i want to lay with you in the quiet and watch the fog configure around us as the world moves we're still because we have no need to move we're together and all i need is your hands rubbing my skin and keeping me warm while your green eyes remind me of spring to come
i love that you know i prefer fairy lights over candles and coffee over tea and cats over dogs i love that you know all my details as if you made a map of the marks on my skin and traced them every day
ive recignised my struggles as a bird flying into the harsh bashing wind as everyone watches. giving up means f a l l i n g and yet everyone can see im going no where but backwards
when did i become a ticking time bomb ready to expload at any given time how did anxiety make me this fragile im scared one day im going to not be able to put back together after an explosian. (s.q)
mum cried into my shoulder and told me to never e v e r leave her. to never give up to never die. i told her i wouldnt i promised. i dont want to fail her ever. i wont die. i wont.