Oh, I just want to kiss you, dear.
We spoke not for the whole day.
Nothing seems calm; all appears uneasy.
My breath is short; my tongue is sour.
Oh, my heart only desires for you.
It cries for you from within me.

Who knows how it feels,
crying without tears,
eating without wine?
My strides are waste;
the dreams are empty—
I see the whole earth waste.
Only my love brings me joy.

Your soft lips to all my lips
blow hot
breath everywhere
Your tongue to my tongue
taste me
everywhere
Your fiery desires to fulfill all my desires
cry out loud
love fountains everywhere

My lover is shy;
She would not let me touch her.
I wrote poems to her;
They fell silent on the paper.

My lover is sly,
She would tape us together,
Reading my longings, my desires,
Playing to my fulfillment.

Moaning,
Groaning,
Bound together, glued,
Holding our hands together;
One strong fragrance
Holding our breath together;
Silent climatic death,
Sweet ecstasy.

These violent desires,
are what i'm trying to hide.
I dream of nothing else,
but being by your side.

These violent desires,
are what kills me inside,
as my thoughts race and eventually
come back to nothing but,
the feel of your body,
flush against mine.

These desires, violent
oh so toxic like the taste
of your lips and the feel
of your fingers,
brushing, tracing
the skin down my sides.

Leaving me with the feeling of a fragile spine

fragile,
Easily broken.

like my heart,
when you left and
said
that you didn't
love me
anymore.

One pill
One eye opening
Finger trembling
mind racing
Free spiriting pill
I do not want to need it.
I no longer want it to control my
Wit
My life
But I cannot let it go.
I need this white
Small
Life controlling
Satanic pill.

May the fourth I was born, I didn't open my eyes,
the doctors and my mother worried out of their minds.
I promised her in my heart even though,
I couldn't hear her, that I would open my eyes and heart for her.
They opened but then, my skin it turned to shreds.
I open my heart for you, please don’t leave me.
I love you my mummy so, so please don’t leave me.

I began to grow believing there was a man,
who would guide me through life until I die and welcome me home.
Then I saw that it wasn't truth, it was only belief,
a belief I was told to know.
I open my heart for you, please don’t leave me.
I swear I prayed to you, but you didn't listen.

I ran through the trees, the winds blew against my skin,
I swear to life and all the scientific feelings, that I was free.
I open my heart for you, please set me free,
let the world of curiosity and wonderful stars seep,
seep my life into purpose which I will see,
you may not believe, but I always will.
Believe.