I feel like screaming
I feel like dreaming
Serene
Obscene
Thoughts
Forgotten decency
Tired of living in secrecy
Feeling a thundering pain inside
The past has caused these scars
Like an irrational fear of cars
Images floating around in my mind
Forgotten memories lost in time
My life is gone in a flash
A check my body cannot cash
The tears they well up deep inside
But other than that I'm fine

It sees without really seeing
It hears us without being
It kills
It steals
It doesn't feel
It has only it's will
To fight
This night
Not caring what's wrong or what's right
Locked in
So tight
At the very brim of fright
It expands with a shallow sigh
It takes control of everything
This, sunken eye

Do you hear that?
Screaming silently
Into the night
My might
Is heated regrettably
My mood
Is chaos ensued
My life
Is passion renewed
Her face
Is matched by few
The visions
Explode into my view
All these things happen
When a spark
Burns anew

You're beautiful
But you disagree
You're perceptive
Yet you overlook me
I'm here
And I always have been
Enamored by your grace
Captivated by your face
Hoping for the tiniest taste
Of life with my arm around you
Forward
I know
But thats who I am
I know I can make it last
All you have to do
Is give me a chance

What is talent?
Is it power
Is it pride
Should it show
Or should it hide
I know what you think
You ask why
I hear it all the time
You've got talent man
But do I
Can you measure talent
Through structure and rhyme
As much as i hear "you rock"
I hear "you ****"
Because they weren't happy with my words
Because it wasn't what they thought they should have heard
Because their friendliness must be paid for
not earned
I know that I'm good
I know that I should
Let my talent shine
But keep in mind
I'm not divine
I'm just a regular guy
Who loves to write
Works of rhythm and rhyme
I do not think I'm the best
I'm just like the rest
The rest of you who read my work
Who have felt the same pain and hurt
Your life reflected in my art
And also my heart
And so this is for you
All the ones who've
Seen the colder side
Had a reason they had to hide
For everyone who has ever cried
I write for one thing
Its the least I could do
for all of those who
have seen their lives through
the words I write, and then feel new
All of my readers
All of my friends
I write this for you
For, it is you, with the talent

I know a place
A place of beauty
A place of serenity
A place which offers clarity
Salmon flock here
Bears feed here
Sasquatch wanders here
...Maybe
Among the redwoods
Ample and pure
Holding centuries
Of memories
Rising high
Up into the sky
I lie in wonder
The beauty taking me asunder
And under
In a feeling of awe
Mary Jane thrives here
Mushrooms thrive here
Men live here
But one thing rises above the rest
Of course...
You know...
You"ll see...
The beauty is breathtaking
All this I've come to know
In Humboldt County
Where the tall trees grow

Tears
They well up
Unexpectedly
My heart
Torn to shreds
Regularly
My mind
Running these scenes
It's obscene
The way you talk to me
My soul
It's empty
I'm drowning
In a cascade
I keep reminding myself
Not to let it get to me
Not to let her hurt me
But she does
Every.
*******.
Time.
I can't hide
I can only face it
I can't lie
It's getting hard to take it
That high path is getting rough
Recklessly rocking
On a rickety and ramshackle road
Bridge my heart and soul
What is that sound I hear?
A listless lilting liquid hammer
I stammer
Just another tear

My world comes crashing down
Around me like a storm
Raging forth
An unstoppable force
The pain tears at my flesh
And I am nothing
Once again
Tears fall upon the glass
How could it happen so fast
I am attached
Nothing I can do
It would never work
I know
As I attach to her
She still clings to her past
I find myself amidst tentacles
Glowing green
Pulling me
Under the sea
As if a ship overturned
The darkness
Yes
The darkness has returned

Ignition
Flames do fly
My vision
Does try
To see why
Every time
I die inside
Pushed passed the pyre
I travel down the wire
With speed so dire
Feel my desire
Climb higher
And higher
And I admire
The funeral pyre
The sound of the crier
Burning the liars
I never tire
Scorching the world
I am FIRE

Forever
In times of late
Forever
I will wait
To hold the tremendous power
In the very palm of my hand
My enemies will cower
In fear
It's clear
Whats been written in the sand
Call this an ancient writ
Once I have it
Forever
I'll hold this scepter
As an ancient
A powerful specter

As you feel the cold air touch your face

you do not know i follow at a rapid pace

you notice me out of the corner of your eye

now is the time that you die

i will drain you of your life force

this is my only course

you think you know me but im a stranger

your not aware that your in danger

in my eyes there is a fire

so look at me and the flames get higher

my life will end upon the stake

people know me as the vampire, Drake

A shroud of violence

A cloud of pestilence

inside a darkness flows

its something everyone knows

inside this darkness grows

from my head down to my toes

i feel nothing in my heart

as if stabbed by a dart

you try to eliminate this harshness

but all thats left is darkness

I sit back

And relax

Through all that i lack

I take my fury to the max

As the numbness spreads farther

My eyes get darker

With every breath

I wish for death

In a world that keeps getting harder

I'll be the next martyr

As I say the end is nigh

I am the lonley ones thought, Sly

When things are stacking up
My mind is packing up
And I've had enough
Of a world that seems to hate me
Of a world where theres no one left to save me
The new one
The lost one
The young one
All of them in my head
I wish I were dead
For causing this turmoil
Which I dread
Bury me in the soil
Before my anger is fed
By a lost tease
A new crush
And a young love
Who knows where it'll lead
Now hush
And fly away my dove
It bulds up to pull me down
Until I'm underground
Until I cant hear the sound
Of three sweet voices in which I've drowned
In love with the lost
Lost with the young
And a young friendship with the new
A voice of reason is trapped behind a door
Because where you have one voice
I have six more
Reason
Is not what they speak
Treason
Is all that they reap
I've come to a new assumption
Drowning in an emotional eruption

From the past I am revealed

A lonely mind to which I appeal

To rescue him

From his dark past

Although my chances are slim

We make progress fast

I am his past-life manifestation

I must stop his dark delegation

With the only tools I know how

To make these in-mind dark creatures bow

I may not be able to save him

But **** it, I'll try,

I am Steven's rescuer, Daemon

I'm a writer
Inside and out
I'm a liar
Is what you all shout
When my heart breaks
It blasts open the gates
Of the darkness within
I know I'm guilty as sin
My mind falters and surrenders
And now i can't remember
What they do
When they have control
They hurt who
I love and wish to hold
I thought they were gone
I thought i didn't have to run
Anymore
I'm so sore
Inside my frontal lobe
My spirit travels across the globe
As i'm expelled from my body
And I'm locked out
And i hurt everybody
And gut them like they were trout
Caught on a hook
Of mind totally shook
An empty shell
Confined to hell
As i wonder an look around
With my face to the ground
I erupt into a shout
Due to another blackout

In a world of pesimism

I am the messenger of optimism

I'll break his clouded vision

This is my only mission

To show him that there still is good in existence

I'll fight his in-mind resistance

I must bring love back to his heart

Before his subconcious falls completely apart

There once was only one

To see that this mission is done

Now I am added to this mix

Of voices, actions, and tricks

To help part six with his goal

To see that Steven doesn't turn cold

I leave you all with this solemn promise

I will pick up the peices, my name is Thomas

I feel my anger rising

Though all my deep despising

I feel my fury soar

Surrounded by things i abhor

You let me slip through your fingers

Vengence replaces a love that lingers

Tip toe tip toe past my mind

All these answers I must find

I'm not who I once was

They know not what this pain does

I am a messenger of revenge

The courrier of hatred sends

We break through his mental dam

I am the sabatoeur of stevens mind, Sam

A boding of ill will
Gives him a new life, a new thrill
Enter the tenth part of torment
A past life that lies dormant
Enstilling a passion in those we've met
People die
And now I watch her cry
I thought I had found the love of my past
A friendship which runs so deep
Meets a precipice so steep
And alas
It was all a cruel lie
Causing a soul to attatch itself to a mind
The mind of this poor boy
So lost
So hurt
So cold
His life spent as a mere toy
Such a cost
What's it worth
The loss of one's hold
Making happiness so hard to find
Reality
Is a mystery
To a mind shrouded in misery
Hoping for a feeling of sincerity
Or clarity
A rarety
That his soul should be unfurled
Upon this world
So lost
So hurt
And so cold
We have all but lost control
A sickness not even it's host could fathom
Yet I'm merely a piece of this puzzle
And my name is Adam

A beast who travels by twilight
And kills his prey in the dead of night
With his soul aflame
For this new game
This game is cunning
This game is fast
This game keeps running
But it doesn't last
He stalks his prey so quietly
And kills this game with extreme ferocity
Who is this beast
Who turns the innocent into a feast
What is this beast I see
I know now,
This beast is me

Once
I was a man
Consumed by the voices
Causing horrible choices
Made by a corrupted mind
But know i find
Silence
Deathly silence
Sweet silence
A clarity unrivaled
Mark
Drake
Darkness
Sly
Sam
Daemon
Thomas
Adam
All of them diminish
This series can finally finish
What it began
Now I am a man
Cured of psychotic visions of vast violence
By the occurrence
Of my mind's sweet silence

Clarity
In unity
Your scrutiny
Can never pay you well
Arrogance
Upon your stance
This final dance
From death
Twirling and whirling
And feeling so free
Hopeless and thoughtless
And caught in between
As the world keeps turning
And churning
With every lunar pull
Above
And beyond
In space that's so cool
Screaming
And careening
Off course
Of course
You know that to each single life form
Caught in this storm
Is caught in the throws of terror
Fairness in vitality
Death in severity
Life in virility
Pulling and tugging
Lifting and lugging
Laughing and crying
Living and dying
In the eyes I see the knowledge
I see the intelligence
The ability
The stability
Unable to attain
To ascertain
And regain
Life
Such is the struggle...
...
Of gods and men

I cant seem to find
That solid reason why
I try, and I try, and I try
To keep my spirits high
The world just falls apart
Shatters at my feet
Hoping my heart will start
As I fall down to my knees
Seeing the light through wary alarm
As I lie face down in the street
The blood does pool around me
Footsteps echo all around
A person who no one can see
A reverberating sound
One that doesn't exist
And now I'm gone
Another mark
On another list
It's all the same
Nobody really knows my name

There is a face in my mind
Difficult to find
A girl who should be mine
A world thats out of time
It's a crime
I find
To not share these rhymes
I wonder why
I try
so hard just to find
A vanishing face
Deep in my mind

Thinking of a time
Thinking of a place
Thinking of a rhyme
Thinking of the face
That brings forth my power
Like a ******* tower
Higher and higher
We fly
Together
Whether the weather watches us wait
Is a question to be answered by the fates
Thinking
Wondering
Being
Pondering
The world around
Is out of the shroud
Keeping me down
Now I rise
I rise higher than ever before
I rise to meet the score
As I sit wondering and drinking
Drinking brings forth the thinking
Thinking of a time
Thinking of a place
Thinking of a rhyme
Thinking of the face
That makes me wonder

Let it pass
Is what they say
It's all in the past
One thousand yesterdays
But can they really tell
That inside I'm in hell
Trapped under a love spell
By someone who doesn't care anymore
And now I'm torn
Shredded to pieces
Battered and broken
In a river of tears
I sit soaking
Drowned in my fears
Can you hear the thunder
The thunder that pulls me under
The crimson tide
And the clover blood
I'm now undone
I know I cannot last
As I look into the past
Wishing the pain would pass
Till then I'll just stare
I'll stare through the looking glass
And try to forget the one who once cared

Tyranny
Is infamy
And it consumes us
Instantly
It absorbs us
Completely
The source
Incredibly
Is our own problems
Our own people
Change occurs
In a colored steeple
As others take a needle
To feel good
To get healed
To feel understood
To be revealed
As one
One people
One race
One taste
No haste
Uncontrolled fusion
We're all simply human

I take a drink
And then I think
I'm not alone
But still on the brink
Of insanity
In calamity
Flashing lights
A gun blast sounds
It keeps me sane
It keeps me bound
I sip again
And take another shot
I sit again
And get shot a lot
You all might think it's lame
But I love my *****
And my video games

What am I gonna do?
Whatever you want me to?
I'm so far away from you
And I don't understand
This life I cant stand
Secrecy
Is a fallacy
A memory
Instantly
Drives me away
My mind continues
To scream
And to shout
What is my life about?
So
What do I do?

When it rains
I count the little droplets on the window
I avoid the cold black widow
As it hangs high at the ceiling
It gives me an odd feeling
A feeling that makes me wish
That even if I'm rich
Death would be my escape
From a world
Hollow and *****
From a vision
Of pure and total hate
Why do these people hate me
Why do they hurt and interrogate me
Asking unspoken questions
Looking for unknown answers
Invalidating my prestige
Through intolerably hateful banter
Yes
I see this
And feel the pulsing of my veins
Yes
I see this
Every time it rains

In the beginning
It was pure
It was full
I was sure
That I loved you
But it ended
When you broke my heart in two
We started over
Again and again
And once again
I see the signs I see
When things must end
I cant bring myself to do it
To break her heart again
I know I still love her
Enough to care that much
But I dont know
If love is really true
Should I hurt this girl
Or stay miserable in where I sit
In this poem I fear
A message will be sent
As her eyes scan the words
To read it will be tough
I know I love her still
But just not enough
I hate the message I must send
Because a heart always breaks
When things must end

Hurry, hurry
Say the mice as they scurry
The cats in a fury
And my vision is blurry
Faster, faster
bow to your master
Dreams that appear in plaster
Built by demonic stone casters
Ring, ring
That bell does sing
With a boom
A crash
And a ding
The sound
Flies around
And puts the cat in a fury
The mice scream as they scurry
Hurry, hurry

Your beauty blinds me
It takes me
Can break me
I can't see
When greeted with your radiance
Lost in your innocence
May I have this dance?
Attached to your glow
Which blazes hotter than the sun
And I come undone
And then I know
You know who you are
I'm falling
For a white hot star