
would you look for me, when I gave you no sign that I was even alive?
would you be sad? feel that something wasn't right?
or would you just move on with your life and never think of me again?
I understand you.
I wouldn't look for someone that didn't want to be found either.

she disappeared.
in a second she was gone.
without a word.
without a goodbye.
I knew I would see her again.
goodbye means forever.

Tell the secret



There is an important secret


The frog carried it over his back


He jumped, jumped and soon buried


There was a crocodile that appeared


He was hunter, he was tired


He slept over that treasure


The frog felt with displeasure


He wanted to get him away


He wanted to carry him in a way


That makes his worth safe


He went to the crocodile


He carried him with one hand


He moved him with hand down and up


And he threw him away


Do you believe me?


Do I say the truth?


No ,no that is false


No ,you don't say the truth


I saw the fox hide


Before the big wall


He wanted to attack the ****


But the mouse looked


He came in a moment


He hit the fox and bit


The fox was afraid


He run and escaped


Do you believe me?


Do I see the truth?


No, that is false


No, you don't say the truth


There was a dog


Fearing every one


He blew his feather


To look very big


The lions were afraid


The tigers were disappeared


But a small cat appeared


The dog barked at him


The cat caught with one hand


He circled him several times


He threw him for a distant


He fell in a poor land


His bones were smashed


Do you believe me?


Do I say the truth?


Where is that treasure?


Which spreads the pleasure?


And makes a man rich


That is your mind


That is a gift from your God

You existed; lived simply to love me
At least that’s the way I thought
Until the ghost of you no longer see
Made bereft and left me overwrought

I thought I was all that mattered
Was your centre; your whole life
Your own hopes and dreams shattered
When you became my wife

You did your job. You kept me happy
Catered and bowed to all my needs
But me like a greedy puppy. Yappy
Selfishly caused your soul to bleed

The more you seemed to do and give
The more I grappled to take
The fact you had lost the will to live
My selfish brain no dent did make

I thought you were just bluffing
You couldn’t be so depressed
So lazily I carried on; did nothing
Broke you down in final test

They said they found your little car
Your licence cards, and keys
Angry engine humming. Doors ajar
At the docks down by the quays

Of you they said they found no trace
The currents there were stronger
You would wash up in some other place
They would find you. Just takes longer

Months have gone by but still no you
Has washed up. The police have said
The protocol. What they now must do
Is officially declare you dead!

She couldn’t handle it any more
Suicide; she took her own life
Her husband killed her to the core
Destroyed this doormat wife

So now I wallow in my guilt
Too little too late; now realising
The man she nurtured. Fed, and built
She killed herself despising

She has gone…….

In a cottage garden in Bordeaux
A lady sits smiling; quietly contented
Tragic suicide. Drowning. NO! All faux
Make escape her living hell tormented

She’s glad she saved that money
Stayed strong when life hit the buffers
Gorge on new life sweet as honey
While her hoggish husband suffers

©pofacedpoetry (Billy Reynard-Bowness 2018 – All rights reserved)

Have never felt such pain before
Never this kind of suffering
Used to love life but now I yearn
For the relief death would bring

Skin hurts in the absence of your touch
My heart breaks again each time I wake
I try and try to sidetrack myself
But nothing whisks away the endless ache

It is so much harder to breathe the air
Now Winter is almost gone
I choke on each breath I take
Filled with fear of you moving on

I no longer see the beauty
You introduced me to a long time ago
It has disappeared from everything
Except love we used to know

And then it disappeared
All my things I had said
Disappeared out of his head
Like steam off of the blacktop
Never to be found again

Why do you not care?
Care that your harsh words rip me to shreds
Care that your looks make me feel ashamed of who I am
Care that your silence makes my head scream with sad thoughts
And my heart shatter like glass at my feet
Care that your inability to acknowledge the ways you hurt me never want to speak again
Care that you don't have to tear me down anymore
Because I'm already whittled away into nothing
Pretty soon I'll be dead inside,
Unreachable
I'll be a mute
My thoughts and feelings will be heard no more
My silence deafening
I wonder,
Will you care then?