Thump Thump
My pulse does speak
Thump Thump
What do I seek
Angelic in my eyes
I begin to realize
I've been ostracized
I verify
To what I identify
Stupefies
My mind
As I try to find
My place

Sometimes I'm disgusted
By my face

Sometimes I cry out
In to space

Sometimes I want to win
The race
Or
Hang my head
In eternal shame

And all the while

Thump thump
My heart feels weak
Thump thump
My pulse does speak

The desert heat can be oppressive
Pressing down
From sky to ground
Can you hear that sound?
There's a sizzling in the sand
Slithering like a sidewinder
Wandering wistfully westward
A silent snake
The day breaks
And becomes hotter still
Skyrocketing
Along with your bills ;)
To all my desert dwellers
This one's for you
I hope you beat the heat
As I hope I'm going to

I want to burn the world

see my plan unfurled

watch the masses on fire

their screams make the flames rise higher

i want to burn

i hate to learn

new things in this world that keeps turning

**** with me, and you'll be burning

I am the first, so with fire i start

i am a monster, known as mark

I am statue
Standing guard
A silent sentinel
Slowly slipping
In to madness
Patience
My prized virtue
Has left me
Blind
I can't see
Broken
In pain
Screaming in my head
In vain
Be still my bleeding heart
I don't have much left

Whisper whisper
In the wind
Feeling somber
Let it begin
Whisper whisper
Let me in

Life is fleeting
Painful and plentiful
Disdainful and beautiful
Soft and mellow
Hard and brutal

Whisper whisper
In the wind
Feeling somber
Let me in
Whisper whisper
Let it end

Please....

So let me set **** straight
And try to illuminate
The essence of beginning
That you culminate
Nice guy?
Terminate
Erradicate
Attempt to dictate
With no knowledge of my state
At any rate
Sweetheart
You're nothing but a game
That thinks it can play
But hey
Sometimes
Deep down we find
Walking that straight line
Is getting a little crooked
Project your actions on to me
Because that's what I'm meant to be
I'm an example of who not to be
What not to see
Take the key
And open your mind
This world spins faster and faster
Hurling toward disaster

You think you hurt me
But you're just an after thought
You think you're pristine
But you're not.
My heart beats
With one girl in mind
And she isn't you
You look on me with disdain
While I smile
And rhyme away my pain

You had a friend in me
But now you've blown it
You think you know me
But you don't know ****

My temper was even

But

No more Mr. nice Steven

Trying to race my mind
It usually wins
My pain comes alive
And so it begins

I'm thinking
Wanna be drinking
Sinking
With an inkling
Of what comes next
I'm flying
And dying
Don't like me?
*******
You're lying
So keep trying
To produce that copious shade

I'm frustrated
Recreated
Into the fray
I'll navigate it
Swipe here
A slash there
I'll gravitate
****
A wink here
The charm there
I radiate it
I always get what I want
Can't negotiate it

I want to live my life
Like the ones in the movies
And I start to think
My life's a parody
Of a tragedy
Deepening my grief

But I'm still alive...

It's a small world
This i know
Its a small world
Where should we go
The earth is spinning
Let it go
Faster we're sinning
How can we grow
The stone is rolling
This is so
No moss expanding
But the river flows
Mountainous peaks above
With valleys down below
Life lingers listlessly
Lamenting in a hollow
Violence in baltimore
A hard pill to swallow
****** of innocents
Loss of innocence
The thunder rolls
A monsoon of mayhem
Malicious and malcontent
Answer this question
Is it worth our sacrament?
You never know who you'll meet
When you jump
Or just plain fall
Because its a small world
After all

Life is tricky
Full of intricacy
If you look at history
It says it best
Love is dangerous
More lethal
Than mustard gas
Utterly noxious
My heart is fractured
Like bone
Rather than muscle
Unsung is my song
My story untold
In the shimmering light
My madness unfolds
I need rest
When did this thing...
Become such a test
My back is breaking
Under the stress
I fight
To no avail
I feel my brain
Becoming a train
Inevitably derailed

What is real?
Life?
Love?
My existence
Your resistance
Sound and resonance
Pain and arrogance
Humanity
Or vanity
Gluttony
Under scrutiny
I feel it's time for mutiny
We've been fed lies
Though we have open eyes
No one is watching
We're just waiting
While hating
And baiting
The hook
But it's out there
Not sure where
Don't quite care
But I can't just sit an stare
If you seek truth
Just look

In my mind
There is a vision
Precision
Is the key
And me?
I can hardly breathe
When she speaks to me
The world is hazy
It's crazy
How much I'm in to her
As I try to learn
Everything about her
She can make me smile
Just by saying hi
And I
Just can't help but be lifted
I'm gifted
In this situation
And patience
Is non-existent
I'm persistent
And head over heels
I wonder how she's real
Break the seal
And steal
My heart
My art
Seems to flow
And I know
It's you
Bringing through
Testifying to
The sky
I'm high
Just from you
Tell me?
What should I do
I barely knew
But I can't stop thinking about you

A sweeping feeling
Crosses your face
A pace
Of rapid motion
A notion
Of life
Who knows
The power of prose
As I'm captivated by a candy rose
Sweet scent filling the air
Despair
Cant help but run
Its fun
Taunting, and teasing
My mind
I find
I cant deny
And I ask why?
Why would someone hurt you
Why would someone make you cry
Jealousy
Mostly
Butterflies flutter fretfully
As I say goodnight
And I go home at a slower pace
Knowing nothing cant take the smile from my face
:)

Smile for me
Can you do that?
Smile again
Yes I like that
When you smile
I feel my knees begin
To bend
And send
An image through my mind
Weakness
And circumstance
Make you seem so far away
And hey
I'm used to it
But it doesn't mean
It doesn't hurt
A hope to be understood
In the end
I guess I'm just no good

Sometimes I wonder
What's with life
What's with pain
What's with money
And how do we gain
This life is a train
Just bouncing, bumbling, and barreling through
It's a long ride
A painful stride
And a graceful glide
This life
Has me upside down
Just turned around
Thinking
Why's everyone so uptight
High strung
And just wound
Find me ripped
Whipped
Gripped
And lit
You got a secret?
Better to be tight lipped
Than split lipped
Then slip
Into eternity
Serenity
Is deafening
Defining
This life

The world is ice
Melting upon fire
A growing vice
A hidden desire
It's not so nice
And ever so dire
Retire
And sleep
The meek
Must seek
An end to the torment
For a moment
And rest
Attest
And find yourself
The world is dying
And I'm left alive
Why?

Melody
And harmony
Listening
To a symphony
And its playing my song
My time is short
And my thoughts are long
A new face to court
Caught in the throng
I think to myself
What's going on?
Life is intangible
I am incredible
Considered an animal
Living against the dramatical
Keep your eye on the ball
And try not to fall
Lest you find yourself
A vegetable
Notice me
Maybe you can see
Past the words
Into the picture
Furtively
And have the courtesy
To notice these
Literal annotations of beauty
Out of bureaucracy
And in to destiny
The rest of me
Is catching up
But can you see
The hidden meaning
I'm good at this
So probably not
So enjoy with me
This absent thought

Valentine
Oh Valentine
Invade my heart
And consume my mind
An effigy
In clarity
A purity
In unity
Take my hand
And walk with me
Close your eyes
What do you see?
Valentine
Oh Valentine
Take hold
Of my sight
When weak
Use my might
For you
I will fight
I find happiness
In your light
I can't deny
I won't ask why
Bliss is written
In the sky
In my mind
You are divine
So invade my heart
And consume my mind
Valentine
Oh Valentine

What's on your mind?
The world?
Your life?
Or others
In strife
Strife
A favorite word of mine
A synonym of hardship
Though more powerful
It has certain air
Like making vocal
The feeling of despair
Back to the subject at hand

What's on your mind?

I love myself
I'm not a pessimist
But don't call me an optimist
I prefer the term narcissist
If you can handle it
Get over it
People are too serious
Trying to be mysterious
And failing
I wear my mind on my sleeve
On that note
When I spoke
It was a joke
Take it as such
And don't lose your shirt

I look up
And wonder why
Why is it so easy
For people to hurt eachother
To insult
To offend
To ridicule
No defense
From mental sabotage
It's all a facade
So applaud
For those without hatred
For those without malice
Take the chalice
And drink

I guess
The world is harsh
I guess
I'm just not nice enough
I guess
I'm just a *******
All these things I guess
All because you told me so
But check it
This is what I know
I'm awesome
I'm ****
I'm winning in life
Y'all just messy
I'm a one of a kind
And I'm hard to find
I'm writing this rhyme
Just to waste some time
And relax my mind
Can you see that line?
Yeah you crossed it
Cause you lost it
Sent it to prison and salad tossed it
I'm nauseous
Every time I think
About your exsistence
It's a resistance
Electrical in nature
Sudden like the rapture
Painful as a fracture
I write my own crimson letter
Cause in the end,
I'll always be better

Nice guys finish last
An old adage
I've been contemplating the meaning
The feeling
Has me reeling
In laughter
Despite my narcissism
I am considered "nice"
Because I care
Do you dare?
Ask me why its funny
Why my sides are sore
An adage I used to abhor
An insult?
No
There is hidden meaning
That'll have you screaming
Even squealing
With delight
As my seams begin to burst
I ask "hey ladies?"
Do you really want a ****
That "finishes" first?

The world is crazy
The world is nuts
Vision is hazy
Stuck in a rut
The view is perfect
But not too much
An errant touch
Is just enough

In the night
I have been thinking
When I sleep
I've been dreaming
About my old friends
No
It's not what you think
But can you believe
It's not a sound to be heard
My old friends are words
They make me whole
They fill the holes
That sadness can bring
Though my life is happier
The sadness is still a memory
A memory can be harmless
But it has the power to destroy
Or annoy
It all depends on your point of view
And few
Share mine
This time
I'll try to explain
My brain
And its happenings
A labyrinth
A maze
But I still have my friends
You chew them up
And you spit them out
And consider it speaking
Yet your logic is weakening
As you hear the truth
I have a task for you
To change that point of view
Assemble my old friends
And let's paint a picture