Ricotta: Poems

Ricotta Nov 2018

You are a goddess
Even if you don't lose those 5 pounds

And while I'm looking at you
Through this mirror
I can firmly say
You're the most beautiful person
I've ever seen
And will ever see

Remember me

I'm back

#sad #me #anorexia #sadness #pain #selflove #love

blue

Ricotta Mar 2018

blue

I
am
healing
but I don't want you to take off your shoes in my home yet

I
am
healing
but I'm still afraid of your touch

I
am
healing
but while I'm healing, you're burning like a broken electric wire, and while you burn you bloom

so yes, I am healing
slowly
trembling
feeling numb
but healing

#sadness #you #broken #numb #healing #love #blue #pure #day #night

honey

Ricotta Oct 2020

honey

I think I might be lost in you,
my love.
I hope you never ever leave my side
sweet angel
you've got my heart on your sleeve

#love #soulmate #lost #please #lover #life #sadness

make a wish

Ricotta May 2018

make a wish

In Italy we say
that when you eat
a new kind of fruit
for the first time in the year
you can make a wish

so I spent two weeks
eating exotic and strange fruits

but you still haven't came back to me

#love #sorry #italy #you #pain #sadness #lust #tired

purple

Ricotta Apr 2018

purple

you make me feel whole
reborn
purified
young

I fear the day I'll stop loving you

just thoughts. I love you and I never want to hurt you, and that scares me so much

#afraid #fear #love #you #young #color #calm #sad #sadness

river

Ricotta Jun 2018

river

I
feel
peace

the flowing of the river
takes me away
slowly
from you

I
can
breathe

I will never love again
but for now this water is enough

I can let go, but I will never move on. Love you always.

#peace #chill #love #you #bye #death #sad #happy #finally #river

rotten body

Ricotta Aug 2022

rotten body

I'll be getting old and still
trying to make this body bearable
covering it in tattoos
painting its nails
manically
sickening looking
for proof of its monstrousness
in candid photos
starving it and then
filling it

Or even worse,
not being able to do anything
to make it anything else
than what it is

#eating #disorder

since you left

Ricotta May 2018

since you left

spiders crawling onto my back
constant earthquake

#you #leave #love #darkness #why #sad #death #no #earthquake #blood

when I saw you

Ricotta Mar 2018

when I saw you

fishes could swim through my ribs
when I saw you

flowers started growing on the palms of my hands
when I saw you

the stars made their home in my eyes
when I saw you

lover
I will join you by the riverbed
and rest on your collarbones

#love #sad #sadness #lover #nostalgia #death #you #broken #happy #lovely

white

Ricotta Mar 2018

white

I've thought about it
by "it' I mean suicide

I've thought about it
because I can't stand the thought of having to see my parents grow old

I know I cannot see them screaming for help,
looking for life
and just finding death

I've thought about doing it, really
and I decided not to

because my pain won't ever be as much as theirs would be
seeing me with a void in my eyes
and nothing in my wrists

#sad #suicide #family #death #wrists #help #white #lonely #alone #you

— The End —