"optional"
don't you always think what it's optional
and what isn't?
I don't want to sit here
and watch you leave

I wrote a list of reasons
of why you left this morning
while I was preparing your morning coffee

number one
I wasn't the one
you decided to go
so then you went away
so then I went away
not away from you
away from these feelings
away from these thoughts

number two
you just got bored
of my french music
the way I always wanted to **** you
**** you with kisses

number three
the fact that you're not here
makes me want to leave
I don't even want to breathe
I can't even eat


I loved you
so much
so farewell

*and goodnight

should I be mad
or should I feel sad

it's difficult to explain your passion
when someone doesn't understand your actions
"it's just a hobby"
it's not something that necessarily makes me mad
it's the fact that someone actually has the guts
to underrate your passion
to say
"that's not actually what you're going to do for the rest of your life"
they don't know
you don't know