you know youre addicted
to self harm
when you start noticing
the scratches, scars
and bruises on others
and you wish
they were on your skin
not theirs

(s.q)

i want to lay with you
in the quiet
and watch the fog configure around us
as the world moves
we're still
because we have no need
to move
we're together
and all i need
is your hands rubbing my skin
and keeping me warm
while your green eyes
remind me of spring to come

(s.q)

i love that you know i prefer
fairy lights over candles
and coffee over tea
and cats over dogs
        i love that you know all my details
        as if you made a map of the
        marks on my skin
        and traced them every day

(s.q)

downhill slopes and uphill climbs
shaggy hair flying down
                         exhausted breaths
                grinning mouths
tired limbs
                            shivering skin
comforted hearts
green eyes

ive recignised
my struggles
as a bird
flying into the
harsh bashing wind
as everyone watches.
                giving up
                means
         f           a       l        l          i     n              g
and yet everyone
can see im going
no where
but backwards

(s.q)

when did i become
a ticking time bomb
ready to expload
at any given time
how did anxiety
make me this fragile
im scared
                    one day
im going to not be able
to put back together
after an explosian.               (s.q)

mum cried into my shoulder
and told me to never  e v e r
leave her. to never give up
to never die. i told her i wouldnt
i promised. i dont want to fail her
ever. i wont die. i wont.

(s.q)

all i need
is your lips on my skin
and your hands on my hips
and magically
i feel
                            alive
(s.q)

i feel your hands on my skin
late at night
holding me tight to you
and i feel
your heartbeat
through my spine
holding me up
and keeping me alive

(s.q)

your half lilted smile
tilts my life
into swirling movements
of happiness and peace

there is a depression
deep inside my soul
im so glad
youre not too terrified
to shine your light there

(s.q)