{"page": "\n<div id=\"poem5028646\" class=\"poem poem-left cropped\" data-align=\"left\" data-url=\"http://hellopoetry.com/poem/5028646/oh-god-how-long/\" data-text=\"Oh God, how long? by White Owl\" seepoem=\"/act/poem/see/5028646/\" readpoem=\"/act/poem/read/5028646/\">\n  \n  <div class=\"poem-view inner\">\n    <div class=\"poem-header poem-part\">\n      \n      \n      \n        <a href=\"/White_Owl/\" class=\"nocolor poem-poet-name\">White Owl</a>\n      \n      \n        \n          <span class=\"poem-added s\" title=\"Poem added Apr 8\">\n            Apr 8\n          </span>\n        \n      \n    </div>\n\n    <div class=\"poem-part poem-title bottomss\">\n      <a href=\"/poem/5028646/oh-god-how-long/\" class=\"nocolor\">Oh God, how long?</a>\n    </div>\n\n    <div class=\"poem-part continue-reading poem-body wordwrap\">\n      Oh God, how long until my woes<br>Transfigure into peace?<br>Until the violent storms inside my skull<br>Will finally cease?<br>Until the gaping emptiness<br>I feel beneath my ribs <br>Is filled with warmth and joyousness?<br>That's all I plead You give!<br><br>Around me I see people full<br>With water, meat and wine.<br>I see them eat together -- <br>Oh, how carefree they all dine!<br>When hunger hasn't gripped my gut,<br>I've gorged on rotten meat.<br>And when my throat has not been dry,<br>Vinegar's been my treat.<br><br>Please give me, Lord, a future hope<br>That isn't a mirage.<br>I look for peace, but pain attacks<br>In relentless barrage.<br>My spirit grumbles -- do take ear<br>And help my soul to thrive.<br>Mend this broke heart and give me strength<br>To want to be alive.<br>\n    </div>\n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part topss poem-append s wordwrap\">\n        Jul '24\n      </div>\n    \n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part topss poem-tags s wordwrap\">\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/faith/\" class=\"s subtle\">#faith</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/suffering/\" class=\"s subtle\">#suffering</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/trials/\" class=\"s subtle\">#trials</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/prayer/\" class=\"s subtle\">#prayer</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/christian/\" class=\"s subtle\">#christian</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/christianity/\" class=\"s subtle\">#christianity</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/christianpoetry/\" class=\"s subtle\">#christianpoetry</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/envy/\" class=\"s subtle\">#envy</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/jealousy/\" class=\"s subtle\">#jealousy</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/depression/\" class=\"s subtle\">#depression</a>\n      \n      </div>\n    \n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part continue-reading before-reading subtle\">\n        <a href=\"/act/poem/read/5028646/\" class=\"readpoem color-blue\" rel=\"nofollow\" title=\"Continue reading White Owl's poem Oh God, how long?\">Continue reading...</a>\n      </div>\n    \n  </div>  \n\n  <div id=\"after\" class=\"after-reading\"></div>\n</div>\n\n\n<div id=\"poem5028746\" class=\"poem poem-center cropped\" data-align=\"center\" data-url=\"http://hellopoetry.com/poem/5028746/the-melody-i-missed/\" data-text=\"THE MELODY I MISSED by Jesus&#39; baby\" seepoem=\"/act/poem/see/5028746/\" readpoem=\"/act/poem/read/5028746/\">\n  \n  <div class=\"poem-view inner\">\n    <div class=\"poem-header poem-part\">\n      \n      \n      \n        <a href=\"/Patience/\" class=\"nocolor poem-poet-name\">Jesus&#39; baby</a>\n      \n      \n        \n          <span class=\"poem-added s\" title=\"Poem added Apr 8\">\n            Apr 8\n          </span>\n        \n      \n    </div>\n\n    <div class=\"poem-part poem-title bottomss\">\n      <a href=\"/poem/5028746/the-melody-i-missed/\" class=\"nocolor\">THE MELODY I MISSED</a>\n    </div>\n\n    <div class=\"poem-part continue-reading poem-body wordwrap\">\n      How fluidly<br>His nearness moves\u2014<br>A quiet weight<br>The soul approves.<br><br>How full of breath<br>The moments stay,<br>When presence glows<br>And clears the grey.<br><br>The spirit lifts<br>Beyond the air,<br>When joy expands<br>And pulses there.<br><br>But I\u2014<br>I tasted lies like wine,<br>And veered from light<br>By slow design.<br><br>The path went dim,<br>My vision blurred\u2014<br>I slipped beneath<br>My own lost word.<br><br>Yet still You speak<br>In silent flame,<br>With steady hands<br>That know my name.<br><br>Thank You, Lord,<br>For roots that hold\u2014<br>For love unearned,<br>And mercies bold.<br>\n    </div>\n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part topss poem-append s wordwrap\">\n        He is merciful to forgive\n      </div>\n    \n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part topss poem-tags s wordwrap\">\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/forgiveness/\" class=\"s subtle\">#forgiveness</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/spiritual/\" class=\"s subtle\">#spiritual</a>\n      \n        <a href=\"/tag/christian/\" class=\"s subtle\">#christian</a>\n      \n      </div>\n    \n    \n      <div class=\"poem-part continue-reading before-reading subtle\">\n        <a href=\"/act/poem/read/5028746/\" class=\"readpoem color-turquoise\" rel=\"nofollow\" title=\"Continue reading Jesus&#39; 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